uneventful

I haven't posted all week and i have no idea why. Maybe because my life is so uninteresting and boring....i think thats why.

I mean there is family drama going on between my sister and brother, but that is the most excitement going on.

I have to go to my cousin's wedding on Saturday in Cape May, NJ, so that should be nice. I actually got a dress that wasn't all black either! Its black with blue in it..its pretty but its out of my element....i usually go plain black for almost all occasions....hopefully i wont feel too uncomfortable in it.

Lets see...what else....exercise has been going great....eating, not so great...not that im eating bad or anything, but im picking here and there....and its hurting my progress i think....im still the same weight, but i should be losing and im not. Im not blaming anyone else but myself. I know what im doing wrong and that is all that needs to be corrected....i will get my ass back in line...i promise :)

Tonight i have to make a candy tray for Angelica's aunt for a party. Im glad i dont eat what i make though..which is a plus!

My boss's father died last night. The funeral services are on Monday. The office is closing at noon for those who are going to go, i know that me and a few of the others here are going. It is pretty far from here so we are going to have to leave before 12 to get there by 1:00.

I guess that's all i got for right now...tonight, make candy, tomrrow, wedding, sunday clean....my boring life in a nutshell....LOL

APRIL!!

Just giving a shout out to my friend April....i am sooo proud of you!!! You did what you set out to do and never gave up!! You are a great friend!!! I wish i was able to be there for you today, but i am there in spirit, here in philly, cheering you on!! Cant wait to hear how everything went!!!

a baby rant :)

I went to see Genesis last night in concert. They were really good....too many long instrumentals i think, but overall a great show. I went with my brother-in-law Nicky. He was the only one who was going to enjoy it along with me. Michelle actually wanted to go after the fact, but when i had originally said that i wanted to go and he said he would go with me, Michelle didn't want to go..so it was just me and him!

On the fitness front.....today i did back. My week so far has been:

Monday: legs
Tuesday: chest
Wednesday: shoulders
Thursday: Back

Tomorrow will be biceps and abs.

My food intake has been pretty good. Todays meals:

M1: After workout shake
M2: oatmeal/egg whites
M3: protien shake
M4: salad with grilled cajun chicken
M5: yogurt
M6: grilled chicken (or pork-i havent decided yet), string beans, salad

I really need to keep up with writing down my food....my diet has become such a habit now that i just do it automatically but there are times when i pick, and if i am keeping a strict record of what is going in my mouth, then, maybe i wont do it....

I haven't taken progress pictures in a loooong time either....ever since i got back from Washington, and gaining 3 pounds back from that vacation....im really struggling with my eating for some reason....not that im really being bad, but lets just say im giving myself more "treats" than i was....even Adam has noticed my slacking! I told him I know exactly what im doing wrong and i am fixing it.....i think a big part of it is not doing any extra....i need to do extra cardio....that is what is going to kick it up a notch! I know that....just getting my ass to do it, that is the problem....im not going to beat myself up over it, but im not seeing any differences like i was before....and i think inside my screwed up head, im getting that old mentality back of little bites here and there aren't going to hurt me....but they do...and not having Tony to hold me responsible for it, gives me that "i can have it" mentality, which needs to stop.

Look at April....she started a month and a half before me....she looks incredible and she is going to kick butt on Saturday!! I am so proud of her!

Maybe that is what i need....i need to re-evaluate my goals and write them out. I was talking to my cousin about working out and diet last Sunday (he is really into diet and training too) and i had mentioned to him that i had wanted to ask him to go to the Atlantic City Pro show (because i am dying to see a show in person) and he said "you should have called me, i would have went" and I was telling him about how great April is doing and how she is doing a show...etc....and he said, "did you ever consider doing a show" he said "you could definitely do it" Now, i don't know about that, but it made me feel good knowing that someone thought that i could actually do something like that!

I was supposed to have been at my goal weight by June....and im going backwards a bit....and now this freaking 3 pounds is biting me in the ass!!! The scale wont move!

I know im beating myself up....im still working my ass off and getting stronger every week...im still working out 5-6 days a week faithfully and my eating is 90% clean.....but the drive that i had when i started Tony's program has started to relax a little and i have to get that mentality back! No more bites, no more tastes. Thats what got me where i was back in February....i will get to my goal weight if its the last thing i do! Especially since i have a wedding dress to fit into!!!

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Im going to be an aunt....again!

Well yes its true! My sister told us all last night that she is pregnant and is due on April 27th! Im so happy for them both. They have actually been trying for about a year or so, so im glad she is finally able to have one! I was teasing her last night telling her she was going to be all fat in my wedding pictures now! LOL! And she made a boo-boo face!!! Well, its true....she is going to be 7 months pregnant in February! I called the dressmaker and she said she can order fabric and just take the sides out and add to it....which is good!

I had back and triceps today. I love working my back....because i think that as far as upper body exercises go, i lift the heaviest for back....

Well getting home from the game late (we won 12-4, and the seats were awesome!) and then stopping at my moms to see my sister, i had no food prepared for today, so i had to buy breakfast (oatmeal and egg whites) which cost me $7.00 and a salad for lunch with turkey (which also cost me $7.00)....two reasons why i pack my food....1) nutritionally i need to for my diet, and 2) MONEY! I dont know how people eat out constantly! It gets to be so expensive!

I am going to try and look for shoes and "undergarments" for the wedding tomorrow.

But tonight i have to go to Petsmart and buy dog food, cat food and litter! Im out of everything!

I am sooo ready to go home...this day is dragging!!!

take me out to the ballgame

Is it possible to get allergies this late in life? My nose is running, my eyes are all heavy and tired, and my head has pressure...its either allergies or im just getting a little cold....whichever way you look at it, it sucks..cause i just want to crawl up in bed and sleep.

Im going to the Phillies game tonight with Adam. We got tickets from my boss and the seats are really good so that should be fun...even though they are kinda sucking right now...they lost, i think 12-0 last night! So we shall see how they do tonight. But these seats are close to the dugout and the Phillies Phanatic is the best! He is tons of fun!


I went and looked at invitations last night. Too many choices...it was hard but i think i finally decided on one....they weren't too expensive....so we shall see.

I had abs today....and i actually did more than was on my sheet. YAY me!

I need to get to the petstore desperately! The cat and the dog both need food and the cat needs litter...so i have to go there tomorrow! Thank god got paid today! Cause my ass was broke!

oh well

I am so aggrevated. I was at the gym this morning and i went upstairs to the third floor (my gym is set up very weird....1st floor is the main floor and cardio machines..the second floor is the spinning room/aerobic room, the third floor are the weight machines and some free weights...oh and the basement is the heavy lifting room) anyway...there was a smith machine that i used constantly up there and it was wonderful....well one day, it wasn't working properly, so i told the maintence guy there that something was wrong with it and the next day i see they are working on it...yay...well then i go back the next day and its still down, so i think they are waiting for a part or something...well now its the second week and its still down...so i go and ask the guy what the deal was...he said, "oh its not going back up...we are getting rid of it" OMG!! I was going to freak! I asked why and he said "oh i dont know they have been wanting to get rid of it for a while now" I said "you dont understand..that is my favorite and i use it constantly" The guy goes "well it was supposed to be taken out of here...the fire department guys wanted it but they never came for it" I said well then I will take it....to which he didn't respond....so i asked who i can contact to complain..because i need that machine! I hate fucking Ballys....they suck!

I have absolutely no money...again.....and my pants are horribly big and i need new ones desperately! But i have to wait and suffer until i get some money :)

On the fitness front...eating has been on target! I took a picture of my back the other night to see if i could see any muscles....my back looks good...not all cut or anything but you are starting to see some definition, I think...but i never noticed...i have a lot of beauty marks/moles on my back...LOL! Never see them so i never really knew...LOL! Maybe i will post it...not sure yet :)

not much

Well because of the holiday my workouts got kind of screwed up so today was my leg day with a focus on my hamstrings....oh and i will be hurting in the next few days...i know it...and i love it :) I got my extra cardio in last night for an hour....i was only going to do a half hour but me and adam were talking(and partly quarreling) and the next thing i knew, i was at 48 minutes....so i finished it out with an even 60 minutes :)

I made plans to visit my friend Diana on Sunday. So i get to see the twins! They are getting so big already! So im excited to go there. She doesn't live too far from me, but its far enough that it has to be a planned visit.

Next week im going to go and look at invitations.

I have my cousin's wedding on September 29th in Cape May, NJ and I have Adam's friend's wedding the following weekend. Then it will be Halloween, Thanksgiving and Christmas before you know it! Which means that my wedding will be coming! Crazy!

Anyway...the scale isn't budging...and it needs to....that is why im hoping some extra cardio will do me good. I guess thats all i got for now.

Back to the Grind

I cannot believe it is September 5th already! Time is going by so fast! This Labor Day weekend went by too fast too. I had a half day from work on friday and i attempted to go to look at invitations...well i get there and they are closed for the holiday...figures. So my mom and dad came over and my dad put in a light for me in my basement....he got all done, it worked for a few minutes, and then it sparked and it went out...LOL! He needed some other wire or something so he couldn't finish it....so me and my mom cleaned more of my basement out...it is such a big mess...maybe one day it will be all neat and organized down there.

Saturday we took a ride with Angelica to the beach. It was really windy and the sand was blowing everywhere! The weather was nice except for the sandstorm! So we didn't last long on there at all!

Sunday i went furniture shopping with my mom..she is trying to find a new kitchen/dining room set....which we found one but my dad thinks its too wide and it wont fit....i think it will be fine...but my mom is very indecisive and she has been trying to find a set to match her china cabinet and she is having a hard time! She probably could have had one made in the time it has taken her to find one!

Monday, i went to BJ's to stock up on food...the cabinets and the fridge were bare! It was bad! I didn't even have any eggs! Spent 158.00 in there and i still have to go to the supermarket and pick up some stuff! And i was so pissed, i was just finishing in line and i forgot my egg whites....but i had eggs so they will have do do for now. Then we went to our friends (well Adam's friend)'s house for a BBQ...but it was only the four of us and their son.

Yesterday me and Adam took the day off from work and took a ride to the beach...it was absolutely perfect out....and there were no kids running everywhere because everyone was back in school :) We played in the ocean like kids and it was wonderful...and i got some sun which made the day even better :)

Now its back to the grind....work and working out! I need routine! I need structure :) If i dont have my food and my workouts planned out, all hell breaks loose!

So now im all back to normal....except i forgot my damn oatmeal this morning! So i only had my eggs for breakfast :(