I went to see Genesis last night in concert. They were really good....too many long instrumentals i think, but overall a great show. I went with my brother-in-law Nicky. He was the only one who was going to enjoy it along with me. Michelle actually wanted to go after the fact, but when i had originally said that i wanted to go and he said he would go with me, Michelle didn't want to go..so it was just me and him!
On the fitness front.....today i did back. My week so far has been:
Monday: legs
Tuesday: chest
Wednesday: shoulders
Thursday: Back
Tomorrow will be biceps and abs.
My food intake has been pretty good. Todays meals:
M1: After workout shake
M2: oatmeal/egg whites
M3: protien shake
M4: salad with grilled cajun chicken
M5: yogurt
M6: grilled chicken (or pork-i havent decided yet), string beans, salad
I really need to keep up with writing down my food....my diet has become such a habit now that i just do it automatically but there are times when i pick, and if i am keeping a strict record of what is going in my mouth, then, maybe i wont do it....
I haven't taken progress pictures in a loooong time either....ever since i got back from Washington, and gaining 3 pounds back from that vacation....im really struggling with my eating for some reason....not that im really being bad, but lets just say im giving myself more "treats" than i was....even Adam has noticed my slacking! I told him I know exactly what im doing wrong and i am fixing it.....i think a big part of it is not doing any extra....i need to do extra cardio....that is what is going to kick it up a notch! I know that....just getting my ass to do it, that is the problem....im not going to beat myself up over it, but im not seeing any differences like i was before....and i think inside my screwed up head, im getting that old mentality back of little bites here and there aren't going to hurt me....but they do...and not having Tony to hold me responsible for it, gives me that "i can have it" mentality, which needs to stop.
Look at April....she started a month and a half before me....she looks incredible and she is going to kick butt on Saturday!! I am so proud of her!
Maybe that is what i need....i need to re-evaluate my goals and write them out. I was talking to my cousin about working out and diet last Sunday (he is really into diet and training too) and i had mentioned to him that i had wanted to ask him to go to the Atlantic City Pro show (because i am dying to see a show in person) and he said "you should have called me, i would have went" and I was telling him about how great April is doing and how she is doing a show...etc....and he said, "did you ever consider doing a show" he said "you could definitely do it" Now, i don't know about that, but it made me feel good knowing that someone thought that i could actually do something like that!
I was supposed to have been at my goal weight by June....and im going backwards a bit....and now this freaking 3 pounds is biting me in the ass!!! The scale wont move!
I know im beating myself up....im still working my ass off and getting stronger every week...im still working out 5-6 days a week faithfully and my eating is 90% clean.....but the drive that i had when i started Tony's program has started to relax a little and i have to get that mentality back! No more bites, no more tastes. Thats what got me where i was back in February....i will get to my goal weight if its the last thing i do! Especially since i have a wedding dress to fit into!!!
3 comments:
Well until you mentioneds it Angela, I wouldn't have thought it, but the idea of you doing show, is a potential one.
You have the looks for a show, and a willingness to od what it takes, but, (and this isn't meant as a criticism at all), I think until you could really nail down your progress solidly, and put up many barriers to negatives like sneaky nibbles, or slight lapses in Cardio, your mindset wouldn't be able to go to the next level, and you would at this moment in time, struggle a little with a contest diet I feel, of you suddenly had the urge to do a show.
Although the fact you have such glowing looks, means your potential in the future to do something like that, is there, as you have some good genetic foundations you could work with.
So you might not be thinking about anything like that, with much seriousness, but I think it's a never say never situation.
You just for now, need to be a bit stronger, really believe in yourself, and trust in your Head and Heart to guide you.
You don't need anybody else to hold you accountable, or give you a boot up the butt sometimes, you now have the knowledge, and the mental qualtiies, to manage your diet, training, and pick yourself A.S.A.P when you fall down.
So no worries here okay. When you get married you WILL sparkle, and be the model of a proper lady, and you don't ever need ot fear yourself, as you CAN and WILL get your goals on track, and to the end in the not too distant future.
GOOD LUCK Angela, and as a suggestion, I wrote a post a while back on my blog, entitled "Physical Charter", which you might find helps.
If not no worries but either way, you are doing really well, and you just need to keep pushing on, and being everything you can be.
You should be proud of all you've done so far, and deserve ot be smiling.
:-) :-).
Matt
That's not a rant. You see the problems and where the holes are and your fixing them. You're doing exactly what you should be doing, re-evaluating your goals, finding motivation, talking to like-minded people. You're on track - it'll come. You're doing great!!!
I think it's a great idea to revisit what's working, what's not. Best of luck figuring it all out.
My hubby wants to see Genesis. He would love the extra instrumentals though ... band geek.
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