Talk about motivation :)
Friday, October 31, 2008
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
24 days
Whenever i feel tired and aggravated and don't want to move off the couch i think about the girls above....not necessarily these 5, but the pros in general....all that they do to push themselves to the limits and how hard they have to work to get where they are. That they didn't just automatically look like that...that it took years of hard work. I know that it will take me a long time to get where i would be happy with my body. And I'm fine with that. I mean, i want to look like that, don't get me wrong, but i know I'm not going to get there in the time that i have been training for this show :)But it gives me something to strive for...to want! And that is what i am doing! I am pushing myself everyday at the gym...trying to lift a little bit heavier , run a little bit longer. Every calorie burned helps. I will get there....maybe not this show....and if i do another...it may not be the next one...but everyday i will strive to better myself...and that is what is important :)
So....24 days......
I talked to tony and again he made sure i understood that i need to get that 2 hours of cardio in....and more if possible......
so last night i did 2 hours....and add that to my 30 minutes in the morning......2.5 hours of cardio yesterday on top of my shoulder workout! I already feel leaner! Silly i know, but i know that is what is going to get me the smallest.....and hopefully the muscles will show as i lean out more ;)
I am soooo happy that Stacey is doing the show again!!!!! I mean, she is the MUSCLE in "muscle in the city"......i was so bummed that she wasn't going to do the show with us and now she is back!!!! YAY!!!!!! And don't worry Stacey...i got the peanut M&M situation covered!!!!
We have to set up some kind of photoshoot girls!!!!! How cool!!!!
And i wanted to give a shout out to Ms Kelly!!!! First...love your vlogs!!! Second..you made me LOL at you saying you were going to be yelling in the front row with some kind of sign on your chest!!! LOL! I hope we all live up to your expectations :) (Well at least me! ) Cause i don't live up to my own! It is going to be so great meeting you and Sherry!
Ok....well I'm out.....
oh...just for my own rememberance....weight.....109.0!
Friday, October 24, 2008
28 days!
Isn't that a horror movie? LOL! I think it is!
My tanning kit came today from BB.com :)
I had a talk with Tony and he wants pics....well he actually wanted them last night but he has to wait until tonight....i was exhausted last night and the last thing i wanted to do was put on my suit and take pics!
But we had a long talk and i was telling him that i dont think that i am lean enough (hence the pics) and that i wont be ready! He said i will be ready but i have to make sure that i get those 2 hours in NO MATTER WHAT! So...with that, i went to this gym which is a block away from my office and i joined there for a month...so i can go at lunch and get extra cardio in! I seem to be having trouble getting up in the morning....I try and try to get up when April calls...and when my alarm goes off...i just cannot stop hitting the snooze button....so im only getting in about 30-35 minutes in the morning before the gym....which isn't good...cause when i get home after work....i cant handle doing more than an hour.....its really exhausting! So to break it up a little i decided to suck it up and pay the extra money and go at lunchtime too :)
I had biceps and triceps today....i try really hard to concentrate on the muscles...but they wont come out :( What does it take??? I mean they are there when im working them..but then they go back to bed!
This is it...no going back! Whew....its hard!
But i will get there....i wont be perfect....i will probably be lumpy ;) But i will be there!
My tanning kit came today from BB.com :)
I had a talk with Tony and he wants pics....well he actually wanted them last night but he has to wait until tonight....i was exhausted last night and the last thing i wanted to do was put on my suit and take pics!
But we had a long talk and i was telling him that i dont think that i am lean enough (hence the pics) and that i wont be ready! He said i will be ready but i have to make sure that i get those 2 hours in NO MATTER WHAT! So...with that, i went to this gym which is a block away from my office and i joined there for a month...so i can go at lunch and get extra cardio in! I seem to be having trouble getting up in the morning....I try and try to get up when April calls...and when my alarm goes off...i just cannot stop hitting the snooze button....so im only getting in about 30-35 minutes in the morning before the gym....which isn't good...cause when i get home after work....i cant handle doing more than an hour.....its really exhausting! So to break it up a little i decided to suck it up and pay the extra money and go at lunchtime too :)
I had biceps and triceps today....i try really hard to concentrate on the muscles...but they wont come out :( What does it take??? I mean they are there when im working them..but then they go back to bed!
This is it...no going back! Whew....its hard!
But i will get there....i wont be perfect....i will probably be lumpy ;) But i will be there!
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
time......its a tickin
31 days! Yeah....
Well Im getting there.....slowly.....
Got 35 minutes EMC this morning before i hit the gym and did my chest workout!
Yesterday was shoulders (my favorite)....also wanted to add, got in 35 EMC before and 60 minutes last night....followed by 15 minutes of step-ups and 15 minutes of abs (which me and adam did together :)..LOL)
I cant wait for my next posing class on sunday! I have been trying to practice posing here and there...when i get a moment.
I was out of my chicken so on top of cooking dinner, i had to cook my chicken....we wound up not eating dinner until 8:00! I have to figure out something because this is getting to be too much! There is only so much that can be done prep wise over the weekend...
Adam is going away for training next week....he leaves on sunday and comes home on friday. Im sad...but the only good thing is that i wont have to worry about him eating and all....and if it gets really late, then i can just make eggs for me :)
My weight is down a little bit this morning...109.4....i want to be 108 by sunday...think i can do it?
Well in honor of Kelly's lists of things that make her happy and her peeves im going to do a little one too.....
Things that make me happy:
1). my husband, step daughter and my dog
2) my family
3)my nephew
4) coconut coffee from dunkin donuts
5) my ipod
6) taking a bubble bath at night...especially after doing legs and cardio!
7) the new mascara (Kevin Aucoin) and cream eyeliner pallete (smashbox) that i got from Sephora
6) emailing april in work (it makes my day so much better)
7) Seeing new little muscles here and there when i pose in the mirror ;)
8) . Trader Joe's Fresh Mild Salsa! |YUM!
9) all my blogger friends
10) my one piece suit
11) cherry pomagranite crystal light
11) cozy VS pajamas and slippers
12) abc.com---to catch up on my LOST episodes while on the treadmill!!!!
Things that piss me off!
1. people who dont look behind them when they open a door to hold it for the next person...rude!
2. people who dont pick up after themselves at the gym! I hate picking up the weights and putting them back on the rack, or having to clear the smith, etc...with the weight plates packed on there!
3. Going to cross the street and the stupid car(or shall i say driver) went up way to far on the crosswalk and you cant cross!
4. cabs...i swear that is how im going to die.....a crazy cab driver is going to run me over!!!
5. traffic....especially when there is absolutely no reason for it (accident)....drive people!!!!
6. my neighbor's dog that doesn't shut the fuck up EVER!
7. my neighbors who have the dog and leave it outside to bark for HOURS!
8. Running out of my prepped food for the week!
I can probably go on and on with my dislikes.....but i will have to come back to them :)
The World Series starts tonight!!!! GO PHILLIES!!!! I wish they weren't on so late....i will never be able to stay up!
P.S.----dont forget to add your name to my list of followers....let me see who you are ;) Cause i love everyone of you!!!!! You have all been there to push me through this crazy journey!!!! I appreciate every comment you give me!!!
Well Im getting there.....slowly.....
Got 35 minutes EMC this morning before i hit the gym and did my chest workout!
Yesterday was shoulders (my favorite)....also wanted to add, got in 35 EMC before and 60 minutes last night....followed by 15 minutes of step-ups and 15 minutes of abs (which me and adam did together :)..LOL)
I cant wait for my next posing class on sunday! I have been trying to practice posing here and there...when i get a moment.
I was out of my chicken so on top of cooking dinner, i had to cook my chicken....we wound up not eating dinner until 8:00! I have to figure out something because this is getting to be too much! There is only so much that can be done prep wise over the weekend...
Adam is going away for training next week....he leaves on sunday and comes home on friday. Im sad...but the only good thing is that i wont have to worry about him eating and all....and if it gets really late, then i can just make eggs for me :)
My weight is down a little bit this morning...109.4....i want to be 108 by sunday...think i can do it?
Well in honor of Kelly's lists of things that make her happy and her peeves im going to do a little one too.....
Things that make me happy:
1). my husband, step daughter and my dog
2) my family
3)my nephew
4) coconut coffee from dunkin donuts
5) my ipod
6) taking a bubble bath at night...especially after doing legs and cardio!
7) the new mascara (Kevin Aucoin) and cream eyeliner pallete (smashbox) that i got from Sephora
6) emailing april in work (it makes my day so much better)
7) Seeing new little muscles here and there when i pose in the mirror ;)
8) . Trader Joe's Fresh Mild Salsa! |YUM!
9) all my blogger friends
10) my one piece suit
11) cherry pomagranite crystal light
11) cozy VS pajamas and slippers
12) abc.com---to catch up on my LOST episodes while on the treadmill!!!!
Things that piss me off!
1. people who dont look behind them when they open a door to hold it for the next person...rude!
2. people who dont pick up after themselves at the gym! I hate picking up the weights and putting them back on the rack, or having to clear the smith, etc...with the weight plates packed on there!
3. Going to cross the street and the stupid car(or shall i say driver) went up way to far on the crosswalk and you cant cross!
4. cabs...i swear that is how im going to die.....a crazy cab driver is going to run me over!!!
5. traffic....especially when there is absolutely no reason for it (accident)....drive people!!!!
6. my neighbor's dog that doesn't shut the fuck up EVER!
7. my neighbors who have the dog and leave it outside to bark for HOURS!
8. Running out of my prepped food for the week!
I can probably go on and on with my dislikes.....but i will have to come back to them :)
The World Series starts tonight!!!! GO PHILLIES!!!! I wish they weren't on so late....i will never be able to stay up!
P.S.----dont forget to add your name to my list of followers....let me see who you are ;) Cause i love everyone of you!!!!! You have all been there to push me through this crazy journey!!!! I appreciate every comment you give me!!!
Monday, October 20, 2008
monday--32 days---109.8 lbs
Well my weigh in yesterday was 109.8!!! So im shrinking little by little...i had posing yesterday with Stacey Simons...she is so cool and im so glad that i have her to help me. We changed up my positioning a bit for my "model pose" and really it is difficult to get it all down...so many poses and how to stand, walk, etc....its crazy!!! And my calfs are killing me from those stupid shoes!!!
All is going well...im not as lean as i would like to be at 32 days out! I should have more definition and should be leaner i think.....i still have a belly and my legs are still flabby!! I suck! I want to look like i belong up there..i want to look like a competitor.....you had to see Stacey....she was just standing there and showing me how to pose and i was like "wow...i want your shoulders!!!!!" she hasn't really worked out since the Olympia and she is still all cut up! I want that!!! I know it takes years, but little things would make me feel better :)
One good little thing i saw was when she told me to move my shoulder forward, i could see a little shoulder cut :) That made me happy!!!
Well i had legs this morning and tomorrow is shoulders! my two favorites back to back :)
Im tired...i have to wake up! Cardio when i get home and then i want to be done everything before Heroes starts :) And i must be in bed by 10 so i can get tomorrow!! No time for slacking!! it has to be done!!
All is going well...im not as lean as i would like to be at 32 days out! I should have more definition and should be leaner i think.....i still have a belly and my legs are still flabby!! I suck! I want to look like i belong up there..i want to look like a competitor.....you had to see Stacey....she was just standing there and showing me how to pose and i was like "wow...i want your shoulders!!!!!" she hasn't really worked out since the Olympia and she is still all cut up! I want that!!! I know it takes years, but little things would make me feel better :)
One good little thing i saw was when she told me to move my shoulder forward, i could see a little shoulder cut :) That made me happy!!!
Well i had legs this morning and tomorrow is shoulders! my two favorites back to back :)
Im tired...i have to wake up! Cardio when i get home and then i want to be done everything before Heroes starts :) And i must be in bed by 10 so i can get tomorrow!! No time for slacking!! it has to be done!!
Friday, October 17, 2008
reality check
Ok.....i just booked my flight for the show!!!! OMG! Im freaking out!!! This totally makes it real and i think that i was putting off getting the ticket because that meant that it was really happening! That i am really doing this! There is no going back now i guess!!
WOW!!!! Im scared!!!!!! There isn't much time left!!!!!
I must have pulled a muscle yesterday in my shoulder/neck area and the pain shot into my head and gave me a massive headache! I actually went and had a massage at lunch-there is a place near my work where they do the chair massages for $1.00/minute...so i did a 20 minute massage and it felt sooo good! I am going to really take advantage of that! I waste money on such stupid crap anyway! At least this makes me feel good :) Well this morning doing chest it happened again!! I think that its whenever i push myself it happens! I felt like i was going to have a stroke or something!!!! I was scared. but i took excedrin and it got a little better ;)
Im meeting with my posing coach on sunday morning! I definitely need work in that area!
ok...its panic time!!!!
WOW!!!! Im scared!!!!!! There isn't much time left!!!!!
I must have pulled a muscle yesterday in my shoulder/neck area and the pain shot into my head and gave me a massive headache! I actually went and had a massage at lunch-there is a place near my work where they do the chair massages for $1.00/minute...so i did a 20 minute massage and it felt sooo good! I am going to really take advantage of that! I waste money on such stupid crap anyway! At least this makes me feel good :) Well this morning doing chest it happened again!! I think that its whenever i push myself it happens! I felt like i was going to have a stroke or something!!!! I was scared. but i took excedrin and it got a little better ;)
Im meeting with my posing coach on sunday morning! I definitely need work in that area!
ok...its panic time!!!!
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
Complaining??
Do i complain a lot? I was thinking about this, this morning and i think i do. I complain that im tired, i complain that my house is a mess, i complain that there is not enough time to do things, i complain that i have so much cardio to do, etc....the list can go on and on....i really don't realize that i do this all the time. And i even do it with Adam. I dont want to be this way....i really dont....but i think that it is part of my personality...im so used to being negative all the time....even trying to have a positive mindset...all that falls to the sidelines when im home, and tired, and i feel like Mrs Crankypants :)
I need to stop and take responsibility for it all. It is my fault that the house is a mess, its my fault that i have do do cardio at 8:30 at night, its my fault that im tired...im doing this all to myself and i need to realize that and suck it up!!!!! Doing this competition is my dream...and i need to deal with the consequences and not bitch about them!!!
All this is stemming from an argument that i had with Adam last night about the house....its kinda messy right now...partly due to the fact that i went food shopping on monday and have been cooking and doing cardio,etc...i dont have time to keep up with it all....well we have this woman coming over tomorrow for our life insurance and the house needs to be straightened up...i got off the treadmill at 9:15 or so (because i decided to cook first before i did my cardio...bad move) and i was EXHAUSTED! So, he tells me that this lady is coming on thursday morning!!! What the hell???? I got bitchy and said well she cant come because the house is a mess.....he said well clean it...and i got mad and said no im too tired! So back and forth it went and he said well its all your stuff scattered everywhere and if i clean it im throwing everything of yours in the trash! Yeah, real nice....but i get his point....i told him that im too tired to do it all and i need help....which he said that he would help if it wasn't so bad to begin with...back and forth, back and forth....point being, he said "you cannot complain about being tired.....you are choosing to do this to yourself....to do this comp......quit if you cant handle it!"
Hell no!!!!! I have come way to far to quit now!!!! I have to stop bitching and stay focused....it can all get done...i mean, come on.....how many girls do this with kids!!! If they can do it, so can I!!!! And i will.....no more negative nelly ;)
Monday, October 13, 2008
39 days!!
Weekend went by way to quickly....again! Of course!
Well we are now on our way of being close to 5 weeks out! Really scary! I have so much to do and i have nothing done.
My goal for this week is 109lbs.....can i do it????
Talked with Tony by text yesterday and he called me this morning to see how i was holding up. My diet changed as of today and he told me i MUST get the 2 hours of cardio in.....in addition, i have 15 minutes of step-ups...to work the booty ;)
I have a checklist of what i need to buy/pack for the show...there is a lot on there.....im poor and i need money!!! This comp stuff costs some bucks! I spent $30.00 just this morning for flax oil, green tea extract and ACV! Ridiculous!!!! This crap is expensive...let alone what i need to get at the store tonight! I am out of chicken and egg whites......im going to start clucking soon ;)
Other than that, i feel ok....im tired sometimes and my ankles are killing me! Which affects my runs...but i am continuing to do them.....i have to...its the only way this butt is going to get tight!!!
I watched the my sister's baby on saturday with Adam and Angelica! Man, when people say that once you have a baby you dont exist anymore? Well its true! Its just constant...from feeding to changing to playing...it doesn't stop! But he is toooo cute for words! Love that little guy!!! He cracks me up and makes me smile.....so that was my saturday night.....
I got in 30 minutes of EMC this morning before the gym and then i had shoulders at the gym and did 10 minutes cardio afterwards. So i still have another 60-80 minutes to go when i get home tonight! Oh, yeah, and i forgot, i have to go to BJs and the supermarket after work too.....man, it never ends......39 more days!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Well we are now on our way of being close to 5 weeks out! Really scary! I have so much to do and i have nothing done.
My goal for this week is 109lbs.....can i do it????
Talked with Tony by text yesterday and he called me this morning to see how i was holding up. My diet changed as of today and he told me i MUST get the 2 hours of cardio in.....in addition, i have 15 minutes of step-ups...to work the booty ;)
I have a checklist of what i need to buy/pack for the show...there is a lot on there.....im poor and i need money!!! This comp stuff costs some bucks! I spent $30.00 just this morning for flax oil, green tea extract and ACV! Ridiculous!!!! This crap is expensive...let alone what i need to get at the store tonight! I am out of chicken and egg whites......im going to start clucking soon ;)
Other than that, i feel ok....im tired sometimes and my ankles are killing me! Which affects my runs...but i am continuing to do them.....i have to...its the only way this butt is going to get tight!!!
I watched the my sister's baby on saturday with Adam and Angelica! Man, when people say that once you have a baby you dont exist anymore? Well its true! Its just constant...from feeding to changing to playing...it doesn't stop! But he is toooo cute for words! Love that little guy!!! He cracks me up and makes me smile.....so that was my saturday night.....
I got in 30 minutes of EMC this morning before the gym and then i had shoulders at the gym and did 10 minutes cardio afterwards. So i still have another 60-80 minutes to go when i get home tonight! Oh, yeah, and i forgot, i have to go to BJs and the supermarket after work too.....man, it never ends......39 more days!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Friday, October 10, 2008
time is a tickin!!!
I loved this pic...dont know who it is but i wish my back looked like that!!!
ok peeps! Tomorrow I (we) will be 6 weeks out!!!! That is not long at all!! Im scared!!!!!
Thank god im doing this with my girlies (Stacey---im still hanging on for you to do this with us) because without them i would probably really be a crazy person!!!
My diet changes up this week...cant wait to see what that brings!!!! Hopefully a loss of a pound or two ;)
Today i had triceps...yesterday was back.....tomorrow...abs......i need some abs!! Hopefully they will come out to play soon :)
Last night i was so tired...like i was hit by a bus tired....but i did my cardio like a good girl...and threw in some abs for good measure!
Today on triceps i added in some assisted dips and assisted pull ups....every little bit of extra helps right?
Adam got Phillies playoff tickets for the game today...he is taking Angelica...im mad though, i wanted to go :( Ah, what can i do right? So im going to my sister's for a little bit to see the baby and i am babysitting tomorrow so she has to give me her directions tonight!
Alright----im going back to work :)
Monday, October 6, 2008
46 days---110.8 pounds
Ok now its getting closer and closer.....
I sent off pics to Tony with my head cut off because i was super scary saturday morning. Weigh in was 110.8! Im getting there.....im leaning out...but my ass has so much work yet to go!!! I just keep trying to think about what is to come next....Tony told me to get ready for next week because at 6 weeks out..things are going to get tough! How much tougher can they get? How much more can change? Im already not eating yams or anything??? We shall see i guess!!!
My boobs get on my nerves! I have to look into what i can do to secure them when my suit is on. The problem im having is that when the suit is on, it shifts and my boobs dont stay in place and you can see it at the bottom of the suit....its hard to explain but the wiring on the suit kinda lifts and it doesn't lay flat on my body...i want to check and see if i can get the tape they sell for women who wear either low tops or backless....its just basically tape that holds you up..i have no idea what they are called but i have to look them up and buy some :)
Weekend was kinda boring....didn't do much.....took a half day from work and we took my nephew for his fall/halloween pictures....he is too freaking cute!!!! He was dressed as a monkey :) Friday night, Adam went out for happy hour so i did an hour and a half of cardio and watched 2 episodes of LOST. Im almost through Season 3 now. Saturday didn't do much....went to my parents at night to watch the Phillies game. Sunday, i cooked a little, washed clothes, took out some fall/winter stuff to wash and did cardio. Then went to my parents for dinner..came home, watched tv and went to bed.....super exciting huh?
I was getting kinda bummed out last night and Adam gave me a pep talk of sorts....I was telling him how time was going so fast and i wasn't sure if i was going to be able to get there in time...he told me how good i was doing but i was only giving 95-98%....where the girl next to me on stage gave 110%....that i have to become the girl that gave 110%....when im exhausted and dont want to move, the other girl is moving and doing what she needs to do. When i put that extra creamer in my coffee, the girl next to me isn't. When im at the gym and lifting...i should be the girl who other girls look at in awe and cant believe that this little girl can lift so much....i have to contstantly be pushing myself to my own limits....whatever they may be....to go that extra mile...to do that extra cardio or add that 10 pounds to my bar....whatever it is, whatever it takes...to make myself better....to know that i gave 110% instead of 95%....so even if its show time and im not exactly where i should be....at least i will know that i gave it my all and that is all that really matters :) That is the way that i need to think...all the time....that someone else is doing more.
So when im tired and my alarm goes off at 5:00....i have to think....that other girl is getting up and not hitting the snooze button ;)
*****edited----progress pics****
Please excuse the little bit of boob in pic (see suit problem above ;) ...LOL)My ass pic is still too big for you all too see!
Also...what is up with my legs?? When i went tanning that happened???? Gross!
Thursday, October 2, 2008
50 days!!
Yeah, um....50 days.....that isnt that far away people!!!! I got in my 30 minutes of EMC and then off to the gym for my back workout.....had a few different exercises which was fun. I really need to try and lift a little heavier each time because i want some muscles ;)
One more hour of cardio to go when i get home....its getting easier to get it done now....its just a part of my day. Routine.....but you know that once this comp is over, i am going to be so happy to not have to do 2 hours everyday!! It does get rough! But i do it...with a smile on my face....well most of the time anyway...LOL!
I have so much to get done in the next 50 days.....it will all get done though......and hopefully.....as i get closer....i will look like i belong on that stage!
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