Do i complain a lot? I was thinking about this, this morning and i think i do. I complain that im tired, i complain that my house is a mess, i complain that there is not enough time to do things, i complain that i have so much cardio to do, etc....the list can go on and on....i really don't realize that i do this all the time. And i even do it with Adam. I dont want to be this way....i really dont....but i think that it is part of my personality...im so used to being negative all the time....even trying to have a positive mindset...all that falls to the sidelines when im home, and tired, and i feel like Mrs Crankypants :)
I need to stop and take responsibility for it all. It is my fault that the house is a mess, its my fault that i have do do cardio at 8:30 at night, its my fault that im tired...im doing this all to myself and i need to realize that and suck it up!!!!! Doing this competition is my dream...and i need to deal with the consequences and not bitch about them!!!
All this is stemming from an argument that i had with Adam last night about the house....its kinda messy right now...partly due to the fact that i went food shopping on monday and have been cooking and doing cardio,etc...i dont have time to keep up with it all....well we have this woman coming over tomorrow for our life insurance and the house needs to be straightened up...i got off the treadmill at 9:15 or so (because i decided to cook first before i did my cardio...bad move) and i was EXHAUSTED! So, he tells me that this lady is coming on thursday morning!!! What the hell???? I got bitchy and said well she cant come because the house is a mess.....he said well clean it...and i got mad and said no im too tired! So back and forth it went and he said well its all your stuff scattered everywhere and if i clean it im throwing everything of yours in the trash! Yeah, real nice....but i get his point....i told him that im too tired to do it all and i need help....which he said that he would help if it wasn't so bad to begin with...back and forth, back and forth....point being, he said "you cannot complain about being tired.....you are choosing to do this to yourself....to do this comp......quit if you cant handle it!"
Hell no!!!!! I have come way to far to quit now!!!! I have to stop bitching and stay focused....it can all get done...i mean, come on.....how many girls do this with kids!!! If they can do it, so can I!!!! And i will.....no more negative nelly ;)
6 comments:
The main thing is, you realise what must be done, and that it needs to be done, rather than burying your head in the sand.
Take care and best wishes.
:-) :-).
Matt
I think you'll be able to do it... If I can anyone can LOL!!! :o) Hang in there!!!!
I just found ur blog thru April's!!!
Ok, this doesn't have anything to do with being negative...
I was married to a neat freak. I clean compulsively. After I got a divorce, I quit. And I've stopped for 3 years. My house isn't so tidy. My current husband will help clean but it's after fit throwing or only because his family is coming. And I swear I will keep it clean. But I don't. But it's not just my mess. We both work full time jobs. I think we should share some responsibility. But he thinks it's a womans place to clean. Anyway, I have heard "I would help you clean if it wasn't so bad." Oh, okay, great. So lets not help me and let me clean for hours. GREAT. Oh, and once upon a time when I was pregnant, his dad said "You need to help her out" and Clint said "No, I make more money than her, she needs to clean." My thoughts now are "Well BITCH, I make more $$ than you now, YOU need to clean." And there was a time when he stayed home with the baby and I was the only one working and he'd only clean like every 2 weeks.
Okay, now I am complaining. Sorry. I just wanted to chime in on that....
Girl, you are rockin' it!! Just a little more and it will be time to enjoy all your hard work.
Maybe make a little list of what you want to get done that day, just something small and when you do it, you can then check it off the list. I know that helps me get things done and it also shows that I wasn't doing NOTHING all day. Hang in there girlie, you are doing a FANTASTIC job!
It's your blog - complain away. You work don't you? And so does he? Right so it's a shared task then! I'm just luck Jason competes with me and understands when I don't want to clean, but he's just as bad as me - he can't be bothered either so I have to bite the bullet when it gets too much! Outside of Comps it's not an issue. I don't think you're hubby understands the pressure you are putting yourself under, it's a big ask! But keep it up, he can put up with a few more weeks of housework not being done - and you can put up with his nagging for a few more weeks, cause competing is something you have to do for you!
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