Happy Tuesday :)

Not feeling that great today. Woke up with a sore throat :( I cannot get sick right now....ugh! My legs are aching a little from yesterday’s leg workout too...so getting up to go to the bathroom 800 times a day hurts a little :)

Well this past Saturday was 7 weeks out....OMG...im starting to freak out a bit....April says that we have until October 13th for our cut off date to see if we are definitely going to make it.

I watched some of the Olympia coverage over the weekend. Honestly, all of the competitors are amazing! No matter where you placed....just BEING in the Olympia or just QUALIFYING for the Olympia is an accomplishment in of itself. I look up to so many of them for their dedication and their commitment. If you ever lose your fire and want to give up, just look at them, there is no way that you don’t get it back! I would love to go to the Olympia one year and see it in person. It has to be incredible experience! Like the Arnold is...just seeing so many spectacular physiques in one place...what more could you ask for! I watched bikini and fitness on Friday and watched figure on Saturday....but went to sleep and I didn’t get to see who won until I got on the computer on Sunday morning. I knew, from seeing pics from prejudging that Erin was taking 1st. Now, don’t get me wrong, I love Nicole and would have loved her to take 1st again, but seeing them lined up, you knew that Erin should have taken it...she deserved it....actually, they all deserved to win and I would die to look anything like any of them.

my weight on Saturday was 113.4. Looking back at my blog from last year, at 6 weeks out (which is this coming Saturday, I was 109. So even if I come in at 111-112 this Saturday, im still behind weight wise. So I don’t know what im going to do about that.

I feel a little different this time around though?? I may have a bit more shape this time around...maybe a bit more muscle...probably not, but I have my fingers crossed on that one ;)

So this Saturday will be 6 weeks and I have to do pics again for mike. So diet will change again too.

Energy wise, im doing ok. Well today I cant count because I kinda feel like crap, but on the whole, I have not been overly tired. Getting up for my morning cardio is getting easier, I just have to get up a bit earlier. Right now, by the time I get out of bed and dressed, and take my supps and hop on the treadmill, It is almost 5:30, which only gives me 30 minutes of cardio...so I want to start getting at least 45 minutes in, in the morning...cause time is a tickin....PM cardio is 45-60 min.

Im getting plenty of food still....so im not really hungry...unless I don’t get my next meal in..then im a raving loon! My body is so used to eating every 2-3 hours now, that once I hit that time, if I don’t have my next meal ready...my body is telling me to eat!

This weekend I will also be on my own...adam has to go to Kentucky for work. I wanted to go, but really, there would be nothing for me to do there....and having to worry about getting my meals and workouts in while away would be too stressful. So I will be home for the weekend with the pup :) My mom will also be without my dad this weekend...he is going golfing in Florida...so I will have a family weekend which is fun....there is a farm in jersey that is having a pumpkin fair this weekend...so my sister wants to take my nephew...so we will go to that on Saturday...they have hay rides, and pumpkin picking...all that fall stuff which I love!!

Well I guess that is all I have for now....until we meet again :)

better

Feeling a bit better today....no more bashing myself ;) 

I will blame that TOM for yesterdays post!

Yesterday i wound up doing cardio at 3 different times of the day....

i got up in the morning and did 32 min..then went to the gym at lunch and did 27 min...went to my sisters...came home by 8:00 and then did another 40 minutes :)

This morning i did 20 min EMC on the bike and then went to the gym and did my back workout. 

I definitely think that im starting to get a bit leaner.  My pants are starting to get big..which makes me smile :)  Now, dont get me wrong, i still have a loooong way to to in the lower body fat department but i feel good today.

I have been noticing though that my tops are fitting me different.....and my bras....they are tighter...in my lats and in my arms.  I remember a post that Kari did a while back ( i cant remember where it is) that she was saying how she was needing a bigger size because of her back....now i am in no way comparing her awesome back to mine, but maybe....just maybe...there is a little bit of muscle underneath this layer of flub ;)  We shall  see i guess.

Today marks 7.5 weeks out......um......so much to do yet....im glad i booked the hotel at least :)

Im also hungry a lot faster recently.....maybe my inner fire is kickin ;)  burn the fat off please :)

thoughts

Well as i sit here at work im thinking to myself that im not sure that i can do what i need to do to be ready in a little less than 8 weeks.

I try not to think that way. Im trying to keep all of the negative comments out of my head. But its hard not to.

I think part of it is because right now im so tired and cranky and a little hungry (oh and i have my period).
Giving up is not an option. I know that....but sometimes i think that no matter what i do, im not going to be ready. And yet again, i am going to be going up on stage looking like a gross mess.

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today was shoulders....my favorite.....i did get up for EMC...got in 32 minutes...then hit the gym for shoulders....

at lunch i went back to the gym and did 20 min on the stepper and i ran out of time and only got in 7 minutes on the EFX machine.....i wanted a total of 30 but hey, what can i do? I had to get back to work.

Im going to my sister's tonight...i have my dinner with me. I want to be home for 8 so that i can watch Biggest Loser which starts tonight....i want to get on the treadmill and watch it...i will be able to get through the session easier with that show :)

its Friday :)

Wow...for some reason i have all this energy and i just want to document it ;)  LOL!

I am copying a link from MD that Jessica posted on her blog.its a video of Cheryl Brown  6 weeks out from the Olympia....I love her...I got the chance to meet her at the Arnold and she was so sweet and her body is amazing!  Another reason that i love her is she is 38 :)  So there is hope for me yet!  LOL!

I didn't get up this morning for my EMC.  I was exhausted last night but because im a glutton for punishment i stayed up till 11:00 watching Jersey Shore...so when 5:00 am came, i couldn't move....and then i fell back to sleep and the next thing i knew it was 5:40 and too late to get dressed and down on the treadmill..i would have been on there for 10 min...so i got to the gym and i had a great chest/leg shaping workout!  It was all supersetted...one chest exercise with a leg exercise...so my heart rate was up the whole time!  I felt great afterwards :) 

Tomorrow is 8 weeks out....i feel really good today...i feel leaner and peppy, happy  and strong :)  I hope this continues!!!! 

I have to do my cardio today at lunch time since we are going out tonight for my mom's birthday.  And i have to stop and get wine too since there is a state store down the street.  So i will get probably 30-40 min of cardio done at lunch and if i get home at a decent time tonight, maybe i can do more.

Tomorrow my sister has to go to a wedding so i get to babysit my nephew :) 

love him!!!!

how does it happen?

Alright...now before i have a heart attack...i just checked the days countdown clock....58 days!!! 58 freaking days!!!!! WTF? Why is time going so fast!!! Slow down!!!!

So for the most part workouts have been good...eating good...cardio good...im a little tired sometimes...like right now...as i sit here chugging on a giant cup of coffee just hoping to wake up!

I have another cardio session when i get home....

tomorrow is my mom's birthday. we are going to dinner so i have to be careful. I will just ask for my chicken unless they have a decent fish... dry and have some veggies or a salad.

I just feel like i have so far to go and im never going to get there..im staying true and im digging deeper than i have in a long time to try and get to where i need to go. Saturday will be 8 weeks out. That is still 2 months. I can make some changes in that time if i just keep my head in the game. Patience, dedication and determination, right?

As soon as i got done eating my lunch i was starving again. Like so hungry that my stomach wanted to eat itself! I kept drinking water waiting for it to pass a little...it did...thank god...and now im drinking my coffee and i ate..then as soon as i get home i have to eat again and then do my cardio and eat again...and then before bed, i have to eat again! LOL! So im really not starving by ANY means...im eating almost every two hours...which actually can get annoying because if im working and my food sits by me at my desk and i dont eat it right away, the next thing i know, its almost time for me to eat again....case in point...i got really busy this morning and missed my 11:30am meal. Hey....maybe that is why i was so hungry after lunch? LOL!

what else???

oh, i did exercise ball exercises against the wall doing squats and lunges..they were actually kind of fun...i will have to do them more :)

I finished the first half of the 1st season of Glee on DVD! My sister got the second half ...im waiting for her to finish it so i can take it from her! Im so in love with this show! And now the second season is starting but i cant watch it until i finish the rest...so i will have to DVR it....

workouts so far this week have been:

Monday: 30 min EMC-gym-legs-pm 45 min
Tuesday: 20 min EMC; gym: shoulders-at lunch-20 min stepper, 10 min EFX(went to my sisters after work)
Wednesday: 20min EMC;; gym-back; pm-46 min treadmill; 20 min bike
Thursday: today--20 min EMC; gym--biceps/triceps PM cardio: 20 stepper, 20 treadmill or bike (not sure yet)

i guess that is as interesting as it gets for me right now.....

Happy Thursday :)

metabolism

I think that finally my metabolism is starting to catch fire....my body was just screaming for my 4:30 meal....of course i didn't have it with me...i had to, unfortunately, run down to the little store in my building and get a mini pro protein bar to hold me over till i get home :)  I hope that doesn't mess with my weigh in tomorrow ;)

cupcakes

I have been having this urge to bake recently...i dont want to eat it though???  I just feel a little creative and i have cupcakes on my brain....watching Cupcake Wars on Food Network has really made me think...i never have made a cake or cupcake from scratch....and icing from scratch.....i want to :)

I made chocolate chip banana bread the other day because i had 3 really ripe bananas that i hated to waste...so i made bread :)  I brought half the loaf in work, and gave Adam the other half to take into work...

maybe this weekend....we shall see :)

finally...a little update ;)

Wow....So many things...well I think I need to go back to the weekend again....Friday I got out of work early for the holiday so I decided to go over to a gym that is a block away from work and see if I could join for the next few months because it will just be easier to get to if I want to go after work, or at lunchtime...so I went there and joined..its only 50.00 a month with no contract so I just did it...they have a lot of classes that I want to look into taking too...they have kettlebells and urban rebounding and lots of spin classes....even at lunch time!  (Which I did take the spin class at noon on tuesday..the teacher was a maniac and I was soaked!...not good if you have to run back to work a big sweaty mess..but I did it anyway ;)....LOL) They also have a 30 minute class that is equivillant to P90X....I know it has to be hard!  I do want to try it out though :) So I joined and I worked out there on the elliptical/stepper for 30 min.  Thank god I had a Quest bar in my bag because I went too long without eating and I was shaking...so that got gobbled up quickly!! 

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Friday night I actually went with my parents and my sister and hubby and baby to Bertucci’s pizza!  I had told Adam that I was having no cravings whatsoever and that I would be fine with a salad and chicken....and I also knew that I had to weigh in on Saturday!  I was so proud of myself...I didn’t even want anything...not a bite of one of the warm rolls they put out on the table...or when they decided to put the pizza next to me because I was on the end of the table....I didn’t even want it!  Which is really odd for me because I love me some pizza :) So I ate my salad with grilled chicken, dressing on the side and an iced tea. 

Saturday was great...me and adam got up early and we drove out to Wissahickon State Park where he mountain bikes...and I did my walk/runs on the fire trail.  It was so nice out and so many people were out enjoying the break in the weather!  So my thinking at the time was walk out about 30 min or so and then head back.  Well at the half way mark I saw adam while I was stretching...he told me to follow him up on the trails...so I did!  It was great!  I was huffing and puffing and climbing and running and I enjoyed every second of it :) So total time was like an hour and a half but I burned like 800 calories! 

Saturday night we had a 50th birthday party to go to.  Again, my eating was great!  There was food there but I didn’t eat or drink anything bad.  I did have a diet coke and my dinner consisted of a piece of chicken and some string beans!

Sunday....I don’t think I did anything exciting except I did do about 45 min of cardio and I did a short shoulder workout then I cleaned and all that good stuff.  We were going to take a ride down the shore just to do something but we just hung in.

Monday was the holiday....we went and picked up Angelica and we went to the park and hung out there and played a little bit then we went to the mall and then to Target and Staples to get her stuff for school.  We went to Applebees for lunch....I just got salad again with grilled chicken and stuff on the side. 

Tuesday was back to work!  I got up...did 27 min of EMC then I hit the legs hard!  At lunch time I went to spin class and let me just tell you that the teacher was a maniac!  For a 45 min class, man she really kicked it!  Tuesday night I went to my sisters for dinner.  I brought my dinner...shrimp that I picked up after work at TJ’s :) 

Wednesday I got up and I did another 27 min cardio...what is it with me and 27?  LOL!!!  Did shoulders at the gym and then after work I did 50 min on the treadmill.

Today–Thursday—25 min EMC–bike—and then hit the gym for back...I was so excited..I was doing the RG pulldowns and I saw my lats popping and my shoulders popping!  I was so happy...its so funny how something that may gross some people out makes me smile from ear to ear :)

Lifting weights and working out is something that has now become a part of my life...even though I may bitch and complain sometimes, I absolutely love it!  And when I start seeing things in the mirror...that just makes it sooo much better!

Diet overall is going great!  I have no cravings whatsoever....I have to check in on Saturday with pics...I want to be 115...I was looking back over my blog from last year and I was 111 on September 22nd last year....that is, right now a 6 pound difference...which is a big deal! And that is only in 2 weeks!  I need to just keep doing what im doing and see what happens...my body composition this time around I think is different too.  I did take measurements on Saturday so I can track that at least! 

So now im getting ready to go home from work...I will be cooking and then hitting the treadmill for my 2nd round tonight!

I still have tons of energy and I feel incredible...I just hope it lasts :)

quickie ;)

I have been MIA for over a week!  And with the holiday weekend that just passed, im really behind!

I would love to make this short and sweet but i want to try and document some stuff.  Hubby is going out tonight so instead of trying to rush right now and post something, im going to get my thoughts together and write something more exciting later ;)

Just wanted to post something real quick to let those who read me know that im alive :)

I shall return......