Let's see...how am i doing so far this week???? Well i started getting up at 5:00 to get in an extra hour of cardio before i head out to the gym for my weight workout. Then i go to work, come home, and do another 30-60 minutes of cardio! I think i will really need to keep this up for a while to thin out.

Im a little worried though...but i am going to keep on going until the end....if for some reason i cant do june, then august...but im aiming for june :) This way, i can celebrate my birthday with a big piece of cake after the show!!!

I am supposed to meet with Stacy Simons-IFBB pro on sunday for posing! I am afraid she is going to look at me and think "how in the world does this chick think she is competing in 9 weeks??" I just want to meet with her and get a feel of how this whole posing thing works....I actually want to talk to her about helping me the day of the show....im sure she charges so i guess it depends, first off, if i like her, and how much it would be.

Eating has been on target....except for some popcorn....other than that..nothing off plan.

oh, here is a newer pic of my little monkey Nicholas :)

Isnt he the cutest?????

I missed Tony's talk show yesterday AND i missed a call from him this afternoon!!! I called and left him a message...hopefully he will get back to me :)

I will listen to the show when i get a chance...hopefullly tonight!

Greetings from Hungerland

Why am i starving today??? All day...i had breakfast, i had my shake at 11:30ish...by 12:00 i was shaking....at lunch at 1:00--its now 3:00 and im starving again...what the heck??? Im trying to down water to fill me up....it's not working....and i have an hour until my next meal :(

Weekend was ok....nothing of interest at all....i was supposed to have my posing class on sunday but it is changed to this coming sunday...and after seeing April's pics, i still dont think im ready to even wear shorts yet!!!

Maybe i should wait for the posing classes???? I dont know what to do????

What i do know is that i have to get all of my extra cardio sessions in no matter what!!!! It is a must!

This fat must go!

guilt :(

Why am i so guilt ridden right now and want to jump off a bridge???? why you ask?? because i ate some popcorn and a handful of M&Ms....you heard me....fucking M&MS!!!!! They were at the front desk at work ALL DAY and finally at about 4:30 i decided to stick my stupid hand in the bowl!!!

Now, the normal, rational me says that you have eaten worse in the past....its not going to kill you or really hinder your progress

but......

the girl who is supposed to be competing in 10 weeks on stage in a skimpy bathing suit and has been working her butt off every day doing double cardio wants to kill herself!!!!!

Hello Angela---aren't you supposed to be weighing in tomorrow and taking pics???? Wasn't it you this morning who was actually feeling thin and looking at herself thinking maybe that i looked a little better???

I feel like i am totally self sabotaging myself!!! Why would i do this????

Well all that i know is that my ass is getting on the treadmill right now to get rid of whatever calories i consumed this afternoon :)

now.....do i tell Tony??? LOL!!

chicken

I ate the chicken at lunch...it was good...try it...its really simple too :)

Oh, i went to Dress Barn at lunch (April..you love it!!!) and i got two tops and a wrap dress...well the lady at the counter wanted me to open a charge and get 10% off....yada, yada....well i said ok, got approved and then she rung me up....$37.84??? ok, i said.....i couldn' t figure out how.....so i left and i checked the receipt...she never charged me for the dress!!!! SCORE!!!!

how???

Well i missed a call from Tony yesterday afternoon :( I left him a message back, but we all know that i may not hear from him for a bit.....the diet is going well...im doing an "A" and "B" day diet...Day B get yams and brown rice :) But actually, it is a lot of food and i kinda like day A better for some reason...yes i know im crazy but part of me thinks its because there is so much more food to cook for my B days...LOL!

I tried a new receipe last night for my chicken today....i just put 1/4 cup of fat free italian dressing and garlic in a frying pan and let it heat up then i added the chicken, sprinkled basil and cooked it in the dressing....it seemed moist...i didn't eat it yet.....i will let everyone know how it is :)

I had shoulders this morning...but my chest and my legs are still killing me from monday and tuesday's workouts!

Last night was so hard, this was my night....i came home from work (5:30), fed the dog and cat, took out fish for dinner, put on the radio show on the computer with the sound up so i could cook and listen, made dinner, Adam came home, we ate about 6:45, then cleaned up dinner, started making food for the next day: made chicken, oatmeal, egg whites and broccoli. Cleaned up that mess and then it was almost 8:30!!! I was so freaking tired and i had a headache....Adam asked me if i was going on the treadmill....i looked at him with a look that probably would have killed him, and said NO! Then says, "you are never going to be ready in 10 weeks" which put more doubts in my head.....how does everyone do it????? I was so tired and so i took 2 tylenol PMs and was in bed by 10....

I need to do this extra cardio....i know i do....and i have been good with it......but time just flies by and nothing gets done!

I dont want to complain because this is what needs to be done to compete but it sucks...LOL!!

I thought they said that people who exercise get all this energy???? Where is it????

Forging ahead

I am tired.....between the extra cardio, my regular workouts, cooking, trying to keep up with the house, and trying to make time to visit my sister and the new baby....im exhausted!!! I honestly don't know how everyone does it adding kids into the mix! How do you find the time??? I seriously applaud all you mommies who compete! I dont know how you do it all!!!!

I have to give two shout outs!!! First to Ms. Stacy---you look incredible and you are going to own that stage!!!! And you so deserve it!!!!

Secondly to Ms. Tina---your updated pics...you are getting so tiny!!!!! You look wonderful!!!!!

Ok...now back to me...LOL!

I have been on the ball as far as eating goes....and my workouts have been stellar too! I am getting about an hour or so of extra cardio in every day....which i wish i could do more, but im trying! I was supposed to have my first posing class on sunday but i have a banquet for Adam's boss on sunday so instead of running around, i figured that i would just switch it to next week...besides...it will give me another week to lose another inch or two :)

I ordered my suit yesterday too! I have to get her pictures and measurements still, (which i am dreading) but i am on my way!!!

I made a motivational board for myself with pics and sayings on it to keep me staying positive...this is one of my favorites:

Discipline is remembering what you want

and here is another:

You must begin to think of yourself as becoming the person you want to be.

ok, well....i guess that is all that is going on in my world right now.....maybe, depending on how i look, i will post pics soon :)

Ciao!

Aunt Angela...again!

Wow, its wednesday already!

Im an Aunt again! Nicholas Joseph DelBuono was born on Monday..weighing in at 7lbs 9oz!

My sister went into labor on Monday (early morning)...i got a text at 7:10 am "hi--im in labor" I didn't get the text until i was out of the gym walking to work...i was like OMG! I called everyone...finally got my dad, I asked how she was doing, he tells me "she had the baby already!" This was now about 8:45 or so...so from 7:10 when she text me until 8:45 she had him!!! He is soo freaking cute! He looks like a little old man...LOL! Michelle keeps saying he looks like me....thanks....but i dont see it :)

This was taken right after he was born...he already changed so much! I will post better pics later.

I finally talked to Tony on Monday afternoon too! He wants pics and weigh in...blech! I told him i still dont think im going to be ready by June...but he says so....and i have faith in him.....i just have to get as much cardio in as i can...he wants me to lean out as much as possible while i still am getting some carbs so when my food intake dwindles it wont kill me as much....

I am also supposed to have my first posing class with a freaking fitness pro in about 2 weeks!! Im having a heart attack over that one! Im so not ready for that! Hopefully the next two weeks i will lean out more and i wont feel so bad....i can do this and i will do this!!

I will write more later.....im going to go and tan...i feel so pale!!!!

YAY!!!! Its FRIDAY!!!

Not that i have any exciting weekend plans...but im glad the week is over!

I decided to go with the blue suit :) I contacted Amy at Posingwear and she is going to send me the swatch of the material!! So excited!

I am going to order a smaller heeled shoe though. I sooo cannot walk in the 5 inch at all!!! There was this woman walking down the street today along side me and she had these heels on they were so high...and she was walking fast! I was going to say something to her that i was astonished that she could walk that well in such high heels but i think she would have thought i was crazy...LOL!

I had a back workout today....i really need to start seeing some muscles!!!! I know they are there....somewhere...underneath the blubber...LOL!

I got 50 minutes of extra in last night too....my foot is hurting me....not sure what is wrong...i think its either the support in my shoe or the way my foot leans or hits the ground when i walk. It feels like i need to crack it? it doesnt feel pulled and it doesnt hurt when i walk, only when i run. Maybe i will have to lay off doing intervals for a few days.

Flyers playoffs start tonight!!!! LETS GO FLYERS!!!!

body and baby

My brother's girlfriend had her baby on Tuesday. 8 Pounds 11 ounces! Big baby! She is really cute though. Here is just a pic from the camera phone...i will get better ones later...




I got to hold her last night...so cute! Its so weird...i cant believe my brother has a baby..and my sister is next! Crazy!!!

Workouts have been going good.....i really need to stop picking at things though(food wise). It is totally just negating all of the hard work that i am doing....it has to stop! Today i was able to work out at home which was nice...i only had abs and cardio...so i got to take a shower in my own shower!

I dont know if i am going to be ready for the end of June....seriously....i still have a lot further to go....and time is a tickin....im going to push for it, but if worse comes to worse, i still have august to do...so we shall see....im going to try though.....that is my goal.

Time flies when your having fun....or lack thereof....

The weekend went by so fast and i really didn't do anything good. Friday night after work i ran to the store and got more fish and chicken and veggies...got home, made dinner and crashed.

Saturday morning, got up, did my workout and 45 minutes extra cardio. Did some chores and updated tracker on Kellie's comp :)

Then we (Me, Adam and Angelica) went to Wissahickon park and Adam rode his bike and me and Angelica hiked...it was really nice out. Saturday night, made dinner (we wound up eating at almost 8:00) and we watched Alvin and the Chipmunks....so cute!!!!

Sunday.....went to the mall. I needed bras....not normal bras...i had to get bras with no underwire in them(little background...i wear my normal bra with a sportsbra on top for support).....it seems that with me doing all this cardio, the underwire in my bras are digging into my chest and im getting these painful brusies(cuts) on my chest...and they hurt!!!! So i bought new bras...hopefully this will work! Oh and then i ran to Target...i love target :)

Then i made dinner and i ran to my cousins house for her son's 2nd birthday....thats about it. I was supposed to do more cardio yesterday but being out all day, kinda threw my day off and i didnt get it done...

Oh, and most importantly.....i got on the scale saturday....i was the same weight...felt thinner but no....so then i decided to take pictures...bad idea......they look the same, if not worse, than my pics from a month ago!!!! So i got depressed emailed Tony and told him that there was no way that i was going to be ready for June and the way i look, i dont know if i would even be ready for AUGUST!!! So, guess what i got??? More cardio.....he wants me to do an hour in the morning, then my workout then do an hour after work.....i dont know how this is going to happen. I get to the gym now by 6:45 and i barely have time to do my normal workout with ending cardio!!! He wants me to do the elliptical for 1/2 hour and then stair stepper for a 1/2 hour....i gotta figure something out.....this sucks!

I wanted to go and see Kellie's show on Saturday so bad...but we only have one car and he had to pick up angelica and all, so i would have had no way there! I really want to see a show in person!

And on another topic....i have to order my suit....I sent both pics of the suits that i liked to Tony and he told me either was fine....he liked the blue more though.....i think i do too :)

I am meeting with that figure girl on the 27th of April to do posing....that ought to be interesting! She said "wear a sports bra, shorts and bring your heels" EEEKKKK!!!!!!!!

hair

ok, well if you dont already know, i got my hair cut right before i went to the arnold. I was impatient and i didn't wait to see the guy who has been cutting my hair for a while and i had swore to myself that i wouldn't let anyone else cut it...well i did....and its bad...not horrible bad, i got some compliments on it....but its not me....at all....i actually hate it....i dont feel pretty with it, i cant fix it right, its a big choppy mess! So, i made an appointment to get my hair cut tonight with my normal hairdresser...hopefully he will be able to salvage something and make it semi cute! But it is probably going to have to be short....so, in that case, i might as well go this short.....

Now, if i just had the body to go with it........