Time flies when your having fun....or lack thereof....
The weekend went by so fast and i really didn't do anything good. Friday night after work i ran to the store and got more fish and chicken and veggies...got home, made dinner and crashed.
Saturday morning, got up, did my workout and 45 minutes extra cardio. Did some chores and updated tracker on Kellie's comp :)
Then we (Me, Adam and Angelica) went to Wissahickon park and Adam rode his bike and me and Angelica hiked...it was really nice out. Saturday night, made dinner (we wound up eating at almost 8:00) and we watched Alvin and the Chipmunks....so cute!!!!
Sunday.....went to the mall. I needed bras....not normal bras...i had to get bras with no underwire in them(little background...i wear my normal bra with a sportsbra on top for support).....it seems that with me doing all this cardio, the underwire in my bras are digging into my chest and im getting these painful brusies(cuts) on my chest...and they hurt!!!! So i bought new bras...hopefully this will work! Oh and then i ran to Target...i love target :)
Then i made dinner and i ran to my cousins house for her son's 2nd birthday....thats about it. I was supposed to do more cardio yesterday but being out all day, kinda threw my day off and i didnt get it done...
Oh, and most importantly.....i got on the scale saturday....i was the same weight...felt thinner but no....so then i decided to take pictures...bad idea......they look the same, if not worse, than my pics from a month ago!!!! So i got depressed emailed Tony and told him that there was no way that i was going to be ready for June and the way i look, i dont know if i would even be ready for AUGUST!!! So, guess what i got??? More cardio.....he wants me to do an hour in the morning, then my workout then do an hour after work.....i dont know how this is going to happen. I get to the gym now by 6:45 and i barely have time to do my normal workout with ending cardio!!! He wants me to do the elliptical for 1/2 hour and then stair stepper for a 1/2 hour....i gotta figure something out.....this sucks!
I wanted to go and see Kellie's show on Saturday so bad...but we only have one car and he had to pick up angelica and all, so i would have had no way there! I really want to see a show in person!
And on another topic....i have to order my suit....I sent both pics of the suits that i liked to Tony and he told me either was fine....he liked the blue more though.....i think i do too :)
I am meeting with that figure girl on the 27th of April to do posing....that ought to be interesting! She said "wear a sports bra, shorts and bring your heels" EEEKKKK!!!!!!!!
4 comments:
Girl I feel ya! I am doing all that cardio and more right now and all I can say is...you do what needs to be done if you want it bad enough :) WANT IT!
I am freaking out over an hour of cardio. I honestly do not know how anyone can find time to do any more than that. Hang in there it will all come together.
I couldn't agree more. You wanted this, you've ordered or are ordering some stuff for this comp, you can't look for reasons to back out, when you spend money like that yeah :-).
This isn't one of those it seemed like a rush at first thought, but 48 hours later the logistics put you off. You're on the road now, and you can't find ways to beat yourself, and make out your not up to this.
I actually post on the blog of someone from NZ, who won two figure comps last year, first 2 comps, and actually lost about 130-150lbs approx in about 3 years, before doing it.
You have had a lot less to lose than that, in the last 9 months or so, and if she can, you can too.
Believe us all when we tell you okay :-). There are people with slightly better genetics than others, it's normal, but not so significant one woman at any level of competition, can get a 10-12% fat, ripped body, and some will never get lower than 25% bodyfat.
Only women who are so obese, they weigh approximately 300lbs-400lb's+, will get more challenging weight loss problems, from some yucky excess skin, when they're almost normal weight levels.
You have no reason to not be able to do this :-) You are not genetically inhibited okay, and the more you doubt yourself, the more you will self destruct your chances of competing, and then the effort, and new contest clothes, and other expenditure, will be a waste of time and money.
Remember, you've bought professional prep support, and apparell that will help you to the stage and compete.
You have not shelled out money for some useless plasticy rubberised piece of tat, off a shopping channel, that stimulates 2 muscle fibres in your Butt, and you'll throw away. This expense cannot be casually explained away, when it is not properly made use of.
So don't look for reasons to doubt yourself, because you do it now, you will potantially ruin your chances of being ready, and even if you make it, put a big dent in your mindset, and blow the show in a pretty big way, by being really negative from the getgo, and transmitting it to judges in your face and actions etc etc.
You're a truly wonderful person Angela, and everyone here knows this, and thinks a lot of you, but you have to start thinking of yourself in a more positive light.
You will never be a failure, a big blobby moo cow, or a person who doesn't deserve much in life, you deserve everything you are capable of, and deserve to be admired on stage, for having the courage to bust your ass, and show people what busting ass can do.
You deserve to be noticed for being that kind of person, as well as the person we know on here, but you don't ever want to be someone who looks at magazines when you're 60, and thinks that could have been me, it nearly was, it probably is almost 100% likely now, not to ever be the case.
Money and a great chance, to possibly feel the best you've ever felt in your whole life, (excluding the wedding obviously), wasted because of self doubt, and not trusting in other peoples confidence, belief and admiration for you.
I know you want this, and you DO deserve it, and you CAN do this.
You're a beautiful glowing person, so let the rest of you reflect that more, give 100%, don't doubt just DO, and make your dream real, not a faded sunset of a past time in your life.
Live with achievement not regret. Better to compete even if someone comes last, that be a what if person.
You CAN do this yeah, YOU CAN!!!!!
GOOD LUCK!!!!!!!!!!
:-) :-).
Matt
Yeah, that cardio is fun. I was ok with it until my sleep issues got worse though.
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