COMPETITORS -- Are you a PLAYER?

Well its wednesday already! I had legs today and i tried to go heavy as i could...which in turn means i wont be able to walk tomorrow ;) But i really need to work on my lower body big time! Well i need to work on my upper too, but i really need to lean out my lower!

I cannot believe that next week is the Arnold! We need a role call and whoever is going to be around on friday we have to meet up!!!

This Saturday i will be 18 weeks out! See how fast the time goes? OMG!

I have made a pact with myself that starting at 12 weeks out i will be taking weekly pictures for my progress this time around....

i still have a lot of issues with my eating....just as far as really what can i do to make it edible for me and adam on a daily basis....does salt really make that much of a difference in your appearance? Does having a couple of walnuts in my oats in the morning really hinder my weight loss? These are the things that bother me....

As far as cardio goes....im doing 30-45 minutes extra right now....most days of the week. This past saturday i did 60 minutes in the morning, then did my ab workout and then later that night i did another 25 minutes....and that was only because i had the energy to do it...normally i would not want to do that much this far out.....and sunday i did another hour....well 2 30minute sessions :)

Im trying to really stay focused and positive. But getting mad at myself does get me motivated too....LOL! Grabbing the fat on my legs makes me sad but motivated to get moving....

On Monday i had shoulders....and i really want to get some upper body strength....i did dumbell shoulder presses with 20#s for 6reps which made me happy :) I usually dont ever go higher than 15# but i did it....and if i had a spotter i could have probably gone higher but.....oh, and i did haning ab crunches too :) I tried to do a pull up...couldnt even get half way up! Im such a wuss!

Lets see...what else......oh i got my wedding album yesterday..it came out really nice....adam doesn't like himself in the pics but he liked the album itself.....

Anyway...i am going to try and stay focused an positive and make this blog a little bit more positive than always bitching.....this is my choice to do this.....no one is making me do it...so i have to suck it up and enjoy the ride......

This is a post from one of my co-divas, Tara, that i saved and printed out and i read it everyday on the treadmill.....i love it!!!

COMPETITORS -- Are you a PLAYER?

Lined up on stage, it is EVIDENT, RIGHT AWAY...

...You can tell who the COMPETITION IS.

With a glance, the judges have made up their minds; you're either IN THE GAME, or YOU'RE OUT.

Until you get to stage, you really don't know where you stand. You don't know who is going to show up. You don't know if you're 'in the game'.

BUT ONCE YOU STAND on stage, it is EVIDENT to EVERYONE. You're either IN, or you're OUT.

You are COMPETING right now, TRAINING against the unknown--competing against the competitors who have THAT SAME TIME AND SAME PLACE written on THEIR calendars.

Someone is ALREADY WINNING. Is it you? Are you training against someone who, TODAY, is PUSHING HARDER THAN YOU--or are YOU the one to be FEARED?

Are you a PLAYER IN THE GAME, or are you just playing with the IDEA of being YOUR BEST?

MAKE SURE THAT YOU ARE THE 'UNKNOWN'. YOU are the ONE who is training HARDER, BETTER, SMARTER than those who plan to stand next to you on competition day.

Don't LOSE your PLACE tomorrow by playing games with your program TODAY. Either you're a PLAYER, or you're playing. Which is it? Are you IN... OR OUT?

since april started this....and i answered hers....

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Its sunday....time to cook and do some cardio....fun huh?

The Arnold is quickly approaching....i cannot wait!

Yesterday, I got in an hour of cardio in the am with my ab workout and after dinner i did another 25 minutes!

Time to get cracking! Im 20 weeks out! And time is going fast!

I had mentioned that i had fell in love with a suit design that i had found.....well i think im going to have to figure out something else. And im kinda upset about it....i was so excited about it and now im pissed....i just dont understand some people's intentions sometimes....but hey....what are you going to do? So on that note....im going to have to find another suit....oh well....i guess you live and learn......

On anther note...i ordered that TC protien powder that Ms. Stacey and April are bragging about....man that shit is expensive! But i did it....it better be good ;)

oh well....im off to do some cardio......

i hate having a cold!

Today i had an awesome shoulder workout! I loved every second of it....i wish i had more time to do more..but i had to get into the shower!

Yesterday i had a mini breakdown.....i have a really bad cold so i was, i guess, feeling sorry for myself and i went out to CVS to get medicine and they had some leftover valentine candy 1/2 price....i bought m&ms and kisses.....ate some of them...oh and some popcorn.....and when i got home i just put on my pjs and laid on the couch and watched tv.....i ate crap all afternoon so i guess i wasn't hungry...i didn't eat anything for the rest of the night....i just had some green tea....and went to bed early....today i feel a lot better....and then also guilty for eating the crap.....so i busted my ass at the gym this morning and i am going to attempt to get more cardio in after work.....

i still have a ton of clothes to wash and my kitchen looks like a bomb hit it...i am going to say it again....thank god i dont have any kids...cause i dont know how i would do it...im too lazy and sloppy.....LOL!!!

Kudos to all the mommies....cause i know there is no time to be sick when your a mom and i guess you could just forget laying on the couch all night! God bless all of you!!!....i dont know if i have it in me!

I like to sleep....and so does my dog :)

Two more weeks till the Arnold!!! Yippee!!!!

days go by.....

Hi all :)

How did a week go by already? I get so busy reading everyone's blog that i just run out of time to post myself :)

So what has been going on in my world? Nothing much at all....just working out, going to work, coming home, cardio, eating dinner, cleaning up going to bed....repeat!

This weekend was a long weekend...i had off yesterday! YAY!

Friday--did nothing...adam went out with his friends for a bit...i relaxed and went to bed early :)

Saturday--we had angelica for valentines day....we went to an early dinner with her....and then came home....they had ice cream when they got home....i licked the spoon ;)

Sunday--worked out, cleaned, went to my mom's for dinner....

Yesterday-monday---went to the doctors with my sister...she had to take the baby....he has had a nasty cough/cold for 2 weeks...of course they dont do anything for a 10 month old except to keep an eye on him and give him tylenol....

Today was back at the gym...i missed my shoulder workout yesterday...i have to make that up...i dont like missing shoulders :)

I cant believe the arnold is almost here already!!! Im so excited!!! I fly into Indy on Thursday morning and April is picking me up at the airport for our road trip :) I hope the weather holds up! I dont want to be in any snow!!! Im only going over night...I fly in Thursday morning and then we are driving to columbus....going to pre-judging for Tina and Stacey thursday night! Whoot!!! And then friday we are going to do the expo all day....and hopefully go to the pro figure prejudging on friday! Then i fly out of columbus on friday night! So it will be a quick but great trip! I cannot wait!!!

I need a tan.....im so pale...i may go for a little bit to get some color so i dont look so bad with all those tan people at the arnold...LOL!

I promise to try and post more :)

Ciao!

Fiyah!!

Hi all! I am in such a great mood today! So im going to write about it! Cause it doesn't happen too often! LOL!

I got Gina's DVD yesterday and i couldn't get home from work fast enough! She sent a little handwritten note along with it which was really cool!

So i watched it and talk about motivation!!!!! She has totally re-lit my fire to get my butt movin! I kept on poking Adam to watch it with me....im like "look at her" "OMG!"

So today at the gym was shoulders.....i incorporated some of her shoulder exercises into my Tony workout....and i did some abs too :)

Tonight is cardio and then im going to the store to get some food! I was supposed to go last night but we ran to the mall and i wound up not doing cardio until 8:00 last night....which was fine....i did it until about 8:45 or so and went up, stretched, made some decaf coffee and watched Heroes :) Then went up to watch the DVD....i started watching it as soon as i came home but i wanted to get dinner done so we could leave...so that was my exciting night!

Do or die!

Its monday!!!

Ok I have to vent....there is a new girl that i work with...really sweet girl. I think she is like 27 or 28. She has a 7 month old...not sure how heavy she was before she had a baby, but she is pretty overweight..anyway....she has talked to me a few times about eating right, etc....and how she has to lose weight...blah blah blah.....she gets mcdonalds EVERY morning for breakfast....one day she didn't and had some Pilsbury scrambles or something in the freezer...i looked at the box and I think I had heart attack..it was like 20 grams of fat for one little pastry ...she had 4!!!!

And I just walked by her now and she has mcdonalds AGAIN!!!!!!

Now I know I may eat junk here or there...things that im not supposed to...popcorn or nuts or a little piece of chocolate....but I go to the gym everyday and eat well 99% of the time....i cant deal with people like that!! Why do I get mad?? I think i know why....because people talk out their asses sometimes....dont say you want to lose weight and then eat mcdonalds....it looks ridiculous.....and again im going to say it...i am FAR from perfect....I eat some bad things here or there....but my diet on the whole is clean.....but i know not to eat fast food for christs sake!!!

Anyway...thats my rant for the day!

Weekend was good.....went by too fast though.....i got my hair lightened....its like a lighter brown with some lighter highlights...its a lot lighter than what im used to...so it may take me a while to get the hang of it.....i was trying to take a pic on my cell phone but the battery just died :(

Gina Aliotti posted her 3.5 week out pics on her blog today! She looks AMAZING!!! I am so in awe of her! She is my motivation right now...and i just found out that her DVD came today....i cant wait to get home!!!! YAY!!

This past Saturday marked me at 21 weeks out.....i really want to see how my body can change in the upcoming weeks.

I get discouraged a lot of times and i want to stay positive...there is no reason to fail...and the only reason i would would be because of me...and that is not going to happen....i am going to try and come in a lot leaner than i was before....i can see some muscle underneath and it makes me excited to go forward....

I dont want to get down on myself...but i have these thoughts in my head like im a fraud and i dont look like a figure competitor and im a big joke....im still embarrassed to wear a tank top! i need to get in a positive mindset 24/7...not just when i read a blog or read a magazine...it has to be continuous!

No one can stop me but me! And im not stopping myself!!! This is it...full force, balls to the wall....i am going to do this, and do this right....this is the way i want to look, this is the way i want to be..so i have to be it...and just do it...this has to be my lifestyle and not just for a show....and im telling you all now.....i will not go off the wagon like i did after my show....it went downhill fast....and i couldn't find the brakes! There was no reason for it at all....i just had said fuck it...im eating...i was deprived for so long..i deserve it....now im paying for it.....so there will be no "off season" I am going to continue to build and eat clean....i will have cheats here and there...but im not doing what i did after november....its so not worth it.......

24 days till the Arnold!!!!! YAY!!!!

Dang! its friday already???

Well its friday! The week has gone ok i guess. Nothing too exciting!

Wednesday we got snow...i didn't go to the gym but it was only chest....i hate chest...so i just did cardio at home.

Thursday was my back workout...that was good....if i didn't have so much flub, maybe you could see some muscle ;) I can see it in my bathroom mirror sometimes...i like it :)

Today was my second favorite...biceps and triceps (my favorite is legs)....i did hammercurls with 20lbs! So that made me happy....i wasn't going to try it because i didn't think i would be able to do it...but i did! I guess if you doubt yourself you will never get stronger and never try the heavier weight! Im such a wuss!

Tomorrow is my sister's birthday....we are going there for dinner...i of course have to bring my own food.....my mom is making stuffed calamari with gravy and pasta...yeah, i dont think that is on my plan...LOL!

I really have to set up a schedule for my extra cardio....i need to try and make a pact with myself to get my ass out of bed at least 2-3 times in the morning before my gym workout and do some cardio.....then after work do some more....it has to be done...there is no way around it.....i know this....

I put on my fat pants this morning because i had nothing else clean in my closet....thank god they are still big! Cause if they fit...i would have cried! LOL!

I am trying to figure out what my problems are with my eating. It is the in between meals that i pick on things....nothing really bad but still not on plan things....like we always have popcorn in the office...and i grab some....these are the little things that need to stop.

I am going to stay positive! I am going to do my cardio like a good girl.....

I cant wait for my Gina Aliotti DVD to come!!!!!

later!

Tuesday in the snow!

Well the weekend went by in a blur....as always....

Friday...didn't do too much.....
Saturday--we had Angelica and her little sister over night...that was fun....we took them to dinner...i was a good girl...i just had a piece of salmon and a salad...

Sunday was our 1 year wedding anniversary :) We were supposed to go out to eat (just sushi ;) but it was closed! I dont know if they were closed due to the superbowl or what..but we didn't want to go anywhere else because nothing else was going to be healthy so we just came home and i made egg white omlettes and protein shakes! LOL!


Saturday-workout wise---i did 30 minutes on the treadmill and my ab workout...

Sunday i went to the gym and did 40 minutes on the EFX machine.

Yesterday-Monday-legs--and i had deadlifts on there....and unbeknownst to me, i was doing them wrong for so long.....Gina Aliotti had a video doing them...and when i saw how she was doing them i was like "oh! that is how im supposed to be doing them!" LOL! Im just a jackass! But now im doing them right and i feel much better!

Diet is going better...im getting a handle on my eating...it is so hard to be good all the time.....especially when everyone around you doesn't give two shits on how they eat and when you do they either make comments about what you are doing or you feel out of the loop and want to be eating the crap too! But im not...i am finally starting to feel better again.....my pants aren't as tight and that in of itself makes me feel better!

Tonight i have to cook up my yams and my oats and asparagus and string beans and i want to make a clean chili....

I picked up my wedding pics yesterday finally! I wish i got married this year...im thinner now....LOL! My pics would have been better!

Then i had a cat issue yesterday......he was having trouble going to the bathroom and he was leaving little drips when he sat down....so i called the vet...they wanted to see him right away...he could have had a blockage....so i went..they did tests, etc....there wasn't a blockage....but he has to be given an antibiotic for 10 days....he has either a bladder infection or a urinary infection....so i go to check out at the vet.....the girl at the desk goes "ok that will be $510.67 for your visit today"....What the Frig???? OMG! I almost had a coronary! I thought maybe $100-150.00.....i got all upset...i dont have 500.00 right now to pay this!!!! So to make a loooong story short, adam had to open a credit card that they use....and i have to pay that off now! There goes my income tax money! That really sucked!

Oh, and last night my mom was having dinner for us at her house for our anniversary...which i was late to because after all that, i had to drop the cat off at home and then go to my moms...i didn't get there until almost 7! I felt so bad...they were all starving!

I guess that is all the excitement.....

this morning at the gym was shoulders.....and then when i get home....cardio.....

I dont know if i had mentioned this already but i became a member of Gina Aliotti's website....LOVE IT!!! I think i have read every single post and watched every video! I just ordered her DVD too! I cant wait to get it! She has pics up on there today...she is 4.5 weeks out from the Arnold...she already looks incredible! I wish i would be able to look half as good as her now, on my show day! I cant even imagine how incredible she is going to look over the next few weeks! But im glad to say that i get to watch her get ready for it! Its really cool!!

Anyway...i guess that is all i have for now...sorry for the mess of a post...i went from one thing to another....to another.....ok...bye :)