Monday--75 days

Wow..its over a week since I blogged. 

Nothing really exciting going on except cooking, cleaning, cardio, gym, and visiting my nephew and family. 

Friday I took off work and we took my nephew to the Camden Aquarium, then I ran to BJ’s and got some food in.   Saturday I took a ride to the mall with my sister and then Saturday night we went there for dinner.  I took mine. 

Yesterday I cleaned all day and my family came over my house for dinner.  I didn’t really cook..my mom made gravy and I bought ravioli and everyone ate over our house for once.  I never have anyone over..usually because im not the greatest cleaner.  I have other things on my brain than cleaning my stupid house.  I do the necessities....dust, vacuum, sweep, clean the bathroom, and wash clothes.. But doing that deep CLEANING....that hardly ever gets done....im such a mess.  And as im cleaning I get grossed out....over strange things that you don’t even realize that they are gross until you go to clean them....for instance...the paper towel holder...gross...so I had to clean that...the spice rack on my counter....I guess that just cleaning the counters doesn’t cut it....LOL!

So on the fitness front.....

I was down on the scale a little bit on saturday...which I am now 11 weeks out.   Right now, I think its 75 days to go.  And that isn’t a lot of time.  I have to try and figure out how I can get this fat off my ass.  Seriously.  I think I may have to really consider doing lower body 2-3xs a week to see if it makes any difference?

Im going on week 2 on the new meal plan.  So far so good...so by not this Saturday, but the following, which I will be 9 weeks out..pics are due and diet will change.  I want to send him pics this time that show some sort of change...there better be!!!
                                   
I am feeling good still energy wise.  I have been getting my cardio in everyday...even with my stupid foot that has been hurting me. 

I really need to take measurements this weekend...just to see if im losing any inches!!   

I was looking back at this time last year and I am about 4 pounds heavier than I was last year at this time.  But im believing that hopefully I put on a little bit of muscle and once I start leaning out more, it will show.    I hate the scale.  I hate that my mood depends on that number.  Im only weighing myself once a week.  When I get on that scale on Saturday, I better be minus 2 pounds...cause it needs to go!

So Friday, I got up, did 55 min of treadmill... it was mostly all incline walking.....again..because of the foot.....im trying not to run too much...the doctor told me to stop running all together but im still doing it a little bit when its not hurting me...finished up with some ab work.

Saturday-47 min of treadmill.  Then did some lunges, squats, and abs. 

Sunday-55 minutes of cardio...and some shoulders. 

Today I got up at 5:00 and I got in 32 min of EMC before going to the gym for legs.  Had a pretty good workout.  Food has been perfect today so far.  Its actually almost time for me to eat again :) Im eating every 2-2.5 hours, and my body is starting to know that...because once I hit that 2 hour mark, im hungry. 

Question: I am really trying to tighten/lose lower body fat....I have read that some do lower body work 2-3 times a week.  Right now im doing 1-2xs....do you think that adding more lower body work will help make a difference?? 

Im falling into the same problems that I had last year...because I ate like a water buffalo from November until January this year, all the work that I did is gone.  So now im starting over from scratch again.  And its not fun....at all....and I will NOT do that again. 

I am starting to learn.  It has taken me a long time, but could you imagine how much better I would be now if I didnt mess up so badly after the last show?  I could have been ahead of the game...instead im starting over just to try and get to where I was before. 

Im not going to dwell on it...its over and done...I will get back to where I was...and hopefully look better than before!

Thursday ---86 days to go

Well first off i have to say that i have been getting up the past couple of days at 5:00 am to do cardio....i feel so much better when i get up! I feel so much happier, i get more accomplished, i have time to walk the dog, get my food together, get adam's food together, make him breakfast, etc. Its amazing!

This morning i slept in the other bedroom....i hate waking up hubby with the alarm...especially since he is a light sleeper but he has trouble sleeping period. So i went in Angelica's room....i set my phone alarm....i never used it before....1) when it went off it was loud and it scared the shit out of me and 2) I couldn't focus my eyes fast enough to find how to shut or snooze the stupid thing! So that woke me up too! LOL!

I got up and did 27 minutes on the treadmill...i was hoping for longer but by the time i got dressed, took my supps, and got down there...the time went by quick.....but i got up :)

Today was biceps/triceps.....and i think i worked them pretty good...but who knows???

I cant believe this week is almost over already! Time is just going by so quickly!!!

I asked April if we should book our room in KY yet??? I think we should! EEEEP!!!!

I am feeling good today...i actually have been feeling great all week.....which is wonderful!!!

Last night we had tickets to the Phillies game.....sitting next to us was a guy with his son...they come in and they both have pizza....it smelled so good....then a couple of innings later they go and they come back with fries with cheese! Again!!! The smells!!!!! Soooo good....i was thirsty....i wasn't really hungry but smelling all the food and seeing people with ice cream and pizza and funnel cake and hot dogs...it was rough! So i was going to get something to drink....$4.00 for a small bottle of Dasani water....i refused.....that is just absolutely ridiculous!! So i chewed gum....and when i got home...i chugged a big bottle of water :) LOL!

Lets see....what else??? Saturday i have to get up early...i have to do my morning cardio, then take 12 week out pics for Mike....then i have a haircut appointment at 10:00...me and my mom are both getting our hair done :) A friend of my sister's is in hairdressing school so i have been busting them for her asking her when she was going to cut my hair (im glad i waited since she graduates in 3 months) So she has saturday morning open...i took it....i think its only like $20.00 (compared to where i get my hair cut which is $60) and im not doing anything crazy....i want bangs :) I have been thinking about it for a while....after seeing Kelly O's

hair...i have been wanting to do it too....so how badly can you mess up a trim and bangs??? (Fingers crosssed...LOL)

I guess that is all the news i got..... :)

I will leave you with one of my favorite quotes : ) "To be a champ, you have to believe in yourself when no one else will"

Last to first :)

Wow...its been a week already!

Things are going ok.  Im having trouble with getting my ass out of bed in the morning for cardio before the gym....

I will be 12 weeks out on saturday....I have a lot to lose in that time...Im trying to focus on the positive and have that goal in my head of how I want to look. 

Eating has been pretty good.  I have substituted a bar or a shake here or there instead of tuna...because honestly, if I eat any more tuna im going to gag!

I emailed Mike and he wants pics and I have to put in for a new diet then also.  He said pics every 3 weeks from here on out. Which is scary.  Because my weight is still so high and I have a lot of fat that needs to go. 

Yesterday was legs...today was shoulders. 

Im hungry all the time...even though im eating every 2.5 hours or so...which I guess is good because that means my metabolism is working ok. 

I can do this...I know I can....I have a new motto for myself (in my head only) Last place to first place!!!!  Repeating it over and over in my head....not that I am gunning and thinking I can get first but just to keep me going....Last to First :)

the only one stopping me is me!

Happy Tuesday! Another weekend has gone by.....i took a day off yesterday from work and working out....so now my schedule is a little altered...so today was legs. And let me just tell you...i had to do a giant set of 4 different exercises for the first half of my workout and damn, if my heart rate wasn't up there! WOW! I loved it!!! Tonight i have 40 min of bike :)

Im going to my sister's tonight after work but i want to try and get out of there early so i can hit the cardio and get my stuff ready for tomorrow.

All you coffee drinkers out there...do you still use creamer if you are prepping for a show? I have tried time and time again to drink it black...i just cant do it! Im using fat free creamer...and just about a teaspoon but is it going to hurt me?

Cant wait to work my shoulders tomorrow!!!! I have been really trying to work my shoulders hard and im trying to do them 2xs a week....usually tuesdays and saturday. Saturday's workout isn't that heavy but i want to try and do more :)

I have come to the conclusion that i am my own worst enemy....i have so many doubts and questions in my head all the time. I need to clear my head and just focus on what i want to accomplish and that is it...no clouds...no doubts.....just focus on what needs to be done, and stop doubting myself...i have been doing it for so long...the only one stopping me is me!

I have to be confident in myself and my abilities....what am i so afraid of??? I know i can do this! I need to believe in me!

It is only as hard as i make it out to be.

things can be looked at in two ways....negatively or positively, or as the saying goes, is the cup half full or half empty. I have always looked at things as negative. I think that with a happy, positive outlook, nothing can stop me! I need to realize that getting my ass out of bed at 5:00 to hop on the treadmill is only going to help me...not hurt me...yes it may suck, but there are plenty of girls getting up right along with me..doing the same thing....with November 13th circled on their calendars too!

I will do this....and i will be better than i have been....i love this sport...and i know that in time, i will find my groove and feel confident and secure and happy with how i look. Yes, i may be old (LOL) and crazy...but, as my husband says....fuck everyone else's opinion and do what makes you happy! And you know what? He is right! He supports me 100% and pushes me to do better! And that is what matters....doing what makes you happy, right?

Friday --99 days to go

Happy Friday!!

I didn't get up for cardio this morning but i had a pretty decent chest/leg workout at the gym :)

I was on Gina Aliotti's website this morning and i just got really inspired by Gina of course, but also from 2 of the girls who gina trains...Nikki and Jessica.  Both girls are competing but they just have this tremendous outlook and they are so happy and focused and excited...and it is totally contageous!  Just reading it,  I feel really good today...happy and ready to tackle the weekend :)

Her post today was about discipline....i copied a part of it.....

"Discipline is a matter of controlling the mind and choosing the action that is going to benefit you in the long run. By choosing your actions you can choose your results. By choosing your actions you can choose the life you create for yourself. Remember, we all are in control and have the power. Discipline is something that should not be looked at as a burden but as an opportunity to test yourself, grow and experience the power you have of self control and personal self awareness."

 How perfect is that????  

14 weeks out tomorrow!!!!  So excited to do this....and do it right.....no going backwards!  Full steam ahead!

Wednesday 101

They say things happen for a reason.  I think i just got handed a gift in disguise.  It was something that i was sad over for a bit...but then i decided to look at it as a positive thing, instead of a negative thing...and you know what?  I feel a lot better about it now.   Your mind is a very powerful tool...and it can be used to make you feel like shit and feel sorry for yourself....or you can say "suck it up" and just do what you have to do to get it done...

And that is what im going to do....yes, it may be a harder and longer road...but the end result i think, will make me happier :)

And that is my lesson for today!  LOL!

The end :)

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Well today was back day....i actually did some posing too....there was no one down there at the gym this morning..

I have to get rid of this ass.....i think me and the treadmill are going to be very close these next 14.5 weeks ;)

Monday-103 days

Morning!

Well weekend was pretty much a blur.  Didn't do much either.  Friday, stayed in, Adam went out for a little to help his friend, i watched Zombieland...which actually was pretty good...

Saturday, got up, did cardio, went to target, came home, made brownies for adam to take to the Jersey Shore party that i didn't go to, and then went to my sisters with angelica. 

Sunday, cooked, cleaned, did cardio, watched True Blood, went to bed. 

I lead such an exciting life don't i?

This morning i got up for cardio...i got in 25 min....then went to the gym for legs!   Now im at work....and its dead here...i think there are 5 of us in today??? this day is going to drag!!!!