finally...some extra cardio

My butt finally got on the gazelle....42 minutes! Now, i must go and get my shit together for work tomorrow since its after 9:00 already! Sometimes i feel like im in the movie Groundhog Day...every day, I do the same exact thing, over and over and over.....lol....thank god tomorrow is friday!Publish Post

step it up girl!

I really have to get my ass back on track. I need to step it up....im not losing like i should be and im not pushing myself enough. I should be losing at least 2-3 pounds every weigh in (which is every two weeks) and im not. The last one was only 1.5 pounds in 2 weeks. Now, dont get me wrong, im not mad that i only lost 1.5 pounds, because its a loss...but my body should be burning a hell of a lot more calories and fat at this point. Tuesday was the beginning of week 19 on Tony's plan.

Im just getting in a rut i think, same foods, etc....not busting my ass doing extra cardio, etc.

I bought that Gazelle....do you know how many times i have used it? maybe 4 times.....my butt should be on that thing every night! No matter what! Now on saturday, it will be two weeks....and right now i am probably at the same weight.

On another note....all the girls got together to get measured for their bridesmaid dresses...everyone liked them (a plus), its flattering to all (another plus) and they were only $150.00 each (bonus!) Then we went to dinner....i ate well enough.....grilled chicken and broccoli. It was pretty good.

I got home and i was so tired.....but then on HBO they had a special of the making of the Transformers movie...which was on at 11:30-12:00....so i was up way to late....and 6:00 comes way to fast! Now, im tired.....and i had biceps and shoulders today with cardio intervals between every exercise. Fun....oh well.......back to work......

weekend...blah

My legs are absolutely killing me. I had legs on saturday, and then i got my workout from T and today was legs again! I had to email him to make sure that it wasn't a mistake....but he is trying to mix things up a bit....well it worked.....im sore as hell....and im sure by tomorrow, it will be worse.

My weekend was pretty boring. Friday, i got out of work early and went shopping for a bit with my friend. Saturday, shopped some more...got aggrevated trying on bathing suits....there are no bathing suits in the stores that have any support for your boobs! Its ridiculous.....im not going to walk around with a bathing suit with no support....but on another note....the bathing suit i ordered from that company is wonderful.....the bottoms are a little snug for now, but i usually wear shorts anyway...so its not a big deal. But the top really holds everything in....and they actually make them look smaller! Which is a bonus!

Yesterday, went to the gym and then i got my nails and my toes done (i was supposed to go friday but i didnt) and I took Angelica to get hers done too....her dance recital is tonight...but she is second, which means i wont be there all night long! It starts at 7 so i have to rush home and cook something quick........chicken i guess.....ooh....maybe just a can of tuna over lettuce...thats easy!

All the girls in my wedding party are going to the dress shop on wednesday so they can get measured and they can order the dresses!

The next thing i have to do is flowers. That is my next project...to find a florist.....a cheap florist...lol

Im trying to get back to square one with my eating. It seems as though i have been slipping a bit and im noticing some of my old eating patterns creeping up....little tastes here, little tastes there....that is what got me into trouble in the first place.....going back strict....gotta do it.....i need to continue to make the gains that i want to.....im getting lazy and comfortable in my eating and it has to stop now!

I have to go to the bathroom again....its like the 85th time i have gone today! You can tell im back on track if im consuming the right amount of water....and its all going right through me!

birthday+free pass from tony=bad angela

There is a reason why i don't eat bad anymore....and tonight was a perfect example of it. This is why i need to be told exactly what to eat and when.....because when im given the "go ahead and cheat" i do.....badly.....and now i hate myself......exactly like i knew i was going to. Yeah its all fun and games going down....but now i feel like a moo cow.....MOOOOO!

I am going to have to do a serious detox tomorrow.....i dont even think im going to have my oatmeal....i may just have my eggs for breakfast......shrimp and broccoli for lunch and chicken for dinner.....oh yeah and about 2 gallons of water to flush all this crap out of me....

all and all it was a wonderful birthday.....i had pasta and a piece of bruschetta and a meatball for dinner and ice cream cake and coffee for dessert....oh and i had a sliver of the birthday cake they got me at work today.....and a couple of peanut chews(i was craving them badly for some reason)....so now its over.....thank god......back to reality.....

I did have a good workout this morning though....i had chest....tomorrow is biceps and triceps...

oh and even better....tomorrow is my short day at work....i get out at 1:30...so i can go and get my nails and my toes done after work....yay!

its almost here

Well tomorrow is my birthday...yeah, ummmm...im going to be 35! I never thought i would be this old...lol....i emailed T and asked if i could have a free day....which he said YES! Im so excited.....yay...cake and yummy food....im going to try to be a good girl.....but i know the devil in me is going to come out and take over and want to eat everything in sight!

I will have my cake...and April will have her M&Ms to celebrate along with me!

And then on Friday, I will be writing and complaining about what a bloated cow i feel like....lol

So i will control myself as best as possible....hopefully :)

My workouts have been great.....even little extra cardio, here and there.....I really want to get down to my goal weight by the end of July.....well July 15th is April's deadline which i told her that i would join in with....and try to do the same....we will see where we end up i guess.....

The tears were rolling down my face

I dont think that i have ever laughed so hard in my life. I was in BJ's yesterday buying my stuff for the week. Well i had to use the atm machine because i somehow didn't have enough money in my checking so i wanted to pull money from my savings....when i saw this sign....and i was laughing so hard...i had to take a picture to share with everyone...because no one would believe me....

How bad is that???? I should send it to Jay Leno....LOL! I was with my mom....i said "well i guess its still working because its only out of oder, not out of order......maybe i could still use it since it only has no more smell.......lol"....The best was...the girl at the customer service counter was looking at me wondering why i was taking a picture of the atm machine....she probably was the one who wrote it and was confused as to why i was taking a picture.....oh well.....

Its the little things in life that make you giggle....and that is what its all about i guess.

weigh in

117.5 i need to get down lower! I have a goal of 110 by July 15th which i dont think i am going to make :(

We will see i guess....but im happy with the number...especially since it was 119 last saturday...will write more later...have to go to BJ's to stock up on my chicken and fish for the week....

bathing suit

I broke down and bought a bathing suit...well i ordered a bathing suit. It is terribly hard to find something to hold my "girls" in place, so in looking through Oxygen mag, they did a spread on bathing suits. And the one website...www.tyr.com, and they are actually bathing suits for competitive swimmers...but my thinking is that they should have extra support like a sports bra. So i ordered one...hopefully it will fit....its not a "pretty" or "sexy" suit....i will get another one for my honeymoon later in the summer when they are on sale.
So its like a sports bra....i think its kinda cute....I will keep you posted on if it fits or not...my luck it wont :(

AHHHHH

Today's workout was chest....not so bad...but he upped my cardio a bit.....which is fine...i think i need it anyway :)

I have such a headache....you know those headaches where it starts at the top of your head, hurts your eyes, into your neck and shoulders and makes you sick to your stomach? Yeah, that is what i have......i took Excedrine...the pain is dulling a bit....but its still there.

I have to vent...yesterday i was talking to my mom about what we were doing for Father's day this year. My sister Michelle had mentioned us going to dinner with her husband's family (again).....the thing is, we do a lot with his family. Mostly because Michelle doesn't want to go back and forth between families...because both families are very close....his more so and may i add that she spends 80% of her time with his family and gives my parents one day a week for dinner for about 3 hours....so for instance, easter, we have with his family and mine, mothers day, the same thing....there are others...but i cant think of it right now.....but the point is, it is her family(nicky's) not ours....so she wants to combine everything...but its not always what we want to do, but it seems like she makes the plans for us and that is it. Anyway....my father does not want to spend Father's Day with them....he wants to golf for the day, come home, relax, and have dinner at home....which is fine...and he should do exactly what he wants to do....its his day. Well my sister sees this as such an inconvenience to her! And is all pissed off because now she has to be inconvenienced and has to go to Nicky's family's for dinner and then go over my parent's house for dessert....what is the big deal?? Married couples do this all the time.....you go to one, early in the day, and then go to the other parent's....simple as that! I don't have that issue because Adam's father isn't in the picture and his mother passed away.....so its a little different for me...but i know plenty of people who go through this...and that is the way it goes, right? So now she is all pissy.....and me and my mom (the wusses that we are) are afraid of her...well just her mouth.....i don't know why....im the older one....i should have no problem saying something...but i just stay out of it.....i really should put her in her place and tell her she is wrong....but i dont.....i need to get the balls to say something....one day i will :) All i am saying is that my father better not give in now just because she is pissed...then i will get mad....because again, she will have her way....

Ok...done venting......oh, one more thing....my legs really really hurt from yesterday's workout...ok...really done...lol

CAT

Can you shave a cat??? Well not like Mr. Bigglesworth shave, but like have him clipped short? I cant take the hair anymore!!! I brushed him last night.. i had to clean off the brush 4 times because it was full with hair...gross.....friggin cat!

Mission: Organization

Thank god i didn't have an official weigh in on saturday. I asked Tony (since it was my TOM) if i could hold off and weigh in later in the week or next Saturday...which he agreed to...he said no sense in weighing in...it will probably be 2-3 pounds off....YAY! But i did get on the scale...for my own mind....and i was at 119 again....so now i have to really work it....to get back to the 117.5 or less.....by saturday....i think all of my bloat is gone....now i just have to flush out everything else....and get lots of extra cardio in this week....

Today i had shoulders...and a little bit of abs mixed in there.....

The weekend was nice. Friday, my girlfriends took me out for getting engaged...we went to dinner and then to a bar. I didn't eat too bad, and i only had a glass of wine.... Saturday, I picked up Angelica and took her to dancing school and then we went to the mall and got her two Webkins...some stuffed animal toy that you can adopt online and play games with and feed it and take care of it on the computer...they are really cute....then we got lunch and then came home and relaxed and then went to dinner with my mom....then came home and watched Night at the Museum...which was really funny... i loved it....Ben Stiller cracks me up....

Sunday, we picked up Adam from the airport at 10:15 am or so, and then we spent the day at home..and watched movies.

I didn't get to clean too much... I basically washed clothes, vacummed, and straightened up....everything else is still a mess....why am i such a slob? You would think that after 35 years of life, i would have my act together and keep a neat and clean house....my mother is a clean freak....i wish some of it rubbed off on me....Its not that im dirty...my house isn't dirty....its just messy....there is a difference.....i just dont know how it happens...we are only two people....well with two animals....the cat makes most of the mess.....he sheds so badly.....it drives me crazy! I hate it. If i didn't have animals, it would probably be much easier....i couldn't imagine having children to take care of too! I would be pulling my hair out of my head.....that, and Adam would be doing a lot more around the house!

I need to be more organized.....with everything! It should be my "birthday resolution" instead of a new years resolution.

That sounds like a plan!

That, and be at 110 pounds by July 15th!

TGIF

TGIF! Big time....plus...we started flex time at work, so i get out today at 1:30! YAY....it is going to be 95 frigging degrees here though! So as soon as i get home, i have to put the air conditioner on....

I emailed Tony and asked him if i could weigh in later on in the week since im a big bloated mess from TOM....hopefully he will say ok...if not, i will probably weigh in 3-4 pounds heavier than i was last time!

I may go home and do more cardio today.....i had biceps and abs today....with, oddly enough, a calf exercise??? Where that came from, i dont know...but i do need some calf muscles! I have no shape in that area whatsoever....they are straight and thin...i need some definition in my calfs big time.

So tonight the girls and I are going out for dinner....Im not supposed to know, but they are actually taking me out for getting engaged. but Sherri had to tell me because she knows i hate to go out....so that should be fun.

Tomorrow, I have to pick up Angelica and take her to dancing school and then take her back to my house and keep her busy until Sunday when I pick Adam up at the airport.

Im trying to find a photographer for this wedding. They are soooo expensive! Most packages start at $3000.00 and go to $5000.00! For Pictures!!! I have to figure something out.....a lot of money is going to be going out for this....why couldn't we just go to an island???? LOL!

Yeah...i got an email from "the knot" (wedding website)... i have 8 months to go! I have so much to do....part of me is getting crazy thinking about all that has to be done, and then the other half of me is just like "who cares, I have plenty of time"....but i ordered these...aren't they cute????

they are save the date cards to send out to everyone. they had magnets too, but i just got the cards...they were way cheaper!

Not that this is a big wedding or anything....maybe between 80-90 people....so, im excited about that part of it.

Adam has to go away for work again this week...he leaves on Thursday until Sunday. Angelica said she still wants me to come and pick her up on Saturday and stay over. Which is fine by me. I guess she wants to get away....so we will pick Adam up at the airport together on Sunday. So we will have some "girl time" together. She is too cute.

Workouts are going great. But im just a little bloated....its TOM....today...and im all crampy and crabby...and I want to eat everything in sight!

My friends want to take me out to eat on Friday night. I dont know how the hell im going to be able to eat...i have to be good...i have my weigh in on saturday...but i may email Tony and say its my TOM and im a big bloated slob...and that i shouldn't weigh in until the middle of the week. We will see how i feel. I have time yet.

Its monday already :(

Where do the weekends go? God, its so depressing. Time goes by so fast. I am going to be 35 years old in 17 days! That is actually what you call depressing! I never thought i would be 35 years old. I don't think i look it(thank god) and i certainly don't feel it....so i guess that is the most important thing, right?

We took a ride to Ocean City, NJ on Saturday. It was really nice out. I got my workout done early in the morning which was a plus. That gazelle really comes in handy...especially when i dont feel like going to the gym!

Yesterday, I went to Target and food shopping and then to my mother's for dinner.

Today, i am taking a half day and i am going to the Phillies game with Adam. His work got a Suite box and he invited me to go. So i get to meet all his work people...part of me hates meeting new people....just because i am always so worried of what people will think about me. If they will think im ugly or fat or weird....i know im nuts...but that is how my brain works! I need to have a little more self esteem and feel better about myself. What is wrong with me?

Oh well....i will let you know how it goes :)