Happy New Years!!!!!

Well its New Years eve....i actually have no plans this year...which is fine.  I made dinner reservations for me and Adam for 7:00...but not sure if we are going to just stay home instead...but at least we have them in case.  Its pretty crappy out today...snow/rain mixture....and tomorrow will be the end of my eating....my sister has an open house on new years day...since we have the Mummers Day Parade and she is right off the path of the parade...but since the weather will be crappy, not sure if it will be crazy or not....all i know is that i am glad this year is over.  Not because it was a bad year...but im just glad that the holidays themselves are done so i can get back to being in control of my food intake....its so hard during this time of year...with all the cookies and candy and crap everywhere....ugh!  Im done!

I got the pictures i ordered from KY Muscle...from the photographer...i only got the 4x6 pics...i have to scan them and post them...they are ok..but you can still see that i need to put on some muscle and get rid of my bottom half....all in time i guess.

All i know is that i feel that i gained weight again that took me so long to lose....all for sugar....and processed food..will i ever learn?  I doubt it..>LOL! 

I dont really make new years resolutions....but my goal for this year is to just be the best me i can....and to stay in control of my life....

Me and April are going to the Arnold again!!! YIPPEE!!!!  I cant miss our annual reunion ;)  So much fun!!!!

Who else is going this year?? 

Well i hope everyone has a wonderful new years eve/day...and 2010 will be wonderful...i just know it :)

wannabe?

Im trying to figure out something....am i a wanna be? 

I sometimes think that i am....i say i want to get the best body...to compete and win.....to be a contender....but yet, i am not doing what i need to do to get there.....

am i all talk?    Am i doing what it takes to get to that level? 

Honestly, right now....im saying no....im not doing what i should be doing....im eating crap when i shouldn't....my workouts aren't that great.....

i watch videos of figure girls, i read everything imaginable....but yet....i, myself am not doing it....

its all the holidays....parties, baking, shopping....not being prepared...so my meals are suffering...i know it...my husband knows it...my pants know it.

I still have that mentality that i deserve some time off.....i dont deserve it....i should have taken a day or two off from the gym.....had a few yummy meals...and then got back to it hardcore....but not me....i have to take advantage....and it is only going to hurt me....so why am i doing it?  And how do i stop?

I have so much work to do to be able to get where i need to be.....i need to get a grip.....and focus on what i want.....and pretend that im a month out from my show....if i was a month out i would never even think about eating off plan.....

i need to breathe....and refocus.....only a few more days till christmas right?

My Review of 2432

Originally submitted at OhNuts.com

2432

powerful

By angela from philadelphia, PA on 12/21/2009

 

3out of 5

Pros: Tasty

Cons: Strong

When these first came i was really excited about them...they sounded soo good! And they were! The only criticism that i have of them is that the cinnamon coating was really strong...but if you just pop one in your mouth before biting it, it was a lot better :) They are sweet, with a bit of chocolate and cinnamon....i would definitely recommend them to others...especially if you love cinnamon!

(legalese)

My Review

Originally submitted at OhNuts.com

This pecan is a unique blend of cranberry infused flavor and cinnamon spice. Each bite is a soft yet somewhat crunchy experience.

YUM!

By angela from philadelphia, PA on 12/21/2009

 

5out of 5

Gift: No

These pecans were so good. They were sweet but not overly too sweet..just perfect :)

(legalese)

bored

I have been playing with the idea of  moving to wordpress....i designed a page, added links to it...basically copied this whole blog to wordpress...but i dont know if im diggin it too much.....i am so used to blogger...i know all the ins and outs of it....but wordpress has snow ;)  There are things on blogger that i like....the blog roll is updated by newest entry...i cant figure out if wordpress has that.....i like the little tabs on the top on wordpress...but would i use them? 

I get bored and i want to change things....but why?  If i like it here....why am i trying to switch?  I guess its boredom ;)

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Last night me and my mom went to the mall to go christmas shopping....i got the majority done...adam is done, my mom and dad are done...kids are done....all i have left is little odds and ends....

I have to figure out what i am doing as far as baking.  i have to make 7 tins of chocolate covered pretzels for Angelica's teachers.  I want to make THESEand THESE  ...and maybe add them to the tins....we'll see :)

Tonight i have to go to see Angelica's christmas recital at her school....i want to try and get adam to run back to the mall afterwards...i need two little gifts.  

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Question:

My family (if you read my blog you know) revolves everything around food....well Christmas Eve we do the "7 Fishes" which mostly consists of fried food....my mom makes fried shrimp, bacala(cod..battered and fried), clams casino, crabs and spaghetti, cocktail shrimp, smelts (some gross fish) and i actually cant remember what else....anyway....i was thinking of bringing a few dishes (maybe a salmon dish and maybe some sushi rolls??) that are a little healthier than all the fried stuff.....

so my question is this....do you think my mom will get insulted if i bring this up to her?  I want to say something but im afraid she will get upset. They put a lot of time and money into doing christmas eve dinner.  My husband even thinks all the fried food is crazy...and he is like me and even though he likes the fried stuff too, would rather eat a little better.

now dont get me wrong...i love all the food...but such a fattening dinner...along with all the desserts and everything...it gets to be a little too much....so at least if there is something healthier there....i wont eat as much of the bad stuff if i eat the healthier food. 

Because i have to get in the swing of things....this saturday will be 27 weeks i think??  Something like that....i need to make real changes this year....because im coming home with a figure girl  trophy this year!!!!

what can i say?

Diet isn't great...workouts are pretty good.....cardio needs to be kicked up a notch.....im tired....and i still have so much christmas shopping to do....i wrote out my christmas cards...didn't mail them yet.....im making incomplete sentences....sorry :)

I wanted to post something since its been a week....i am not all peppy today so my mind is all jumbled....i will leave you all with cuteness :)  My nephew makes me smile :)

New Look

Motivation is the key to success right?  Welll my header is my new motivation :)  These women are a direct result of dedication, consistance and persistance....which is what i need.....i have no consistancy in my diet right now...and its hurting me. 

Instead of looking at this time as a basis to improve and grow and work on what i need to for next year, here i am, eating pretty good...not perfect....and slipping into the "ive got plenty of time" mentality again!  Skipping on the cardio...picking on things i shouldn't....all because i think i can....when really i should be more strict in order to make the changes that i want! 

I have a lot of body changes to make.....which is going to take a lot of work....i need to get back into the groove!

I cannot have an "off-season"  I have to be in constant control of my workouts/nutrition.  If this is what i want to do...i need to realize what needs to be done....i always have an excuse....and im not going to change and get better if i keep making excuses. 

This is my life...and if this is a goal of mine....i need to put in the time and the work...that is all there is to it.  No one is making me do this....I want this....and i will not get back on that stage again if i dont look like i belong on that stage.  And i will look like i belong ;)

So this is my new look....and i am going to have one too.....yes, it will take time....but with time, the look that i need to belong up there will come as well. 

I know i can do this.....if i just believe that i can...and that will probably be one of the most difficult parts of it all....believing in myself.   Believing that i can do this!!!  That i can push myself to get to a place where i have never reached before....I want Top 5....i want to be lean, tight, strong, ready....i want to be able to be proud of myself and know that i gave 110% all the time with no regrets. 

So with that being said....i am going to try and post more.....my workouts, my food...i need to hold myself accountable for all to see :) 

I need that structure....i need that focus....without it, i have nothing to strive for....i need goals. 

I am waiting for the new NPC schedule to come out....i already have my first show picked out....yes...it is the show that i have been trying to do now for 2 years......the Tracey Greenwood Classic....its in Philly for God's sake!  No travel, i can go home in between...its perfect!  I have let myself down too many times.....i wont do it again....so i will be on that stage in June....it will be a week after my 38th birthday (yes im old)...but it will be my birthday gift to myself :)  What a better gift than taking home a little figure girl :)

Wednesday :)

Hello peeps!

Well this morning started off wonderfully...i finally got my butt out of bed and got some good old EMC in before heading to the gym :)  AND i even did a load of clothes!  Yay me!!  LOL!  I really feel so much better when i get up and hop on the treadmill....i really need to just get up and do it.

I got to the gym and it was actually busier than usual for some reason....i did legs today...some wide leg presses, dead lifts, one legged weighted lunges, leg extension, leg curls, step ups, adductors, and abductors...(I think that was it)...i will definitely be sore as the week goes on.....

Well I am finally doing one of my many product reviews....

Christopher at Element Bars was kind enough to send me a bar to taste...Amanda's Livestrong....it contained oats, honey, brown sugar, almonds, organic flax seeds, baby m&ms, Vanilla, sea salt...everything pure and natural....it was really a tasty bar!  I would definitely try them!  And the best part of their company is that you can actually build your own bars...you pick out the ingredients, they make them and ship them right out to you!  How cool is that???

(yes that is the bar with a bite mark ;)..LOL)

The bar had 253 calories, 6g fat and 5 grams protein....if i made my own, i would definitely add more protein too it but for a little snack this was perfect :)  They are a little pricey, (approximately $36.00 for 12 bars) but they say you get what you pay for, and if you are looking for a bar that is healthy and natural, these bars are it.  I  would definitely order some but not until after the holidays, when i have money again! 

Oh and back to the gym....I had said that one of my goals for the end of the year was to do an unassisted pull up...i did 3 sets on the assisted machine...10x70, 8x50, and 3x30....so i got in 3 at basically 70% of my body weight....i will get there..one of the girls at the gym was telling me to do yoga...that a lot of upper body strength is needed for yoga and she is always sore afterward...so maybe i will try and incorporate it a day or so??  I should get the PX90 and do that yoga..im sure that would kick my butt ;)

well i guess that is my update for today :)

tuesday :)

Well i guess since im back at work today, i should blog  ;) 

Thanksgiving was very nice....ate too much of course....then friday was Adam's birthday so we went out to dinner and to see Planet 51 with angelica.  It was cute....but not worth telling people to go see it....

Saturday started decorating and cleaning (still not done) and then saturday night went to a bar/restaurant with Adam's friend and his wife...so i had a drink there and ate bad...

Sunday we took a ride to AC for an overnight stay at the casino.  I had booked it months ago for Adam's birthday....we went to dinner (again) and hung out....gambled a bit..didn't win of course.....yesterday we were off work and we went shopping and then came home.

My parents had my doggie and we went and picked him up...he was so happy to see me :)  Gotta love that!

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Genie was telling me how she has her cat shaved because there is hair everywhere....well i get it from both the cat and the dog...so i know hair....i may try and have the cat shaved....he would look so silly....but it would make me laugh right?  LOL!

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I have a few product reviews to do....and man im lazy with these reviews...but not lazy about eating them! 

I will get to it..promise :)

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Fitness front---

well my weight is up a bit from my show...which is to be expected i guess...and eating out will definitely add the pounds on...so im on a clean diet from now until christmas...for the most part...i got a new diet from Mike and it has two cheat meals on it so hopefully i can keep it that way...i think my main thing is to get back to the cardio....i need to get up and do my EMC again.....i always felt so much better and my day was better when i was doing it...but i got lazy and stopped it.....which is another reason why i guess the weight isn't moving at all...well it will keep going up if i dont do something about it!

I have a few goals for this upcoming year...

1)  to do unassisted pull up(s)
2)  to be able to run a full mile without stopping--im getting there...im so used to do doing intervals its hard to not make myself stop!
3)  get this fat off my legs and ass!---that is actually #1 ;)
4)  be ready to compete again in June and be able to do another show in the fall...i definitely dont want to just do one show this year....
5)  put on some muscle---definitely shoulders :)  My favorite! 
6)  a very far fetched goal--but still a goal nevertheless--make top 5 at a show. 

So with that in mind...i have got to get back in the game mentally and not think that this holiday season is just a free for all...and actually do something this season....

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Anyone have plans for New Years?  We usually go to our friends house but she is having a baby and is due on December 13th...so they wont be hosting a party.....so now we have no plans....we were thinking about going somewhere but it will be impossible to get reservations anywhere especially flying somewhere..and the money is also an issue too!   So who knows what we will do!!!

well i guess that is all i got for now.....