Im trying to figure out something....am i a wanna be?
I sometimes think that i am....i say i want to get the best body...to compete and win.....to be a contender....but yet, i am not doing what i need to do to get there.....
I sometimes think that i am....i say i want to get the best body...to compete and win.....to be a contender....but yet, i am not doing what i need to do to get there.....
am i all talk? Am i doing what it takes to get to that level?
Honestly, right now....im saying no....im not doing what i should be doing....im eating crap when i shouldn't....my workouts aren't that great.....
i watch videos of figure girls, i read everything imaginable....but yet....i, myself am not doing it....
its all the holidays....parties, baking, shopping....not being prepared...so my meals are suffering...i know it...my husband knows it...my pants know it.
I still have that mentality that i deserve some time off.....i dont deserve it....i should have taken a day or two off from the gym.....had a few yummy meals...and then got back to it hardcore....but not me....i have to take advantage....and it is only going to hurt me....so why am i doing it? And how do i stop?
I have so much work to do to be able to get where i need to be.....i need to get a grip.....and focus on what i want.....and pretend that im a month out from my show....if i was a month out i would never even think about eating off plan.....
i need to breathe....and refocus.....only a few more days till christmas right?
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I have thought similar thoughts about doing or not doing 100% of what I need to. I know I have slacked in the gym lately - and I should be working hard on my offseason and making the changes I need to make. You're only a wanna be if you're all talk - you do - we've seen you. Dieting all year round isn't healthy mentally or phsycailly, and can do your body and metabolism harm even...but there needs to be a happy medium. You can find it honey. When the time comes to start prep for next show, remember this post and how you felt about yourself - you will make it to that next level and I hope to be right there with ya. :)
Becca put it beautifully.
So, you have had some off meals. I've definitely had more than my fair share... Since it's the holidays, why not try to hit the weights even harder, grow, since you know the meals won't be spot on? Heck, I don't even want my meals to be spot on 100% of the time right now. You have to enjoy life, too. :)
I'm rambling.
You are NOT a wanna be. You have made it to that stage MORE THAN ONCE! That's no small accomplishment!:)
OMG I thought I was readin my own blog! lol. Dont be too hard on yourself...well thats what im telling myself...this is the craziest 2wks of the year! I do enjoy reading your blogs, especially when we sound so much alike.
Be determined in 2010...cause soon the Festivities will be over and then there will be no more excuses BRING ON 2010 FIGURE GIRLS!
JL
Australia
www.completlyfit.weebly.com.au
You are not a wannabe you goober!
1. You're already an athlete.
You've already competed and placed before, so perhaps you need to start thinking more like an athlete and not like someone with a pipe dream, walking down a road, blindliy ignoring all the signs.
2. If you can do this more than once, you can do it again. You're not the first person to go through this.
I read of someone once, trying for a show, got a month out, couldn't handle the diet, spent two days splurging, felt guilty and gave up.
3. You know what it feels like to be there, doing it. The only difference is that this time, might be that someone gives you something to take away, other than some memories and a bit clapping.
You are someone who deserves to have a trophy, but it's not a right, it's a privilege you have to but CAN earn.
The amount of people that never believe, that what they do as sportspeople is possible, are probably immense. The ones who claim after 5-10 years, they knew instinctively they could win something, are probably deluding themselves, or can't admit once or twice at least, they had a little bit of doubt.
You're prefectly capable of winning something, because you look absolutely the part. You have possibly never been in such amazing condition, as you are right now and one thing is just to remember how far you've come, what you have already achieved and how far you can still go.
So don't worry and just keep going.
You're doing BRILLIANTLY.
:-) :-).
Matt
Hi Angela,
So close to 2010 here. Time to get a clean slate and build the beliefs, form the habits, and become who you want to be.
Develop a brand new map of reality where limits and self-judgment do not exist.
Merry Christmas!!!
~C.
I hope you're not a wanna be, because that would make me one! Sometimes I feel the same way! You can do it! xoxo
I don't really think you're a wanna be but I think you may consider taking a year off because it helped me a ton. I had a lot going on in 2009 anyway and I really didn't want to continue stressing about a show with an injury so I ended up just sitting out the entire year. I stayed leaner and didn't gain anything during the holidays. I think part of that is because I was able to focus and not worry about being lean for a certain day. Just being lean whenever it came to me. That's what works for me the best. Is just to have a perspective of being lean when it comes, not for a certain date. I want to look good always not just at a show. But it takes looking good year-round for me to look great on stage. So, I'm probably doing a show here this Spring and I'm only 10 lbs away from my show weight. Which is rare for me. Usually I'm 30 lbs away. If you're natural and you're 30lbs away I think you should sit out the year and concentrate on focusing to yourself. I learned this the rough way. I was too worried about competing and not realizing that I needed to just take a year to find out what really works for me. And I did. :o) I eat more carbs too. Which is quite amazing.
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