4 pounds!

4 pounds! 4 pounds! 4 pounds! IM HAPPY! Never in a million years would i have ever thought that i could lose 4 pounds in one week! It probably wont ever happen again and i will certainly be happy with 1-2 next week, but i couldn't believe it! See what happens when you eat well and exercise????

Its a good day. I gotta run....maybe i will write more later....

tomorrow is my weigh in !!!

I dont wanna weigh in tomorrow. Im scared! I hope i lost something. I did shoulders/cardio this morning and im going to go back after work for more cardio. Tony told me not to eat anything past 8 and weigh in first thing tomorrow morning at let him know. I will be very disappointed if i didn't lose anything. But, in a larger perspective, it is only a week, right? What can i expect anyway? Hey, i will be happy with 2 pounds gone. I have not cheated once. everything has been on target....and i feel good. that is the most important thing right?

We shall see tomorrow......wish me luck

Sunday Boredom

Im bored. I don't feel like cleaning.....im watching the real world....that show is the greatest! The one girl is OUT OF HER MIND! Well they are all a little crazy but the one girl is hysterical! Gotta love reality tv.

Anyway...Big T told me i can't weigh in until wednesday. I soooo want to weigh myself...but im afraid that i will be disappointed. Hopefully i will have, at least, lost the 2 pounds that i had gained prior to starting :)

i was cleaning the kitchen yesterday and i had the back door open cause the sun was shining and the pup loves to lay in the sun, so i put his blanket near the door so he can lay down..well i look over a little while later and i see such cuteness that i had to go take a picture.......


Well, i have to go and make my chicken and my turkey.

Leg day tomorrow....can't wait!

My body hurts

Day 3 with Tony's program......im tired. not hungry...actually im always full.....but my body hurts.....and i hate the treadmill. I like the EFX machine alot better. I actually got my ass out of bed at 6 and was at the gym by 6:45 and i was in work by 8:40....i have never been 20 minutes early for work in my life! But now my day is complete. I feel better knowing that its done and if i wanted to do extra cardio after work, i can. The way i was doing it, i wasn't getting home until 7:30, then had to make dinner, then prepare everything for the next day.....it was way too much to do when i got home......so we shall try it this way :)

I had talked to Tony yesterday and he had asked me if i was sore (meaning i should have been) and i told him no. Well i take that back now....the soreness didn't kick in right away i guess....NOW, it hurts....everywhere......

But, i am getting my gallon water in, my ACV/lemon juice shot( which isnt so bad anymore...when it is done as a shot anyway)....

All in all, im tired but i feel good and i am happy so far :)

How does everyone make their chicken? I need different ways.....im just baking it right now and its really dry! HELP!

Its Tony Time!

Today is my first day on Tony's program. We had our phone consult yesterday and today i started. So far, so good. I was not hungry at all for my 1st snack though. I was so full from breakfast. But i ate it. I am going to the gym after work, so we shall see how that is. It dont look too bad ....hopefully i will be fine.

Anway, i finished my bad eating last night and i ended with a bang. Dunkin Donuts munchkins...yum.....now im done and content with my sugar binge!

Im really excited about doing this. I really hope this works and i FINALLY start to see the person i want to become!

BTW.....ACV and lemon....not that good....

One of the "last suppers"

Well i have my phone consult with Tony on Monday and he gave me the "go ahead" to eat now because i will probably be starting my program Tuesday or Wednesday. I was so excited about what to eat. When you can eat anything you want, its kinda hard to pick. Well we went out to dinner tonight at this "tex mex" restaurant and I had a cheeseburger and some spanish fries. Now i feel sick. I haven't eaten bad in a while and i don't really like the way i feel right now. It so wasn't worth it. I feel sick....blech!

The only other things i can think of eating before i start is ice cream from Cold Stone (yum), brownies(super yum) and/or Wendy's spicy chicken sandwich. Other than that.....i would be content and happy :) But the way i feel right now, i don't ever want to eat again!

I went food shopping today. I bought a ton of chicken, ground turkey, pork cutlets turkey cutlets, tilapia, salmon and asparagus. I ready to go for next week. I don't know what else i will be able to eat...i guess we will see.

All i know is that i am soooo thirsty right now. I guess all the sodium i consumed tonight is doing a toll on my system! my hands are actually swollen! I really don't know how people can eat like this every day. even when i wasn't strict with my eating, i still, for the most part, ate healthy, with cheats every now and again. People eat like bad like this everyday and then they wonder why they feel like shit. Stop eating shit and then you wont feel that way, right?

Anyway..I'm really excited about starting my new program. I hope it makes a difference. Adam is a little pissed about the cost of this, but i told him if its too hard for me, or it doesn't do anything for me, i don't have to continue with it. I'm not under a contract, but if i see a difference and it helps, I'm sticking with it. I figure, i waste a lot more than 25.00 a week on other crap, i may as well do something good with the money...right?

Well, i HAVE to go to the gym tomorrow. I feel huge! I need to run and sweat out all this salt!

TTFN

TGIF!

Well its friday. Yay! My eating has been slipping a little. Meal wise I've been great. Its just the picking. For some reason, im doing the mindless eating thing. Eating a few crackers, nut mix, a half of cookie. I don't know why either. Its not like im hungry. its bordom or thinking in the back of my head that i am going to be starting with the trainer soon so i better eat the crap i want now before i start. I dont know.

I was supposed to have a half-day from work today because i had a doctors appointment at 2:00 but they had to cancel it. So now i am at work and i will be here until 5:00. I don't feel like working. I just want to lay around :)

Anyway.....i have no plans this weekend, unfortunately, but hopefully the gym and i will get together at some point....lol Gotta get my butt movin!

I was looking through my Eating For Life cookbook. I forget how many yummy recipies are in there! I have to go food shopping for some of the ingredients and make some of the recipies in there for next week.

FYI. I am reading this great book "Honeymoon" by James Patterson. It is soo good. I can't wait to finish it. I recommend it to anybody who loves James Patterson...go get it and read it. you wont be able to put it down.

Snow sucks!

Well this morning, i woke up to an ice/sleet/snow storm. actually it started last night but i was sleeping....everything was a sheet of ice. It was bad. I slid down my front steps when i left for work this morning. I should have taken a picture. Adam has his work cut out for him when he gets home from work....happy valentines day....now go shovel hahaha....

But the good news is that we get out at 3:00! yay! i am going to work out from home tonight. i didnt bring my clothes with me to go after work. Today is upper body day...but i feel like my whole body needs it for some reason......i just feel blah...i know its the weather but i dont feel like doing anything except sitting on the couch and watching tv. But alas, i will do what im supposed to do.

Oh, i finally took pictures the other night of myself to send to the trainer. God, i need a lot of work....lol.....i wont post them....not yet anyway....maybe later on as a comparison....no one needs to get grossed out by seeing me....lol. Well i hope everyone has a happy v. day! See ya.

i am a blob

What is wrong with me? I can't take it anymore! My pants are tight. they shouldn't be tight. they should be loose! There is no way in hell that this should be! Lets put another spin on it. If a person was just eating right for 7 weeks, he/she would have lost more weight than me! I am eating clean AND exercising! There is something terribly wrong. I got on the scale this morning and i was up a 1.5 pounds! WTF! Well, Im taking my pictures tonight to send off to Tony....hopefully something will change once i start this program! If not, im jumping off the edge of a building.....well not literally....lol but something has to be wrong. Im getting sad and stressed out and aggrevated. hopefully i will be in a better mood after i get home from the gym.

I had a nice anniversary on thursday. We went down the shore-we had a room at the Tropicana and we went to dinner. Lost money gambling of course. I wasn't able to workout on Thursday and friday when we got home, i just didn't have it in me. I really should have since i didn't eat that great when we went out to dinner.

Now to make matters worse, i didn't go to the gym yesterday or today! AND, i went to Applebees for dinner with my parents last night! That was a disaster! It was one of those meals when you are so hungry, that you don't care what you shove in your face! I was of course, upset after i ate.

See, i think my problem is this: Im not giving up, but im just getting a bit discouraged by the lack of weight that im losing. But all of that is going to change (i hope). I finally got in touch with the online trainer, Tony and i filled out the paperwork. The only thing that i am dreading is taking the pictures to send to him. I talked to Adam about it and i was trying to explain how well a lot of you girls have made such great advances and are really happy with him. Adam isn't too keen on the cost but I told him that i will try it for a month. If it doesn't work, then i dont have to keep it going. I need to be told EXACTLY what to do, exercise wise and eating wise. I have to be doing something wrong. Adam just keeps telling me to do more cardio. But it has to be more than that. I have been eating clean for 6 weeks, going on 7 and i have only lost 4 pounds. Something isn't right. So i am going to have Adam take my pictures, and i will send them off and we shall see what happens. Im just really tired of looking this way and not being happy with myself. I want to be confident and strong and look and feel good. That is all i want.

Now i just have to get my ass back in the gym! I haven't had 4 days out of the gym in a while and i don't like it :( I feel better when i work out.

I have to figure out my food options too for the week. i went food shopping this morning. But i still need more stuff in. I need to get to BJs to get the big packages of chicken and salmon. Going to a regular supermarket is too expensive for that.

Oh, and my friggin microwave died this morning. I can't be without a microwave. I am going to run to Target tonight after dinner to get a new one.

Well, gotta get back to reality. Cant wait to actually get to the gym tomorow! Just dreading taking my pictures tonight!

WEDNESDAY

Well it's Wednesday...im sitting at my desk eating my zucchini oat bar thinking about the fact that i only have a day and a half left of work this week. I took a half day tomorrow and off on friday. Tomorrow, February 8, 2007 is me and Adam's 5 year anniversary. So in celebration of it, we booked a place down the shore in Atlantic City for overnight. Im excited. I can't believe we have been together for 5 years already! Time flies when your having fun i guess !!! my mom and dad are dog sitting their "grandchild" for me...lol

I worked out this morning instead of after work because it's my sister's birthday and we are going over her house for dinner....im actually bringing my own dinner because what they are eating, i can't, so i marinated my peanut thai chicken(thanks again amy!) and i will cook it when i get home and then bring it over there to eat it.

I was thinking about getting that online trainer that a lot of you guys use, Tony(Dreambodies), and at least try it out for a month or so to see if i can handle it. I emailed him the other day, and he wrote me back, and then i had a few more questions, and then i got no response, so i dont know what i should do. i dont want to be a pain in the ass and keep on emailing him.

Oh and guess what else.....my filling in my tooth that i had root canal in well the filing came out...now i have to go to the frigging dentist! I hate the dentist....especially because i dont have dental insurance and i have to put out all this money that i dont have!

Anywho....i forgot to post my meals and exercise for yesterday...and i guess i will do today too!

Tuesday-February 6, 2007

M1: zucchini oat bar

M2: zucchini oat bar

M3: salmon, asparagus, salad

M4: protien bar

M5: seared tuna, brown rice, string beans, salad

Workout: efx machine 45 minutes

Today-February 7, 2007

M1: zucchini oat bar, coffee, clementine, water

M2: zucchini oat bar, water
M3: salad, water

M4: protien bar

M5: peanut thai chicken, brown rice

M6: ??

workout: upper body-40 minutes

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MICHELLE

Sorry for the Bitchfest

Im cranky...and tired. Sometimes i just hate my life. All that it consists of is waking up, going to work, going to the gym, coming home, cooking dinner, eating, cleaning up the dishes (i dont have a f**king dishwasher so i have to do everything by hand), straightening up and then taking a shower and going to bed. That is my boring life. I hate my house, it just constantly needs to be cleaned....i wish i could afford a cleaning lady.....how lazy would i be then??? There is no good reason why my house gets so messy....just laziness and tiredness. I hate my kitchen. There is absolutely no counter space....i wish i had an work island in my kitchen so i could do more in there. Its so hard to cook with no room. Plus i have the damn dog under my feet every second....sorry for the bitchfest. Im just tired of doing everything myself, and it looks like nothing is ever done! That is the worst part!!

Now to bitch about myself. I hate myself! Every single inch of me. I got on the f**king scale this morning and i was the same AGAIN....WTF! And im not even PMSing....lol!

Im just down on myself. I guess im stressed. I dont know.

My workout was ok. Not the greatest. I did lower body tonight. I felt like i could have done more but i didn't know what to do.....and it was getting late...so i left. I did workout about 40 minutes or so......could have been worse i guess.

Im cooking my zucchini oat bars now. I wanted to make protien pancakes and freeze them for the week, but im tired and Heroes is coming on soon.....love that show!

Food intake today:

M1: zucchini oat bar
M2: zucchini oat bar
M3: salad with turkey, kidney beans, light dressing
M4: protein bar
M5: salmon, salad, asparagus

its friday!

Well my eating has been continuously clean.... except for one meal. Wednesday i went for sushi...i know, i know, it was wrong, but it was soooo good!! I was saving it for my cheat meal when i lost 10 pounds....but I needed something different from chicken and salmon. But i didn't overstuff myself. It was yummy!

I had a good lower body workout on Wednesday too, which was another reason i gave myself the little treat. I didnt work out at all yesterday. I had to go to the doctors. I was getting dizzy for the past couple of days and i didnt know why. Well it turned out that it was just wax that impacted my ear drum and was throwing off my equilibrium. So, last night i just layed around with the drops and tried to just relax. The dizziness subsided so i should be fine for the gym tonight.