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My nephew Nicky :) Love that face!!!!!

I am the worst blogger ever....LOL! Time just flies and i read everyone's blogs and i never post myself!

Well lets recap.....

Friday---came home, did cardio, cleaned, made dinner....we had angelica so after dinner we watched ANTM together :)

Saturday---cardio, abs, went to the mall, ate dinner, started watching Sex and the City on HBO then Adam came home and we watched Quantum of Solace....it was pretty good...i liked the first one better....

Sunday---cardio, cleaned a little, cooked, hung around...god, i cant even remember what i did! LOL!

Monday--shoulders, 30 minutes of cardio-PM, made dinner, watched Heroes and went to bed.

Man, my life is so exciting! LOL!

Today was leg day! Tonight we are going to my sister's for dinner. I have to see my baby!!! I miss him....My mom is making turkey so thats safe for me to eat.....then i will go home and do my cardio! Blech! LOL!

Double cardio sessions will be coming soon....fun huh? Im going to start with 3xs a week for 30 minutes in the morning and do every night after work for about 45 minutes....see how that goes for a week or two and how my body handles that...and then we will take it from there....im still pretty far out (12 weeks) so i dont want to overload myself too much! I also want to try and incorporate some plyometrics into my weekly routine....my ass needs all the work it can get!

Diet is going good....my only little slip is eating popcorn...which isnt terrible..it could be worse...it could be chocolate! But the salt isn't doing me any good...so i really have to watch it.

My last cheat meal will be Easter. Which is next week..i am not going to go crazy and eat a solid chocolate bunny or a pound of M&Ms or anything...i promise :) But i am going to eat dinner with the family like a normal person.....well as normal as i can be :)

Its period week...i didn't get it yet....it should be here any day...but i have no symptoms of it?? Weird...my body goes from one extreme to the other....some months im a bloated cow and my boobs are gigantic and this month...nothing! I had to actually check the date when i had it last because i didn't even realize when it was due! Not that im complaining that im not a bloated mess or anything.....but maybe the cardio is helping with the bloat???

I went tanning yesterday..I didn't go at all last week..which was fine...but im paying for it, i should at least go 1-2xs a week!

Question about supplements.....most of the ones i take, im supposed to take 3xs a day (with meals) why cant i remember to take them??? How does everyone remember???? Dinner is the worst! I never remember! Im always so busy trying to get dinner cooked and on the table before it gets cold and im usually starving by that point too, so i never remember to take them!

Any little tips to get them in???

Well i guess that's all i got right now......

Thursday

Well besides it being so crappy out today, im doing ok. Last night i did 65 minutes of cardio on the treadmill....

Today i worked my back at the gym. I will do another hour when i get home.

I haven't weighed myself since last week...i dont want to weigh myself this saturday either. Saturday i will be 13 weeks out! Time goes by so quickly.

I got into it last night with Adam over the whole competing thing. It all started with sushi. He started it by saying that he was in the mood for it....that is all i needed to hear. Its like a little subliminal message to me...so now i wanted it....badly! What could it hurt? I have PLENTY of time, right? What is one little meal going to do? Fish is healthy right?

So he says to me:

Adam: are you allowed to eat sushi on your diet?
me: yes
Adam: come on.....you know you cant have the rice
Me: I know but i want it really bad
Adam: dont you want to get on stage in a few weeks?
me: yes...but i have plenty of time.....
adam: but look how fast it came last time and you killed yourself last time and y0u put back half the weight that you took off...so its going to be harder this time
me: i know what i should be doing..but its not fair
adam: does your trainer know when you eat something your not supposed to?
me: no
adam: well then how is he going to fix what needs to be fixed if you aren't doing what you are supposed to?
me: I know

Ok...well you guys get the point....this went on for a bit....i know what im supposed to do...i know i cant have that....i know that the other girls training for a show dont do what i want to do....they are working harder than me....right now......every day....which is why they are going to do better than me on show day......

He is only helping me, i know this....the truth hurts....i didn't get it....i made salmon and shrimp and a salad. LIke a good girl.....

I just want progress and i know im not going to get progress if i cheat....i dont want to be one of those girls at the gym who is there every day and looks the same....i want to look like i work out....and i dont.....

i wanted to start posting progress pics from 12 weeks out.....im lucky if i can post pics from 6 weeks out and be happy with them......

things need to change if i want this......adam thinks i dont really want this...he said "you say you do, but really you don't......

i do want this.....

i will get there......

i made this decision......

this is my dream......no one elses......

i will do this

promise :)

Wednesday

Well its wednesday already....one day closer to saturday, which makes me one week less out for my show. This saturday will be 13 weeks out. I am a mess still....just the thought of being half way ready is a longshot i think. I see some of these girls and they are like 15-20 weeks out and look better than me. I dont know if i can do this. But i have to continue to think positively right? I just have to continue doing the work....which includes more cardio, and the weight will come off, right?

Yesterday we had a little scare. My sister called me at the gym yesterday morning....Ang, daddy took Mom to the hospital....HUH??? What happened???? She fell getting out of the shower...well now im like what do i do? do i rush down there? i tried to call my dad, cant get him....michelle was trying too...so i went to work and waited to hear something.....they did tests and she seemed ok...has a nice big gash in the back of her head and she is sore, but she is going to be ok..thank god! So that was my exciting tuesday!

I did get done my shoulder workout though and that went really good....but i didn't get any extra cardio in ;( But there is always tonight! Which i will do it tonight...i also have to go food shopping! And the dog has no food either! Bad mommy!!!!

I always have these great plans for when i get home from work...i feel all energized and i want to clean and do cardio and cook dinner.....i make dinner, clean up dishes, do cardio, check email and stuff, and go to bed. In my head it sounds good :)

Im getting my hair colored on sunday....the roots are bad! She is going to cut it too....i have not had my hair cut in almost a year! Yes a year!!! June i got it cut short......and i haven't touched it since! The ends need it bad!!!

I have two birthdays coming up in the next two weeks too.....my neice and nephew...which are both their 1st birthdays!!! And im making candy trays for them both! And then easter is the day after my nephew's birthday...so i have to be extra good with my diet and all in the next couple weeks.....

and i have nothing to wear to them either! Im such a mess! Maybe one day i will have my shit together! LOL! Which is another reason why i dont have any kids!

Eating has been ok....it needs to be better....i have little moments of weakness.....not horrible but enough to do a little damage probably. I need to be good.

ok....i think thats all i got for now....oooh i found a few new blogs today :) I posted them on my sidebar :P

3/23/09

its monday! Had a pretty decent weekend...nothing too exciting.....Adam went out with his friends on friday for happy hour so i got a chance to catch up with my DVR recordings. Saturday, me, adam and angelica went to the movies to see Escape to Witch Mountain...it was cute...Sunday, worked out-hour of cardio and abs....then i had a party to go to which im glad i had a big Met-Rx shake prior to going cause there was bad food everywhere! I had salad and some shrimp :)

Today was leg day! Yay!!! I added in some deadlifts to my workout and some narrow squats too :) Every little bit of extra helps!

i guess thats all i got for now....

3/20

Im so glad its friday!!!

Today was bicep and triceps at the gym...yay! I really tried to concentrate on the muscle and my form....see if it makes a difference....i didn't go really heavy but it still was hard.

I did 45 minutes of cardio last night when i got home...i didn't get on there until almost 8:00...i didn't want to do it but i did....i have to get a grip...this is what needs to be done...

and to be honest, i feel a lot leaner this week....but it may have something to do with me stopping the superpump???

I have to weigh in tomorrow...i dont really want to get on the scale...one, because i hate that number, and two, every time i step on that stupid thing i get a different number, so i dont know which is correct...of course i always go with the lowest ;)

Im supposed to do pics too...im not posting yet..i still am at 14 weeks so i have more time...

Last night i wanted to go out for sushi soooo bad......adam wouldn't let me and i was getting all mad at him....but i know he is only doing what i asked him to do.....help me stay strong and eating clean....see i ask for the help and then get mad when i get it! What is wrong with me??

No plans for the weekend....which is good....i actually have my cousin's son's birthday on sunday....but she is doing food and all, which i can control myself...i will just eat before i go...and stay out of the kitchen :)

Thursday

This morning started off rough for some reason....i was so sleepy and did not want to get out of bed. Adam was behind schedule too which threw it off also. I wound up not getting out of bed until 6:15 and i had to get stuff together for my day. He wound up not getting into the shower until 6:35 and we usually leave the house by 6:50..so i was late...in the morning, this is what i usually do
get up go to the bathroom, wash face and teeth
get dressed in gym clothes
go down and let dog out
cook my egg whites
get my clothes for work and put them in my bag
put mine and adam's food in containers for work
take out my water, shaker bottle and put that in my gym bag
make sure i have my ipod and whatever else i may need
make him a protein shake
lock up the house and go

Well today all that was 15 minutes or so behind....and then me and adam got into it because he was so late.....pissed me off....he usually drives me to the subway.....it saves me about 10 minutes of walking....so i can get to the gym faster.....we were going back and forth and he was telling me that if i want to complain about him being late there is nothing stopping me from leaving before him.....i can walk...its not cold out he says....i know this...its just that it saves me time when he drives me...plus i dont have to carry the 3 bags on my back for an addiional 15 minutes! Plus its dark out! LOL!!! So, needless to say, i walked to the subway and i didnt get to the gym until 7:25!!!!!! Mind you im usually there by 7...so by all this mess up in the morning, it cost me 25 minutes of working out! I was not a happy camper!!! I got it all done....with a 5 minute warm up instead of 10 and no cool down......today was back and it wasn't too much...only 4 or 5 different exercises so it wasnt really long......but tonight i have to make sure i get all my cardio done.....

So that was my morning! I want to go to sleep!

I just took 2 xenidrine samples....i dont like them....they do nothing for me! Im still tired!!! I will take my meltdown before i do my cardio :) I like them!

This day is dragging big time too! I was starving after lunch....like an hour after i ate....so i had a protien bar in my drawer....i broke a piece off i had to...i was starving for some reason....i still have 45 minutes till my "protien frosting" YUMMM!!!!

Oh and my lazy ass didn't do cardio last night when i came home.....yes i know, i suck!

3/18

I didn't update yesterday....yesterday was shoulders.....my favorite :) Hopefully they are growing little by little...

I came home from work and i so did not want to move! I came in, opened the mail, sat on the couch and fell backwards! I laid on the couch and adam came home and asked if i was ok...i said yeah, just tired.....he asked if i was doing cardio...i said i dont want to...he said "go do it" so he had to run back out and i laid there a few more minutes and i got up....i went upstairs to get changed and i said let me look at my suit....tony has been bugging me for pics..i guess i should take some...so i put it on.....NOT GOOD!!! I was almost in tears but i stopped myself....this was all my doing...im the one that ate like a freaking pig during the holidays and didn't give two shits what i looked like and what i would look like later....so i got mad at myself and kicked myself and and i did 50 minutes of cardio...i actually broke it up into 30 minutes before dinner and 20 minutes at around 8:00. Pictures did not get taken! Couldn't do it. He is going to have to wait.

This morning i had chest and i did some abs....i did my warmup on the elliptical for 10 minutes....tonight i have to do another 45 minutes of cardio....Adam wont be home tonight...its his monthly dinner he has with his friends......so i will be able to move at my own pace which is nice. I always feel like i have to stop what im doing so i can make dinner and then switch my schedule up....i may even be able to throw an episode of LOST on ABC.com...and watch that during cardio....it makes the time go by much faster!!! And i usually stay on longer too :)

I also cut down my oatmeal in the morning from 1 cup cooked to 2/3 cup....i want to really try and watch my carbs to see if it makes a difference????

So here i am...14.5 weeks out.....i was trying to look at my schedule....i will be 12 weeks out easter weekend....i will not do any cheats until easter....and that will be my last one....because at 12 weeks out....that is crunch time....cause that 12 weeks will FLY!!!

I still have to figure out what to do about my suit. I got some swatches from CC fitwear...she is going to send me some tops to try on so i can see the cuts on them....cause even with the underwire that i had on my other suit, i was still popping out all over...i dont know how these tops fit without any support.....we shall see!!!!!!

monday already

Well the weekend was a blur again and i got nothing accomplished as always...

today was leg day! My second favorite to shoulders :) I pressed 275 on the leg press today! YIPPEE! It must be the Superpump 250! Which i found out today due to April telling me via Tony...that it could cause bloat and weight gain.....which brings me to...

Me this morning having a breakdown because my pants were so freaking tight i was going to cry and call it quits.....so i emailed T and he said yes it could cause 3-4 pound weight gain! So i think im going to continue doing it until im 12 weeks out.....which is 3 more weeks.....and, hopefully i will have added a tiny bit more muscle??? And then at 12 weeks out i will take it out of my morning ritual :)

Is anyone else taking it and noticed the bloat???? Has it helped with muscle gain?

He wants pics this week.....i said you dont want no pics of this bloated mess!!

why i look the way i do

there is a reason why i dont allow certain foods in front of me......

case in point.....i just ate about 10 pretzel sticks.....

i wasn't hungry at all.....WTF?

where do the days go???

Man....this week flew!!!! I cannot believe its friday!

Lets see if i can recap....a week in the exciting life of angela.....

Monday-legs---then did 40 minutes of cardio at night......

Tuesday--shoulders-35 min cardio

Wednesday---chest (blech) and 40 min cardio

Thursday-back and no cardio :( ....(my friend came over and she hung out..by the time dinner was done, i was exhausted and felt bad to throw her out...LOL)

Friday (today).....biceps/triceps.....and will do cardio when i get home......

Tomorrow is cardio and abs.....

See how exciting??

I cant believe its already a week since the Arnold...man that went by in a blur...

tomorrow i will be 15 weeks out!!!!!!!!!! OMG!!!!

I started taking Superpump 250 on monday too......i want to see if it helps :)

No plans for the weekend....we have angelica all weekend....adam has to work tomorrow so me and angelica are going to hang with my sister and the baby tomorrow...maybe go to the mall or something....

oh well...thats all i got......

Back from the Arnold....

Well im back from the Arnold....Both Stacey and Tina looked phenominal and i am so happy for them both!!!

April picked me up at the airport and off we went.....April was all excited that we were going to his 6666 miles on her car on the way.....i had to take the pic...she was trying to take in on her cell phone but was having some trouble....so i took it for her....hate to see us trying to explain why we got in an accident.....well police officer, i was trying to take a pic of my odometer...LOL!



We had a great time and I got to meet Tracey and Steph and Abby and Kellie!

Oh and of course Chris (Stacey's guy!)

The expo was packed and we got to see some of the Pro prejudging...man you dont realize how tiny they all are!!! It is amazing!

Here is a video of tina when she first came out....


and here is stacey.....






Here are some more pics!





Pauline Nordin....she is as short as me....yet i look 100 pounds heavier! Man she is TINY but ripped in person! See folks...there is your difference between muscle and fat....LOL!


Here are some pics from the Prejudging Pro Show--mostly Gina Aliotti and the other's asses! Because i was on the side and couldn't get a front facing pic!


and here is a little video :)

2 more days!!!!

I cannot believe that in less than 2 days i will be flying out to go to the Arnold again! I cannot wait!!!

I have to give a HUGE SHOUTOUT TO TINA AND STACEY WHO WILL BE COMPETING IN THE ARNOLD AMATEUR ON THURSDAY!!! I am so proud and excited for both of you!!! You both have worked so hard and i cannot wait to scream my head off for each of you from the audience :) You are rockstars!!!!!!!!!!!


As far as my training goes....yesterday was legs and today was shoulders....my two favorites :)

Eating has been good except for some nut mix.....i cannot have that shit in the house or i eat it!

I have also decided that i just need to become a hermit and not go out for meals with anyone....even my family who think they are eating healthy...really are eating better, but not to my version.....all food must go with me from now on.....

I didn't get any extra cardio in yesterday except for shoveling snow...yes we got about 6 inches or so yesterday.....and adam was at work late so i had to do it my self.....so i got some cardio in....LOL!