Its monday!!!
Ok I have to vent....there is a new girl that i work with...really sweet girl. I think she is like 27 or 28. She has a 7 month old...not sure how heavy she was before she had a baby, but she is pretty overweight..anyway....she has talked to me a few times about eating right, etc....and how she has to lose weight...blah blah blah.....she gets mcdonalds EVERY morning for breakfast....one day she didn't and had some Pilsbury scrambles or something in the freezer...i looked at the box and I think I had heart attack..it was like 20 grams of fat for one little pastry ...she had 4!!!!
And I just walked by her now and she has mcdonalds AGAIN!!!!!!
Now I know I may eat junk here or there...things that im not supposed to...popcorn or nuts or a little piece of chocolate....but I go to the gym everyday and eat well 99% of the time....i cant deal with people like that!! Why do I get mad?? I think i know why....because people talk out their asses sometimes....dont say you want to lose weight and then eat mcdonalds....it looks ridiculous.....and again im going to say it...i am FAR from perfect....I eat some bad things here or there....but my diet on the whole is clean.....but i know not to eat fast food for christs sake!!!
Anyway...thats my rant for the day!
Weekend was good.....went by too fast though.....i got my hair lightened....its like a lighter brown with some lighter highlights...its a lot lighter than what im used to...so it may take me a while to get the hang of it.....i was trying to take a pic on my cell phone but the battery just died :(
Gina Aliotti posted her 3.5 week out pics on her blog today! She looks AMAZING!!! I am so in awe of her! She is my motivation right now...and i just found out that her DVD came today....i cant wait to get home!!!! YAY!!
This past Saturday marked me at 21 weeks out.....i really want to see how my body can change in the upcoming weeks.
I get discouraged a lot of times and i want to stay positive...there is no reason to fail...and the only reason i would would be because of me...and that is not going to happen....i am going to try and come in a lot leaner than i was before....i can see some muscle underneath and it makes me excited to go forward....
I dont want to get down on myself...but i have these thoughts in my head like im a fraud and i dont look like a figure competitor and im a big joke....im still embarrassed to wear a tank top! i need to get in a positive mindset 24/7...not just when i read a blog or read a magazine...it has to be continuous!
No one can stop me but me! And im not stopping myself!!! This is it...full force, balls to the wall....i am going to do this, and do this right....this is the way i want to look, this is the way i want to be..so i have to be it...and just do it...this has to be my lifestyle and not just for a show....and im telling you all now.....i will not go off the wagon like i did after my show....it went downhill fast....and i couldn't find the brakes! There was no reason for it at all....i just had said fuck it...im eating...i was deprived for so long..i deserve it....now im paying for it.....so there will be no "off season" I am going to continue to build and eat clean....i will have cheats here and there...but im not doing what i did after november....its so not worth it.......
24 days till the Arnold!!!!! YAY!!!!
6 comments:
LOL! Love the title! I'm here for you woman...We WILL do this!
Girl, there was a woman I used to work with and her name was Wanda. She was obese and complained ALL the time about her thyroid and how she just COULDN'T lose weight. We would see her with McDonald's bags, etc but it wasn't over the top. Then one day, I she sent me to her desk to grab something for her and I opened up the drawer and apparently opened the wrong one b/c in it was Toblerone's, chips, little debbies, all kinds of CRAP. And after that anytime she complained to me I just said, you know Wanda, I would recommend not eating the stuff in your drawer anymore. :)
I completely understand your frustrations!!!!
Where is Gina's blog? I can't find it but maybe it is in the Member's section?? Help.
Jess
What happened to the title? :)
I c an so relate to a lot of waht you feel sometimes but what everyone keeps telling me I am only comepeting with myself! I try to remember that.
you will do great!
You can absolutely do this! No one can stand in your way especially not you...go ahead, push yourself around :)
I know what you mean about people like that with the McD's. My favorite is when THEY try to tell ME what's good/bad about wht I am eating. I know I am no figure competitor yet but I haven't had McDs in literally years. I totally understand your frustration!!
I think a lot of times people that are over weight talk to people like us about losing weight because they're thinking that we probably see them as fat hogs. So, because of their insecurity they talk to us about, "Yeah...I need to lose weight and...." and they go on about how they know they need to lose weight. I don't think its because they want to, or because they're trying to...I think its because talking to you makes her probably feel more insecure because she knows you are trying to lean out and stuff which probably makes her feel super-uneasy.
Sadly, some people really DONT know how to lose weight, and they think if they don't get the supersize french fries, that will help them lose weight. I know tons and tons of people that are like this...my family lol! I do think some people talk to us about their weight loss because they feel insecure around us...so, i would say that's probably her thing too...plus some people really dont know what to do when it comes to eating food.
I made a new years resolution to stay out of people's business when it comes to diets and what they eat because its pointless to get aggravated with other people's habits because they're not us. We can only control what WE eat, so we shouldn't worry or get upset because its a waste of our stress!!! My family eats horribly, but I gotta just ignore it from now on!!! :D
Keep up the good work on urself babe!
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