I really need to get a grip ;)
So what has been going on ? Nothing really...im in a constant state of doing well eating and working out...then the weekend comes and i eat off plan....and then monday i start over being "good" again....and the circle continues....i dont know if i will ever learn?
My niece's christening was on Saturday. That was nice...
Halloween has come and gone..and already...next week is Thanksgiving! Really scary how time flies.
I have high hopes for me sometimes....then i have those days where i want to quit and eat a cake....thinking why am i even bothering?
Then i know....i know what i want to be...and yet, sometimes unwilling to do what it takes to get there. But the whole question is why?
If all i can think about is getting the body that i want and to get back on stage and be proud of myself once again..why does my head constantly fuck with me and then i stand in my own way?
I have been doing this to myself for years and years....what will it take for me to tell all the doubts and fears that i have to go away and just let myself push forward and be what i need to be? what i want to be? To do what im supposed to do and not let food have the upper hand....because that is all it comes down to.....100%....what i put in my mouth....
Over and over again....i do it to myself...and i get mad at myself....and then i try to stay positive and not let negative thoughts get to me...
I have to want the body more than the food.....
This is inspiration for me....she is a mom, works full time and she is 52 years old....all i can say is wow!
This is too.....this is one of the bombshell coaches Andrea....
and then there is me.......one week out from KY Muscle in 2009....
So i know i can do this...i have done it before....i need to get my head on straight and know that i can do this....
1 comment:
I saw a picture about 4-5 years ago of a woman winning a seniors bodybuilding show aged 51 and absolutely shredded.
It can be done and it has been done and at your age, just like Ernestine Shepard has done it in her 70's.
YES you have done it before and YES you CAN do it again, because you DO have what it takes and we both know that is the truth and at your age, you still have plenty of time to make it happen, but it does ultimately come down to you.
Don't be a what if person about this, you're better than that.
GOOD LUCK.
:-) :-).
Matt
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