I think im going to get the "worst blogger of the year" award....
to be honest, if i was full of motivation and goal setting and had that kick ass attitude, then maybe i would have been blogging more...but unfortunately that has not been the case...basically what it comes down to is that i will do well during the week....weekend comes and it all goes to shit....
now repeat that over and over since january....
now, back in January i had these big plans and be ready to try and compete again....right now i cant see that happening.....
i tried setting baby goals for myself....that didn't really work either.
I keep trying to figure out what i can do to follow my dreams...to get my head on straight....to stay focused and determined and all that good stuff....
And i think what it all comes down to is this....me wanting it and me doing it are two different things....my desire to have what i want and doing the work to get there....me feeling like a champion rather than feeling like a failure....
i can have all the desire and the dreams in my head that i want...until it is acted out...that is all it is...a dream....
I live it all out by watching everyone else accomplish their dreams...while i sit there and then feel bad that i haven't done it.
I honestly dont know what im waiting for??? I think im afraid of failing...im afraid of pushing myself mentally and physically...because we all know how much easier it is to give up than to push yourself out of your comfort zone.
I have a trainer and a team that i pay very good money for every month....you would think that maybe i would want to put all that money to good use and do what im supposed to do?
I cant needs to be removed from my mindset.....every excuse that goes through my head needs to disappear if i want to accomplish anything.....
So on that note.....
I will attempt to update more :)
2 comments:
The thing is though, if you'd posted more about the ups and downs, instead of just waiting for one big admission like now, people could have posted stuff that might have helped :-).
Ultimately you CAN do this, but it always comes down to how much you want it and how strongly your mind can connect to the whole process.
I have always believed in you and that won't change, but you've got more to give than you do and you've got more to offer to yourself than you do.
You're a beautiful, strong, capable Lady, with so much going for you Angela and you CAN be proud of what you do for yourself, but you CAN be more proud, if you can find more of the required discipline that I am absolutely certain exists within you.
It's been over 3 years I think since your first show and you should have been on here now, having told people about numerous shows and possibly a win or two.
Keep smiling and keep pushing, because you DO have it. You did this once and you CAN do it again, believe in that and when you're ready to get your head seriously in the game and tell the weekend eats to take a hike, so more of the weekday eats can get on the menu where they should be, you will make more happen for yourself.
You're a million miles from the end of this, so it's not like it's now or never, but don't let regret and little things be the biggest enemies of success and don't worry about what people will think, when you admit to human failings and mistakes, because people can rally round if they want to, even if it means having to do it once every week or two sometimes.
Don't be too hard on yourself okay, but don't be a slave or victim or whatever you'd call it, to the mistakes and the things you identified of messing things up a bit for you, because you CAN take control and a piece of pie, or a few cookies, don't have to dictate how you eat in your own home, as you have the power to decide if things like that, should even be in your own home and if for some reason they must, then you have the power to decide how they affect you.
Seize more control of this, be strong and no worries, because you ARE worth it.
:-) :-).
Matt
This article couldn't be more correct. It's all about choices, your choices to be strong and attractive. Awesome suggestion and motivation for us.
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