back to normal??

Im feeling better now that i got my rant out.....looking back, i do tend to rant a lot...LOL! Anyway, back to business! Workouts going great....i have actually gone back to the gym after work again for more cardio! Only 35 minutes, but hey, at least its something extra! I get down on myself too much, i need to stay more positive. it is just really hard being that way because i have been down on myself for so long, its hard to change the mindset.

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Anyway, i didn't talk about last Thursday-Friday in Atlantic City! It was really nice. We got down the shore at about 7:00 Thursday night. We checked in and then went to get something to eat..we were starving! We wound up eating at PF Changs which is in the hotel....i didn't eat too bad...we ordered steamed shrimp dumplings, crab wontons(only had one) and stir fry chicken. We then went down to the pier where they have all these new "upscale" shops..but we got there and it was closed :( So we walked back and gambled a bit.....lost of course, and then went back to the room......the next morning we went to breakfast....i didn't do too bad there either...but i did have half a corn muffin and a piece of bacon.......and then i wonder why i cant lose weight! But we walked a lot afterwards...they have an outlet mall so we walked around there for about an hour or two.....i wish i had more money to buy christmas presents...i could have got something done!

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Back to the workouts....monday i did chest, tuesday, legs, today shoulders and back. Hopefully i will be able to get back to the gym the rest of the week after work to do more extra....

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On the wedding front.....invitations should be done tonight to be picked up. I have to go and buy stamps at lunch. The invitations should be going out tomorrow or friday! I can't believe its only 57 days away!!! Time is flying!!! Oh, and the bridal salon called me last night and moved my appointment up to the 15th...which is next saturday! I think im doing no carbs all next week :)

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My dad found out about a month ago that he has prostate cancer. It was VERY upsetting at first, but after he met with the top doctors at Jefferson we found out that he has a very low grade and they gave him two options....operate and take out the prostate or radiation.....they told him that the best option is to operate and not have to worry. So that is what he is doing. The only thing is the operation is scheduled for January 9th....which only gives him a few weeks of recovery before the wedding. I asked my mom to see if it would be an issue at all to postpone it until the week after the wedding. Only because my father is a worry wart and he already thinks something is going to go wrong, he is going to make himself crazy....and recovery is only supposed to be a week or two which is fine and he should be fine by the wedding but what if he's not? I only want it postponed ONLY if the doctor thinks waiting 3 weeks wouldn't make a difference...if he thinks it will AT ALL then go with the January date....god forbid if he waits and something happens...it will all be my fault! I know he is going to be fine....but its my daddy and i want him to be ok.....

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I have that on my brain on top of all the other stuff....and then i have my aunt marlene...my dad's sister, who also found out that she has cervical cancer...which she has been operated on already...she had to get a full hysterectomy..but she had complications and she was in ICU and all and she is finally in a regular room after two weeks and is finally able to take fluids and hopefully food soon...so my dad now thinks that he is going to have complications too...so that is the only reason i wanted the date moved.

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Then all the christmas crap....i decorated finally over the weekend....i just have to do the tree...which will wait and do when Angelica comes over this weekend...and hopefully i will be able to take her to go and see Enchanted...finally!!