3 days to go!

well here we are....its wednesday....the wednesday before my show....well my and April's show....i cannot wait to see her!!!    Its going to be so much fun!  Even though i get to eat and drink more than her ;)

This final prep week has been so different than last go around.....i actually get to eat and drink water!!  I am a little nervous about this....since last time i had a dry out....so my mind is playing tricks on me....i am going to continue to trust my trainer.....he knows his stuff.....and just see what happens.....its all i can do....trust the process is what i have been told....so far, so good.....i am looking at it this way too....if nothing else changes in my body from now until saturday....then i will look like i do now....with a tan.....and that isn't so bad :)

Weight was still 105.2 this morning.....but all in all, I must say that this has been a pretty enjoyable prep....i enjoy this process and until i really stop and think about it, it just goes by and i don't let it settle in....i need to realize what an accomplishment it is to just have the discipline to do this sport....yeah, my body still has plenty of improvements to make...but i will get there....this is a journey...and i need to remember that.....i have goals that i want to accomplish...and i know that i will only continue to get better, as long as i stay focused and i realize how great this sport is!  Now, don't get me wrong...at times it sucks....not being able to be "normal" and having to stay in and missing parties, going to dinner, and not seeing family as much, etc...but as i continue to get older, i am realizing that you have to live for yourself too....I have always been the person who puts everyone else first before me.  Doing this, you have to become a little selfish...and its hard sometimes....because i get grief from my family and friends....im not asking them to eat what i eat...im not asking them to do what i do.....but yet, i get made to feel like im doing something wrong.....and i know im not.....im doing something that only a small percentage of people can do....and i have to remember that!

This guy came up to me yesterday morning in the gym....i see him every once in a while and we wave to each other.....well yesterday he came up to me and i took my headphone off...he said to me "you are such an inspiration to me....you are here every day...no matter what.....your dedication is amazing"....I said thank you!  That really meant a lot....he said "it is hard for me to get here 2-3 times a week, but no matter what, you are here!"    WOW!  See?  You never know who notices what you do....it felt good...it made me smile :)

So this afternoon i am going to get my nails and toes done.  Tonight i will be making some more food, 7 layer bars and getting some stuff packed....tomorrow i took a half day from work and i am going to make brownies and Paula Deen's Gooey Butter cakes...yum!!!!  Then i have to go and get my hair blown out and finish packing!   I cant believe its here and i know it will be over before you know it....

Hopefully i will be able to post from my phone.....or at least post on facebook ;)  Now you know why i had to have the iphone before christmas ;)  Just for this reason :)

And I really wanted to thank all of you who have posted comments on my blog...it really means a lot to me :)

And i really want to thank April....just for being such a wonderful friend :)  I would never have been able to do this without her!  Even though she is miles away....i feel like she is always right there with me :)   It is so crazy...how a friendship can grow even though we only see each other a couple times a year!  I talk to her more than my friends who live here!  She is the best!!!! Love that girl!!!!   : )

Well i will try and update tomorrow and over the weekend :)   Damn...where the hell did the time go???

BYE :)