Well im trying to get by with not eating any candy....last night i made up little goodie bags (with 2-3 pieces in each bag) I made up 80 bags and i still have a ton of candy left! Whatever is left over is coming to work with me so they can eat it here...i will just save some reese peanut butter cups home for Adam...they are his favorite :) I had a baby bag of M&ms while making the bags up....i figured they would be the "healthiest" of the candy...LOL!
On the fitness front....monday...legs, tuesday...chest....today....biceps and abs...tomorrow...back and abs....friday....shoulders....saturday....triceps....
Sunday i have my girlfriend's 35th birthday brunch/lunch....eating is going to be tough that day too! I can't wait until im back with Tony so that i can be more focused and strict again...he is going to be so surprised when i tell him that i want to compete....im sure he will be able to get me where i need to be! I just hope i can do it....i look at all of these girls who compete and if they can do it i can too....i think im just scared of getting out there in front of strangers in a bikini!!! That is what is freaking me out....you have to remember....i wont even wear a bathing suit without shorts..EVER....and years ago, even when i was thinner, i would wear either shorts or a shirt over my bathing suit....and im going to the extreme of wearing one IN HEELS on STAGE!!! The dieting and the workouts i can handle....the fear of the show is what i cant believe im considering! AHHH!!! But i want to do this....i need to do this....for me! I cant wait to pick a show to do!!
On the wedding front....i have my fitting on the 6th and a cake tasting on the 8th. Im waiting for my proofs to come back for my invitations so they can be ordered.
Angelica's birthday is Friday...she is going to be 9 years old! God, time flies so fast! I have been with her since her 3rd birthday...and even though im only a step-parent, when i look back at pictures of her and see how much she has grown, i get those "she is getting so big" thoughts of sadness and how wonderful she is. When i think like that, it makes me want a baby....but then im around other peoples kids and i dont anymore...LOL! Instant birth control!!!! And besides being a step mom im also a wonderful mommy to my doggie and cat....and they love ya no matter what...and dont answer you back! LOL!
3 comments:
Happy Halloween!!!
Not to sound like I'm telling you your business, but it might be worth you switching Back and Bicep days around, incase any Bicep Fatigue affects Back training.
Not trying to stick my nose in :-).
As ever, I think you are doing amazingly well, I feel so much happiness and prie for you. Your step daughter, has a wonderful rolemodel in you, and she will one day be as proud of you as you should be of her, and by then you'll have no doubt done a show, placed, and be a proper athlete, and I believe you are capable of those things.
GOOF LUCK and WELL DONE for everything you have done, and will do. You are a true shining star, and I hope you never feel less of yourself than you deserve to, as that would be the only thing you've ever done wrong since day one.
:-) :-).
Matt
Yay! You are going to compete!!! WooHoo!
=)
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