Thank you everyone for all your support. You are all great friends...i know this whole crazy ride is mental and i was just telling April that i am trying to get my head on straight. I am realizing that when you eat totally clean you really do feel better emotionally and it pushes you harder and makes you more confident. So i have been emailing Tony back and forth and we are going to get a "coaching call" in this week sometime....but i already feel better just knowing that he understands and that i am back on track with my eating. I really do feel 100% better when i eat right.....eating crap makes you feel like crap...plain and simple :)
I really don't think it is a matter of having stuff in the house....that doesn't bother me...i wont touch it...its going out....that is what is hard....parties and holidays and just going out to dinner....the only place i can go out to dinner is Applebees i think...tilapia and broccoli....other than that.....everywhere you go, is going to be dangerous. Even going to my mom's for dinner....they don't understand what i am doing, never will, and they think eating 100 calorie cupcakes are ok(wellthey are yummy....but still...LOL) you get my point.
I had legs yesterday morning and then when i got home from work i did another 45 minutes on my lovely new treadmill.....
I had chest this morning and my heaviest is still only 85 pounds....i really want to try and up it next time...even if it is by 5 pounds.....
it is so weird how you can feel so horrible one day and on top of the world the next day....emotions are a funny thing....and i guess that is why you blog...so that you can look back and think about what a crazy person you were at a certain time...LOL!
I am going to stay strong and try my best to eat clean....there is only one way that I (or any of us) are going to succeed....and its got to be all in your mind....Tony is trying to teach me that and it is really hard.....but i know i will get there slowly but surely....
thanks again :)
3 comments:
:) I agree it is mental, and the clean eating if you can get through enough days of it helps clean up the head too. Sugar laden foods are meant to make you crave more sugar laden foods...that's why they put sugar into all processed foods, so they can control you and get you to eat more!!
And those 100 calorie cakes are just plain evil...talk about setting cravings in motion!!
I'm so proud of you!! I'm getting on that treadmill right now, cause I want to be like you!!
Take care and best wishes :-) :-).
Matt
yes it is girlfriend. trust me, it is ALL in the mind. in the beginning i would tell tony, "if i just can eat more starchy carbs then i will be more disciplined" he said, "No you WILL not,, You will just be eating the bad carbs WITH the junk cheats" he was sooo right. he would say okay here and give me fruit and pasta, yams and guesss what,,i would still sneak in a cheat. tony told me i was still on point because my cheats were still small. BUT once he started gettin into my head with his mind-conditioning,,i found that i didn't need certain carbs or cheat foods to make me feel good. that was the LIE of the mind. i haven't seen a bad carb in i don't know how long. want one? NO I DO NOT! i feel invincible and tony got me there. he will get you there too. keep up the healthy thinking :)
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