I have to post again just so i dont see those pics when i log on...i dont like them and i have such a long way to go. I will do this, this is my goal...but just looking at those pics, i know how far i still have to go.
I miss my motivational MS. APRIL!!!!! Come home!!!!!! She is my sanity through this...and yes, April, something must be done about setting up wake up calls for me in the morning! I cant get my fat ass out of bed!!!!! So you have to start calling me!!!! LOL!
I went to my mom's last night for dinner. I haven't been there for dinner in forever! But she was making turkey and i could eat that, so me and adam went there for a bit. My sis and her hubby and the baby were there too so it was nice. But i didn't get my cardio in....i suck! And then i wonder why i look the way i do!
Why do i always feel so guilty about things? One of the girls at work is having a happy hour at her house tonight...and i dont want to go but i feel bad not going. First off, i think only the attorneys are going, secondly, i cant eat or drink ANYTHING there and thirdly, i wont get home until probably close to 8 and i wont get to eat or do my cardio....i know im more important than going there tonight but why do i fell bad? I need to stop, i know it, but i hate this feeling of letting people down or disappointing them....it is such a bad quality that i have...always worrying what people are going to think or say...Tina, i know you are with me on this!!!
I just hate this! I know what i have to do, but i feel bad not going! I suck, i know! But i have to come first, and do what i want to do....
Anyway....i have 5 more weeks added for my comp date and i am going to be ready! This extra time will hopefully help me get where i need to be!
It's on baby!!!
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LMAO!!! I was reading and thinking you sound like me...and then I read the little call out:) My DH thinks you are me too, he checks in on you sometimes...he so wants to see you get to that stage...it's like seeing me get there. He'll say did you see Angela's post, she sounds like she's in the groove :)
I'm not going to even begin to offer advice...except that I've been telling myself...if you can't think anything nice about yourself Tina, if overanalyzing (as Tony would call it) is causing you have that guilty feeling...then damn it don't think...so far it's working!! Sometimes it takes me a while to realize I'm doing it again, but I'm getting quicker at it!! Time to get pissed off at our minds and shut them up!! Oh it is on is right, you have a few more weeks...let them count like they never did before, get fire in your step...put your cardio ahead of everything, you deserve these few weeks to put you first...and in the end you won't be sorry!!
Okay, I'm going to be blunt, so shoot me down if you like.
You DO NOT suck.
You DO NOT have a Fat Ass.
Many people who have Fat Asses, probably kepe their heads up there, to hide their eyes from the truth, about how badly they look.
You look fantastic, and no not hyanging wiht people is not bad, what would be bad is to do things like that, spoil prep and live with regrets.
Oh heck I came sixth, wonder if I could have come fourth or better?
You need to STOP beating yourself all the time. I don't know what it will take before someone says something like this to remind of you what a radiant, beautiful, amazing married women you are, before you trust yourself to believe it even a little bit.
Adam is such a lucky guy to have you in his life, and so is Angelica. A lucky little lady, to have you there, being a positive rolemodel, and showing her what it means to be a young beautiful women, but without the strength to believe and trust in yourself, she may not find enough of it for herself, to be as confident an adult as she could be.
You are a wonderful rolemodel, but you can do more to be more confident in yourself, and love yourself.
There's other women would kill for you face and body, and that's a fact, so STOP putting yourself down, and STOP using any little thing to beat yourself down with, because it is jeopardising your chances of doing well at the contest.
You need to give yourself some affirmation, and you need to compare the pics you were posting last year to those you posted recently, and see the difference.
You need to tell yourself things like
I AM BEAUTIFUL
I AM SUCCESSFUL
I CAN DO WELL AT THIS CONTEST
I AM A COMPLETE AND DESIRABLE MARRIED WOMEN
I HAVE ACHIEVED SPEICAL THINGS WITH MY BODY.
I AM A ROLEMODEL OT OTHERS.
You NEED to affirm others beliefs in you onto yourself, and you need to do it A.S.A.P, because you have worked hard for the way you look, and you have a face that could light the darkest skies, and you have so many wonderful qualities, Adam so clearly thinks are everything he could want, and you should NEVER be beting yourself, for all the hard work, and the way you look, you're not anything you say you are.
So STOP being so negative, STOP being hard on yourself for things, and give yourself some more loving, and TLC, you HAVE earned it 1,000% okay.
:-) :-).
Matt
Girl, you sound like me too. I am consistently second myself and then saying to self, You are so gonna bring it :). You just have to keep doing what needs to be done and eventually you will be stepping on that stage. Unfortunately some bodies cooperate better then others and well that damn a** seems to be the last to cooperate, lol. I am stressing as well but have a bit more time then you. Good luck with your workouts and diet and continue to bring it. :)
I second the brit-guy here!!! :-) Do not be negative. Believe in yourself, have confidence and you will have all your dreams come true. Listen to T! He knows what's the best. Do NOT listen to any other advisors. There are plenty of "dreamkillers" out there who just love to subotage you... Stick to your guns, so to speak! In 5 more weeks - you gonna smoke that stage!!! ;-)
Stay STRONG!! Hard work DOES pay off BIG time!
XO
M.
I was just thinking about you!! You should change the title to your blog, something sassy to fit your new sassy attitude ;) Also cause you ain't no work in progress...hell no...you are the bomb :)
I'm back so you better get to steppin woman!! :)
Name the time and i'll get yo butt outta bed!
I feel the same way, too. I am always trying to please everyone else and do what i think others expect from me. It's very draining. Bottom line is you are the important one and you need to do what is right for you.
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