well today was the show that i was supposed to compete in....i went to see prejudging because i never saw a show in person..i wanted to see what it was all about. And it really opened my eyes! I dont want to be negative or anything, but there is not a shot in hell that i am going to be ready in 42 days!!! You can see every little jiggle and wiggle from the audience....and im not getting on that stage not ready! and it is gong to take time...a lot of time....
So we will see what happens....a part of me wants to compete and another part of me just wants to be happy and fit and feel good about how i look...and eat bad every once in a while and not feel so god damn guilty about eating a cookie!
I have some thinking to do......get my thoughts together and decide what i want to do!
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It is a hard decision to make. I know it can be crazy trying to make sense of it all. You'll make the right decision, you're a smart girl. And, there are tons of shows. If it isn't this one may it's another, later. Good luck!
One thing you have to think about is, if you don't have that one shot, after all the hard work, irrespective of the outcome, can you live with the feelings of "what if", several years from now?
You must do what you think is best, but to throw a good opportunity away, would potentially be a bugbear for the future.
You are already doing a lot to be proud of, and that is so important.
:-) :-).
Matt
Take it one day at a time! Make mini goals, 1 day, 1 week, 1 month. Then you'll make it to the the BIG goal of your comp.
I know what you mean. I had those thoughts for two years before I finally did it. Maybe take some time and not stress ove rit, then when you are ready, hit it hard.
:) Lot's of good advice you all!! I'll ditto all that was said before me, and don't stop shooting toward those shoulder caps...cause they look mighty fine :)
I think it's great that you went to the prejudging to see what it was all about and what would be expected of you so you are not flying blindfolded, so to speak.
I can imagine this is a tough decision but I'm sure you'll come to the right one for you.
oh angela I can soooo relate to what you are saying, I am no longer using a trainer I find when I just eat clean and cheat 1 x a week and get my workouts in I do better because I am consistent and don't binge and for that I am happier in the end. I have always wanted to compete but I think I like being consistent and having long term goals more ??? but I struggle with what you are saying all the time. I lost 45 pounds on my own 31/2 years ago and since being on my own again ( and of course utilizing the tons of great info I have gotten from some amazing trainers) I have again since march dropped 13 pounds.
never give up but be good to yourself as well
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