Yeah, ummmm....if this isn't enough to get your ass on the treadmill, then i dont know what is going to do it...LOL!
So anyway....im kind of in a weird place right now....its not a depression at all...its a "i have my period, let me feel sorry for myself place...I dont like it. I just want to curl up in my cozy pjs and lay on the couch....but then, I wont ever get to look like the pic above! (not that i ever had a chance at that anyway)
I had to take a jeans challenge pic for tracker last night, so i threw on my jeans from the competition....they were size 2s and they were loose....not so much anymore! They buttoned, but it was bad! I need to step it up. There is no feeling sorry for myself...there is no taking it easy....that is how i got to how i looked before!
I dont like the fact that the pants that i have on now are tight and that the muffin top is sticking out on top of them...I dont like the fact that i feel self conscious about it and i keep tugging at my shirt to make sure it is covering my ass. This is not how a figure competitor acts (well not that i am a full fledged competitior...i just did my first show) but i need to call myself one...if just for my sake ;)
My mindset has to change. I gave in to every morsel of food..and probably went above and beyond just because i could....i shouldn't have..but i did. I am admitting it...i went a bit overboard...and it lasted too long. Now im paying for it. Its all my fault, i know but something needs to change. And its me. I need to clean up my act. I have the Arnold in 50 days. That is not a long time. I will be in those jeans...i promise :)
So anyway....im kind of in a weird place right now....its not a depression at all...its a "i have my period, let me feel sorry for myself place...I dont like it. I just want to curl up in my cozy pjs and lay on the couch....but then, I wont ever get to look like the pic above! (not that i ever had a chance at that anyway)
I had to take a jeans challenge pic for tracker last night, so i threw on my jeans from the competition....they were size 2s and they were loose....not so much anymore! They buttoned, but it was bad! I need to step it up. There is no feeling sorry for myself...there is no taking it easy....that is how i got to how i looked before!
I dont like the fact that the pants that i have on now are tight and that the muffin top is sticking out on top of them...I dont like the fact that i feel self conscious about it and i keep tugging at my shirt to make sure it is covering my ass. This is not how a figure competitor acts (well not that i am a full fledged competitior...i just did my first show) but i need to call myself one...if just for my sake ;)
My mindset has to change. I gave in to every morsel of food..and probably went above and beyond just because i could....i shouldn't have..but i did. I am admitting it...i went a bit overboard...and it lasted too long. Now im paying for it. Its all my fault, i know but something needs to change. And its me. I need to clean up my act. I have the Arnold in 50 days. That is not a long time. I will be in those jeans...i promise :)
7 comments:
I know you'll be fine. No worries, chin up and best wishes.
:-) :-).
Matt
Good attitude :) You will do great! I think the PMS bug is going around, just got over my self pitty want to eat chocolate. I look at pics like the one you have all the time as motivation.
I really think this happens after everyone's "first" show. You realize how intense the dieting is and you're almost scared to start it again, but it's easier the next times you do it. Last year was difficult for me because I gained 30lbs after my "first" figure show, just dont make MY mistake!!! This year, being my 3rd competitive year--will be a lot better because I've stayed somewhat in shape after my show. You'll be fine girl. Just keep focusing on THE DAY. Make each day perfect, don't worry about tomorrow because it doesn't matter yet!
You ARE a figure competitor and you CAN look like that! Stay positive Angela, you have so much in you don't let stupid TOM get you down. That being said, curl up and be cozy and be in the moment, but remember how strong you are!!
I've got it, too: the muffin top. It happens to the best of us. :) Soon to be gone, I promise.
And yes, you are a figure competitor.
xoxo
Come on girl! You can do it and you will! Yes, you are a competitor and yes you need to think like one.
You can do this, Angela!!! Have faith and BELIEVE in yourself!
Can't wait to meet you this year at the Arnold!
xo
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