So getting back on to this week. Yesterday i got up and did 30 min of emc and then hit the gym for legs...ripped them up! And then afterwork i decided...hey..i didn't do enough damage to them...lets do spin class!! So by the time i got home i was aching! And starving...and i had to still go to BJs to get my food in for the week...so i ran there...and to the supermarket for my flank steak and by the time i got home it was almost 8:00 and i had to cook and eat then i got a bath to soak my legs and i hit the bed...
today was shoulders...and i have been trying to really hit them hard...i want that shoulder definition so bad!! almost as much as i want that arm vein ;) And i love doing certain movements and seeing the shoulder muscle pop! God that makes me so happy :)
So really the only issue that i have...and that i think a lot of us have...is food. I just have these times where i just want something...and it takes over all my thoughts! like today..i wanted something...i wanted popcorn...and i was analyzing it over in my head....should i have it or shouldn't i? Will it really hurt me? Im already a big fat mess...what is popcorn really going to do? So the devil on my shoulder won....it shouldn't have..but i had some popcorn...it could have been worse...it could have been raisinetts :)
I am not going to make myself crazy because seriously...the popcorn was the least of my problems...
I honestly dont think that i am going to do philly in june...its too close and i still have a lot of work to do. There are plenty of shows in the next few months....im going to gear brain towards them instead.
I have work to do...and i need to stay on the right track. I want to do this....i just have to teach my brain that food is the only thing that is stopping me from getting where i want to be...and i dont want to let food stop me from my dream of getting back on that stage :)
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On another note....Bradley Cooper and Robert DeNero are filming a movie in philly and today they were filming across the street from me :) And i got to see Bradley Cooper leaving the set in his car! o cool!!! It is supposed to be NY and they changed all the street signs in Center City to have NY street names...it is apparently much cheaper to film in philly than in NY
alright...time for bed!
4 comments:
Glad to hear I am not the only one that has FOOD as my biggest obstacle!! I try to tell myself, food is just food, it will always be there, I don't need to obsess about it. But, as soon as I get on a comp diet,or even think about one, I freak out and panic! Like all the yummy treats in the world are going to vanish and I'll never get to have them again!! LOL!! So silly! Hang in there! You are not alone! You will reach your goals!! (I'm trying to tell myself that too! ha!)
All you can do is try your best.
Good luck.
:-) :-).
Matt
Very cool with the Bradley Cooper thing!! And yes, I am the same way with the workouts on the weekends vs. during the week. Hang in there girl, you know what you need to do! :)
That was cute when you said that food was stopping you. ... food can't stop you. :) It's not that powerful.
I know what you mean about the popcorn. My son was eating a bag of microwave popcorn the other night and I went through the whole dialogue in my head.. but luckily I was aware that I was in the process of trying to trick myself into beleiving that it was ok to have some... afterall it is a whole grain right? I actually said that to myself. lol
Good luck with whatever show you choose!
~C.
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