I think i want to buy a spin bike...i have a regular seat bike but it sucks ass....i was looking at amazon today...i could get a "decent" one for about 250...they are a lot more fun than a regular bike..i think anyway ;) I have been doing my morning warmup at the gym on the spin bike...and classes too. I haven't gone to spin class this week..i was actually going to go today but then adam told me that his friend John and John's brother in law are coming over to give us an estimate tonight for our bathroom and kitchen :) So that went out the window...the treadmill it is!
i was watching Losing it with Jillian last night....i cried at so many points during the damn show...one thing that stood out was the one young girl was really big and had got gastric bypass a while ago...she was thin now but she still saw herself as being fat...and anytime anyone gave her a compliment she followed it up with herself making a negative comment...which i can sooo relate to! No matter what...i always find the negative. Jillian was trying to tell her to let go of the fat girl...and then Jillian said something along the lines of you have seen yourself as a failure for so long...how about you try and aim high for once? The most that can happen is you fall...but give yourself the chance to succeed!!!! And that struck a cord with me....i always tell myself i cant...which in other words means you wont.....and its getting old....so im going to aim high...and dig deep and see what i am capable of...who knows how good it can be if i dont try, right? I could be amazing...but i will never know if i dont try....lets see what happens if i eliminate "CANT" from my vocabulary.
Someone is preparing to get on stage on the same date as me.....they have their calendar marked with the same date as me.....and they are doing what they have to do to win...they are getting up in the morning and doing their cardio.....and im still sleeping.....i need to wake the hell up!
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Angela - I've recently begun reading your blog and the thing that really stands out is that you are super hard on yourself and talking negatively about yourself.
Perhaps if you were kinder to yourself, you would feel better and more motivated. Give yourself permission to have a period of no cardio, cheats, etc. And then, perhaps you will find the joy in training/prep again.
Or maybe not. But just thought you might want to hear from a fresh set of eyes.
Best wishes!!
No one can advocatw for you like YOU yourself can. Yes, there is always someone out there faster, stronger, smarter, but there is only one YOU and you are the best YOU there is! Take the time to pat yourself on the back and rejoice in all of your accomplishments.
Ang, question for you - can you do your cardio later in the day? I have a REALLY hard time with a.m. training (well, DH does - he says I'm a zombie all night and he hates that), so I no longer do it unless I absolutely have to.
So, rather than continually beat yourself up (STOP IT) for not getting up early, why not set the stage for success by scheduling it at a time that you CAN do?
Just my .02!
GO!!!GO!!!GO!!ANGELA!
I understand about compliments and negative replies. I used to do that until someone pointed it out to me.
If someone told me I looked good or whatever, I would always follow it up with a "yeah but, my thighs are so fat" blah, blah, blah.
And then I was told..."can't you just say THANK YOU and keep the negative thoughts to yourself?". So that is what I do now.
xoxo
Was it you who sent me that poem about competitors last year as I prepared for my first show? Something about- they have the same date on their calendars, they are waking up and doing cardio...
I HUNG IT ON MY FRIDGE AND I DID IT!! DO IS SISTA I BELIEVE IN YOU!
Love that photo of Ava.. is it totally dorky & weird that I have it taped to the wall :p
You are the first person I'm checking on on my first log on the computer in weeks :) I guess because I've always related to your struggles from the very beginning. I love the truth in your posts :) And I'm searching for a show to do this year... I haven't decided what I want to do, but like you I want some time so I don't feel like I'm never going to be ready. Kentucky Muscle this year just might have to be the show... gives me time if I decide now to save so I can have enough money to do it... my life is finally settling down enough that I can be focused... Who's all doing it ? I won't say I am until I am and no backing out... I'll take the time off now so there is no backing out. Too bad we can't get Stacey to jump back on... we could have Muscle in the City two... that was my favorite show of all, the prep, everything :)
You do know you RAWK right?
We all need to wake up, time goes fast but you know you had something that really got you going with a burning desire to do better.....
Now take that fire and burn!
I can't wait to hear how your future goes.
Ps...I missed the show darn it.
We are all a work in progress ;-)
That is a key point though. If you won't let yourself feel positive about things, you'll always keep stuttering, befcause you'll never give yourself a good chance to try and be more.
:-) :-).
Matt
Eating crap makes you feel like crap so quit eating it. You know what you have to do in order to get where you want. I'm going to smack you the next time I see you.
I'm totally in for doing KY Muscle again!
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