Well i figured that since i have been inspired by her...lets do another :) I may keep up this trend ;)
Well I think that finally my mind is getting back to where it should be! I have been feeling really good recently and i hope to keep it up! I have no cravings and im starting to get that tunnel vision which is so needed while trying to do this.
Lets see....monday was legs...and then after work i went and did spin class....came home, made dinner and then later did some abs :)
Yesterday I was off work. Me and Adam both took off...we made dentist appointments and dermatology appointments...so this was how my day went yesterday:
7:40-woke up
8:15 gym-worked shoulders
9:40-came home made breakfast
11:00-12:30-dermatology appointments***
***Im going off for a second....my dermatology appointment was a little troubling....i apparently have a mole on my back that is "iffy" meaning that its a sun damage mole but she told me not to get too worried about it yet. I has the "possibility" of it becoming something but to just keep an eye on it like once a month to see if there are any changes, etc....if there are, then i have to see her sooner, if not, then in 1 year. It freaked me out a little bit....she asked if i tanned...i responded yes....1-2 times a week....she told me to stop....immediately and to not go back...and use sunscreen....which is what you are supposed to do...but me, i think im invincible all the time....and now look? So im done....i will use self tan creams just if i feel i need color. I dont know if a lot of you tan but this has freaked me out enough to not do it ever again....
ok....
12:30-came home ate again....
1:30-went to bank
2:00 dentist--found a cavity....blech....i have to go back at the end of june....
3:30-ate again
4:30-hour of cardio
6:00ish--made dinner, ate and then took a walk to my sisters to see my nephew.
9:00-came home from sisters
10:00 bed
so that was yesterday....but my eating was good and i had no cravings..which is a plus!
Today i actually got my ass out of bed and did some early morning cardio...which by the way, i must add, that TV sucks in the morning...its all infomercials! LOL! So i had to put my Gina Aliotti video on and watched her train legs :)
Then I hit the gym for my back workout....i also did another 10 min on the stepper...our gym has 3 steppers...i think 2 of them are broke...i keep forgetting which one is really broke and i keep getting on it...jackass!
So im pretty caught up now...oh yeah, and then monday night when i was doing some abs....i was doing side crunches....and i just glanced at my side and my hip/side is so little! I was like Damn! i could be seriously tiny...which is what i should be...minus all the flub....you have to remember the fact that im only 5" tall! I should be that small....and my hips prove it :) LOL! I showed adam...i said...see! this is how thin i should be! He agreed :)
And i have put in my head that i will not stray off my diet until my birthday...June 21st....which is only 12 days away, by the way....but i will have a little treat on that day...i will be good all day...maybe even have a decent dinner..but then have a piece of birthday cake :) You dont think my trainer will mind do you??? LOL!!!
****now onto something that is only partly fitness related*****
My friends....we made "plans" a few weeks before Sex & the city 2 came out that we were all going to see it together....fine....well then sunday morning i get an email from my one friend and says "i know its last minute but a few of us are going to go to the movies to see SITC2 at 4:00 today..can you go?" I was pissed...1) because not everyone was involved and 2) i had a graduation party at 2:00! So i had to respond no...and then it was "well i can go see it with you again if you want"...but at that point i was like "no way" that wasn't the way it was supposed to be...so basically FU* Im not going at all with any of them....
I was telling Adam and he was like i could have told you that you wouldn't be going with them as soon as you told me.....i knew they would diss you and go without you....
It is so hard..because we have been friends for so long but to be honest with you, we really have nothing in common anymore....the group i stayed with are all still single, except 1, who just had a baby but really acts as though she isn't married or has a baby....but for the most part, their lives consist of going out to bars or restaurants or just drink and do whatever....i am not into all that anymore.....
Being in this "fitness world" so to speak, i am closer with girls that live miles from me and i talk to them more than my friends here....April is a prime example....i talk to her more than ANYONE...yes it may be through emails and whatever, but she knows more about my life day in and day out than anyone...probably more than my husband and my family! But i consider her a very good friend :) And a lot of the girls on here that i have come to know so well and we all have the same goals and we understand when we dont want to get on the treadmill...or if something goes wrong at work and we want to eat something we shouldn't....we get that....others who aren't in this bubble dont get it...and they think we are crazy...which is fine..but its still a little sad that i still get made fun of for wanting to do this...i actually got this today in an email "your actually still doing that crap?" But then i got an LOL and good for you..but i know deep down they dont understand and they think im crazy....
sorry...im rambling....but Becca's post made me realize that im so glad that i have you all and that you understand my craziness and accept my craziness :) It feels good just knowing that im not alone and i have support out there..no matter where you may live :) Thanks :)
6 comments:
If we're going by hip size I should be a hippo ;)
Yay, I love my midget friend!!
Fellow midge here, tho I'm 4'11.5" :) Happy early Birthday!
I have come to know that any time I make a date with "friends" to always have a back up plan...sad..but true.
I never use Sunbeds at all. The risk apparently from just one use, of elevated skin cancer is around 50-75% and that is a first time use, not a 2-3 times a week for 10 years kind of use :-o.
I don't use the Sauna either. I've never used a Sauna in my life. I told someone recently I won't use the Sauna, because the mens one in the changing rooms, has too many contraindications on the poster at the side.
Don't use this Sauna if you've been drinking Alcohol, (which I don't). Don't use this Sauna within 30 minutes of a big meal or something like that. Don't use it if you're on meds, have heart disease, have Kidney Stones etc etc.
It's got about 12-15 dont's on it. My problem is how can it be that good to do, if it's got a slew of things on the side that tell you not to use it because....
:-o :-o :-o.
Your so-called friends who don't understand you that much these days, or like to be people that maybe they can no longer be, will almost inevitably become the chaff from the wheat, because they will just add problems to your life you neither need nor deserve.
If not having them around betters your personal circumstances, it serves as a good thing, to start creating that distance between you and them.
Those that understand you are the true people in your life, because they will accept you for who you are now, not who you were 10-15 years ago. They will give you the confidence to be the person you are now, by being tuned into you and the way that you feel and want to live.
All you have done in the past few years is make positive changes. Those that can't or won't see it, may inevitably suffer for those misgivings, because if their lives were similar to yours, they wouldn't respond how they do. They'd understand.
If their lifestyles caught up with them in 25-30 years, it wouldn't be any size of burden for you to shoulder. You're nobodies moral guardian, you're just doing what you feel is right for you and it definitely IS right for you.
You DESERVE the good things in your life now and the positive feelings they can bring to you, so just keep concentrating on your own wants and those of the immediate people around you. That's a major part of your life now and a very, very good part.
Others like me will always care about and accept you for who you are. I don't care about what things you may have done in the past, that were negative for you, because who you are now is the person that matters more, than someone that had a few lifestyle issues 10 years ago and you deserve praise, acceptance and recognition for what you have done in recent years, not critique for what you may have done a long time back.
Anything you do to better your life, has and always will get my fullest support and acceptance, so don't let detractors be an influence on you. You have many positive people and things in your life, to help make you more of the person you have a right and deserve to be.
GOOD LUCK and don't ever stop believing in yourself. You may not realise or perhaps recognise it, but you are a good athlete, a winner and a Lady of superb character and quality. In my eyes and mind those are sterling qualities, so why be anything else for anyone else?
Take care and best wishes.
:-) :-).
Matt
I'm another member of the Shorties club! 5'2" on a good day. :)
Sorry to hear your friends aren't supportive or understanding of your chosen lifestyle. Sadly, some people will never accept your choices.
I've met so many amazing women online who have the same goals and lifestyle as I do. And it's wonderful to know that whenever I go to a show, there's always the possibility of meeting my online friends in person!
Stick to your goals and keep doing your thang! The most important thing is to make yourself happy and to live life for you and your family. We're all here online to support you and cheer for you! :)
btw - I have complete faith in you that you'll stick to your goal of eating clean until your birthday. ;)
I finally bit the bullet and decided to hire a nutritionist. I got tired of questioning everything I do and wondering if I'm doing it all right. Since I struggle so much which diet I had to do something. I feel like a weight has been lifted. Now I finally have a professional to turn to with all my questions.
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