getting there

Morning workouts rock! You have no idea how much i love getting up in the morning and going to the gym.....never in a million years would i have ever thought i would be saying those words(lol) but seriously, being able to walk in there and being able to get on any machine that i need without waiting is such a pleasure! It actuallly makes me happy...which is crazy. Anywho, had a great leg workout this morning. But whenever im done, i always feel like i could have done more or gone heavier. When im doing the exercise im pushing myself and it feels like i cant go any heavier, but after all is done and im showered and dressed, i think to myself, I could have gone heavier.....well there is next time i guess .

I went down to AC for the day on saturday after the gym. Angelica has never been there and it was so nice out so we took a ride down. We walked around and the boardwalk was packed! I guess everyone had the same idea. i was trying to stay on schedule with my eating and i knew that i would be out so i took a protien bar with me and ate that around 4 but then dinner was comming up. Adam has been really trying to help me and we were trying to figure out where we could eat dinner. Well we went to one place in Margate, NJ (which is right outside of AC) and we went in there and sat down and there was not one thing on that menu that i could have eaten. So Adam asked if i wanted to go and i said yeah, but we had already were seated and got drinks. So i used the great excuse that my daughter was sick and we had to go! So finally we found a little italian place that i was able to get grilled chicken and veggies. So i was a good girl. Oh the best was the bread basket that they put out. I was going to die. there was little garlic bread twisty things in there, they looked SOOOO GOOD! but i stayed strong and moved it away from me.

Oh and then yesterday, i had that brunch with my sister and my cousins. It was really nice. I had an egg white omlette with shrimp and a little bit of cheese. I forgot to tell them not to put the potatos on the plate, but i didnt eat any of them. So im starting to get this eating thing under control finally.

I feel so much better when i eat clean. and ya know what the best part is? Putting on something to wear to go out and its loose and you dont feel like a big fat uncomfortable sausage in your clothes....I was half dressed, i had on my pants and a tank top(i didnt put on my sweater yet) doing my hair and adam came up and i showed him how my pants were loose and how i usually have to keep the tank top out over my pants, but i was able to tuck it in...i was all smiley...and he knows what a bitch i am when i have to go out somewhere cause nothing fits and i get in a bad mood...so he says laughing "dont think your all cool now cause your pants fit" i said im not cool, just happy :) And I am.....