I cant believe that its over a week since i posted. Well last Thursday (10th) i got sent home from work. I apparently had hand, foot and mouth disease that i contacted somehow, who knows! it is something that usually only children get....well i got it! No kids that i knew had it, so it had to be from the dirty gym or the dirty subway! So i was stuck in the house from Thursday. I missed my neice's christening. Thank god i wasn't the godmother! Today was my first day back at work and the gym. Im glad to be out...i was starting to go crazy in the house! The dog was happy i was home with him all day, but that is about it.
So now im back and i went food shopping last night....$186.00 later and i probably still need more! The prices for everything have gone up so much! Its really getting bad!
Like i said above, today was my first day back to working out, so i lost an entire week....again....
I finally finished paying off my two piece suit too! I still have my one piece but i may just hold off a bit on it, since my fat ass isn't getting on stage anytime soon!
We are trying to put together some vacation plans to take angelica to the shore for a few days...which we are finding out is a really big expense...besides the rooms being almost 200.00 a night, that is without food or rides or waterparks, etc....so i dont know what we are going to do....we may just do some day trips instead.
Im just a little upset with myself. Or shall i say, not happy with me. From being sick and all, my eating has not been good...plus the no working out....double whammy! Not that i have gained anything...but i just cant get a grip on my eating habits. I just want to eat and say fuck it sometimes. And then i remember what i want, and then get sad that i think im never going to get there. Tony wanted pics on saturday..well that wasn't happening..and i still owe them....i dont want to take any pics of me. I am paying all this money for a trainer and im not listening to him. what is wrong with me????
I need to get my head on straight!
4 comments:
Yesterday was yesterday, Today is today, tomorrow is tomorrow...what you gonna do right now, what do you want right now, what do you really, really want, right now...what do you need to help you get there!! If you really want this then dig deep inside for the strength to get you what you want, and if you need help, reach out! Talk to Tony about it, I bet he can help you figure out what is going on inside, reach out to him!
It's hard. Keep the visual of your goal. Don't let that out of your head. When you do cardio picture yourself walking across the stage proud to be there. You can do it and I can't wait to see you do it.
I'm glad I only have to worry about one suit. I don't know why they want a one piece sometimes. You cant even see abs.
Hang in there! Focus on today and your goals. Its right there for the taking. Make a commitment to yourself to follow your dreams. Food is what it is. Make it be your fuel.
You were ill, it happens sometimes, get over it and move on. There's nothing wrong that more time and patience can't fix.
GOOD LUCK.
:-) :-).
Matt
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