monday

I think i need to make weekly goals for myself to keep me straight :)

Yesterday i had a little meltdown and started crying for no reason. I think it was because i was in the house cleaning and cooking all day....but didn't feel like i was accomplishing anything. Then my mom told me that she was going over my sister's house to make homemade pasta and they were all eating over there for dinner. I was just feeling sorry for myself for not being able to be "normal" and eat what they were eating. They said "well just bring your food over" which is what i normally do, but for some reason yesterday i just knew i couldn't be around it...so i stayed home..ate my fish, string beans and salad and then did my hour of cardio like a good little girl ;)

That is what needs to be done....i need to stay strong!

I emailed Tony my pics yesterday....he is going to call me this week....should i be afraid???? LOL! I kinda am.....i only have 11 weeks to go and i really need to start seeing some major changes or i will never be ready.....i hope he thinks that i can do it....i dont want another let down...

ok, so my goals for the week:

1) 1-2 gallons of water a day
2) at least an hour of cardio a day
3) weigh in on Saturday---112.5 at least :)
4) get my ass out of bed at least 3 times for EMC
5) take pics on saturday


I think thats it...i really want to try and take weekly pics, just to see if i can see any changes....not to necessarily post but just to have.

I had shoulders this morning....i love seeing the little cuts in my arms as im doing shoulders...too bad they go away when im done....LOL!

I just ordered more protein powder....chocolate peanut butter...one of my favs!

Thats all i got for now ;)