Tuesday, August 19, 2008

tuesday

Well i had legs this morning! I almost killed myself with the smith machine doing narrow squats. I think im all strong and try to push myself....had it up to 205lbs and i got to 4 and my back curled and i thought i was going to break something...so i panicked for a second and then just turned the bar to lock it and get off...I think i really could have hurt myself, but i didn't...I hope im not too sore tomorrow! I need to lower my weights back down for a bit....i dont know who i think i am...LOL!

I really want to start leaning out...im hoping to continue to see changes in myself over the next couple of weeks....because if i dont, i dont have a prayer in november! I was looking at one of the blogs i read Noel from Leanbodies...she has been at it a while i know, but her pics are 14 weeks out and she looks like she can step on stage tomorrow!!! Then i feel like a joke thinking that i can compete. Seeing that and then looking at me! Kinda gets me down...but im not going to let it. I know that i am probably just going to come in skinny for my first show.....i just want to get there!

I emailed Stacy and told her that i was doing the show in November and she said that we will be able to get together in October for posing. She is doing the Atlantic City Pro and the Olympia in September...so she will be free in October. Im hoping to get to go and see her in AC! That will be cool!

7 comments:

Anonymous said...

The way you look, you have no reason to cry. There are people who are in worse physical situations than your original one, who kill to look like you, and that's a fact.

You just need to keep focusing on you, and your goal, and stop saying I'm going to look this or that, if I don't look more stoked in two weeks, or saying things like I'm going to look skinny.

Just concentrate on your end goal, don't worry about anything, and just keep believing in yourself.

You DO look wonderful, and you're married to someone who thinks so too, and you have come so far, in the past year, you need to start seeing it as the absolute achievement it is. You're picking holes in yourself sometimes.

You've identified a few mistakes in the past, so that's fine, as long as you don't beat yourself up for it badly, just say yeah I did that, I will try not to let it happen again, onwards and upwards.

You should post a picture of you from about a year ago, and see how you compare to now, because you're 2x the woman you used to be last year, in terms of physical accomplishment.

So just keep telling yourself this goal is RIGHT for you, and it will prove something to yourself.

GOOD LUCK, and don't ever call yourself a joke for a moment.

You are a really warm, endearing, capable, and good looking married woman, and you should be VERY, VERY PROUD of yourslf for everything.

Be strong, and keep making every bit of effort count yeah :-) :-).

Matt

Crissy Rae said...

I can see how badly you want this and I think, with all your hard work, you can make it to the show. You're doing a great job and I hope you are proud of your accomplishments. I wish you lots of luck!

Anonymous said...

LOVE your new attitude, girlie! You CAN do this, you WILL do this!! DO NOT COMPARE YOURSELF TO OTHERS. YOU are your OWN person and just as beautiful and with some perseverance, dedication and hard work, YOU WILL LOOK PHENOMENAL!

Hey, and be careful, will ya? That damn leg press machine is dangerous!

Unknown said...

Hope you don't mind me commenting here. I followed the link back from my blog. I just wanted to lend my support to you for this show prep! And I have also learned that you cannont compare yourself to anyone but you. Just put up the best package that you have and be proud of how far you have come. I will be following along :)

Noel...Leanbodies Consulting

Lori said...

It's hard not to compare yourself to others. I do it all the time. I think it keeps me going but also gets me down sometimes too. You'll get there!!!

Tina said...

Just be Angela...we all love you just the way you are! And you will be ready...you might not look like the girl in that picture...that is like a lifetime achievement, oh and we will get there someday...one step at a time!

B said...

stay focused girl, everything you are doing is not just about that one day.