I feel like a broken record.....im now 11 weeks out and not sure im going to make it to the stage...im a blob....now, it may be because i overdid it, yet again, yesterday and the day before.....i need to be clean for the next 11 weeks and even then, i dont know if i will be lean enough....im sad..its my fault, i know, but i am a hog and i have to be around family and friends who dont care about what they eat and look like and that quickly i fall right back into how i used to be. I was so stuffed yesterday, and was in such a food coma, i actually was so tired at 9:30 last night that i couldn't keep my eyes open and had to go up to bed...i was so uncomfortable from not eating like that in so long....and i did cardio and abs yesterday and made sure i had a protien shake before i left so i wouldn't overeat! I probably didn't even eat that much but from what i am used to eating it was a lot! Lets see....
breakfast: oatmeal and coffee (i was out of eggs)
Post workout: shake
Dinner: antipasta, a sliver of lasagna...i mean maybe 3 bites worth...turkey, a spoonful of stuffing, a spoonful of pineapple stuffing, string beans, sweet potato, 2 cressent rolls. Then later i had 2 cookies and coffee...i think thats it....so it really wasn't THAT much, but as i said, what im used to eating it was a lot.....
So needless to say, i didn't make my 113 weigh in on saturday either. I cant even get on a scale, that is how big i feel....
I am not going to sit here and feel sorry for myself like i always do, and to be honest with ya, im tired of hearing myself....this is what it is....do it or dont....that is all there is to it....how bad do you want it? If i want it bad enough, then i will work my ass off for the next 11 weeks to get it....no ifs, ands, or butts! And my butt needs the most work!
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Anyway....saturday was my nephew's birthday.....so eating wasn't so good there either...but im not even going there!
I will post pics from the party tomorrow probably...he is too cute!
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Today was legs at the gym.....yay!
On the leg press.....drumroll please.......315lbs for 6! YAY!!!! that is 3-45lb plates on each side :)
Im proud of myself...LOL! Im sure plenty of you out there do a lot higher than that...but i was happy!
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Tonight i have to go home, do cardio, run to the store for food and then cook, and be ready for Heroes at 9:00....think i can do it?
breakfast: oatmeal and coffee (i was out of eggs)
Post workout: shake
Dinner: antipasta, a sliver of lasagna...i mean maybe 3 bites worth...turkey, a spoonful of stuffing, a spoonful of pineapple stuffing, string beans, sweet potato, 2 cressent rolls. Then later i had 2 cookies and coffee...i think thats it....so it really wasn't THAT much, but as i said, what im used to eating it was a lot.....
So needless to say, i didn't make my 113 weigh in on saturday either. I cant even get on a scale, that is how big i feel....
I am not going to sit here and feel sorry for myself like i always do, and to be honest with ya, im tired of hearing myself....this is what it is....do it or dont....that is all there is to it....how bad do you want it? If i want it bad enough, then i will work my ass off for the next 11 weeks to get it....no ifs, ands, or butts! And my butt needs the most work!
*****
Anyway....saturday was my nephew's birthday.....so eating wasn't so good there either...but im not even going there!
I will post pics from the party tomorrow probably...he is too cute!
*****
Today was legs at the gym.....yay!
On the leg press.....drumroll please.......315lbs for 6! YAY!!!! that is 3-45lb plates on each side :)
Im proud of myself...LOL! Im sure plenty of you out there do a lot higher than that...but i was happy!
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Tonight i have to go home, do cardio, run to the store for food and then cook, and be ready for Heroes at 9:00....think i can do it?
3 comments:
I think we have all been there. I had some bad days where I ate junk during my prep, too. It seems like when you're far enough out, you can easily tell yourself that you have time and can make up for it later, but the truth is, later never seems to come! You're smart and you know what you need to do. DO IT GIRL. You know you can. You remember how you looked and what it took to get there last time, and I think you can surpass that if you really have the desire. I'm rootin' for you!!
Be encouraged! I know exactly where you are coming from as I have been there myself-last week as a matter of fact. :) You will get your mental focus back! You can DO this!
Bottom line is, you know what needs doing, and only you can do it.
You've been in this kind of situation, several times before, and people could come here and tell you a million times not to be hard on yourself, or give you a lot of reasons why you shouldn't be slipping up, but it would still boil down to circumstances, your mindset, development of the 100% right attitude etc etc.
You DO have the right attributes to be what you want to be, and you CAN be that person, so it's potentially all good, providing you can actually implement the countermeasures you know need implementing, to prevent reoccurance of issues previously identified.
GOOD LUCK.
:-) :-).
Matt
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