Well the weekend was a blur again....saturday i had my neice's 1st birthday. Im not going to lie...i didn't eat very well....i had a little cheat...i had some b-day cake....just a few bites...but it killed me!
I wanted more and more and more....which is my problem....i dont know when to stop....but i did....but i could have eaten the whole cake....LOL!
Yesterday was a lazy day for the most part....woke up at 10, made breakfast, me and angelica sat and watched ANTM for a few hours...then Adam came back from his bike ride and they went out for a bit and i finally got off my ass and did my cardio...and a load of clothes...then went to my moms for dinner...i brought mine.....and then over my sister's to help her make easter baskets for my nephew's party on saturday....she is doing the whole easter theme since its the day before easter and she is having the easter bunny there and all...it will be cute but my sister is one of those super organized, wants everything perfect kind of person....so i have to help her out this week.....
and i have to be able to get my cardio in too! This should be interesting!
I dont look 12 weeks out..i dont look 20 weeks out....i look like a blob.....why cant i look like a competitor???? Cause i eat cake, thats why!
Im not going to beat myself up about it.....but those little things need to stop.....
I need to be 100%
*****
On another note......i was talking to one of the girls at work and i was telling her that i have to watch my nephew on friday for a few hours and that i will probably have to change the baby and i was having a heart attack because i never really changed a diaper before and im scared...LOL! So she goes on to say well if it was yours it would be different and you dont know what your missing.....so i make a comment back of, what, lack of sleep and poopy diapers??? that is what im missing? I will take sleep thank you.
Now mind you...i love babies...and sometimes i really want one....but i dont know if its for me....honestly...its hard.....and there is no more "you" only "baby"....and im very lazy....and i like to sleep....and i know that all would end...and i know there are so many more pluses to having a child.....and part of me wants that, but then the selfish me takes over and i feel that im too set in my ways and im going to be 37 years old i would be high risk and so many other things.....plus they grow up and kids are evil....LOL! I still apologize to my parents for what i put them through in my teen years! And i was good compared to what is out there today!!!!!
Anyway..sorry for my rant......she just pissed me off.....like im not worth anything if i dont have a child! Everyone has their own life and problems and issues and girls like that make it seem like its all roses and sunshine.....i know its not.....i love my nephew to death......i want to kiss him and eat him up.....but i also can give him back to mommy when he starts crying :) That is the best part!!!!
I will continue to be a mommy to my doggy! He loves me no matter what...and is lazy like me :)
Ok, im done.....
Back to fitness...I had shoulders at the gym this morning....im going to have to start doubles very soon......ugh!!! Im dreading it....but there is no other way to get it all in....this time is going to fly by!
Im supposed to take pics this weekend.....we shall see!!!!!!!! If they aren't totally disgusting, maybe i will post them! But i know they are going to be bad, so they may have to wait.....
I wanted more and more and more....which is my problem....i dont know when to stop....but i did....but i could have eaten the whole cake....LOL!
Yesterday was a lazy day for the most part....woke up at 10, made breakfast, me and angelica sat and watched ANTM for a few hours...then Adam came back from his bike ride and they went out for a bit and i finally got off my ass and did my cardio...and a load of clothes...then went to my moms for dinner...i brought mine.....and then over my sister's to help her make easter baskets for my nephew's party on saturday....she is doing the whole easter theme since its the day before easter and she is having the easter bunny there and all...it will be cute but my sister is one of those super organized, wants everything perfect kind of person....so i have to help her out this week.....
and i have to be able to get my cardio in too! This should be interesting!
I dont look 12 weeks out..i dont look 20 weeks out....i look like a blob.....why cant i look like a competitor???? Cause i eat cake, thats why!
Im not going to beat myself up about it.....but those little things need to stop.....
I need to be 100%
*****
On another note......i was talking to one of the girls at work and i was telling her that i have to watch my nephew on friday for a few hours and that i will probably have to change the baby and i was having a heart attack because i never really changed a diaper before and im scared...LOL! So she goes on to say well if it was yours it would be different and you dont know what your missing.....so i make a comment back of, what, lack of sleep and poopy diapers??? that is what im missing? I will take sleep thank you.
Now mind you...i love babies...and sometimes i really want one....but i dont know if its for me....honestly...its hard.....and there is no more "you" only "baby"....and im very lazy....and i like to sleep....and i know that all would end...and i know there are so many more pluses to having a child.....and part of me wants that, but then the selfish me takes over and i feel that im too set in my ways and im going to be 37 years old i would be high risk and so many other things.....plus they grow up and kids are evil....LOL! I still apologize to my parents for what i put them through in my teen years! And i was good compared to what is out there today!!!!!
Anyway..sorry for my rant......she just pissed me off.....like im not worth anything if i dont have a child! Everyone has their own life and problems and issues and girls like that make it seem like its all roses and sunshine.....i know its not.....i love my nephew to death......i want to kiss him and eat him up.....but i also can give him back to mommy when he starts crying :) That is the best part!!!!
I will continue to be a mommy to my doggy! He loves me no matter what...and is lazy like me :)
Ok, im done.....
Back to fitness...I had shoulders at the gym this morning....im going to have to start doubles very soon......ugh!!! Im dreading it....but there is no other way to get it all in....this time is going to fly by!
Im supposed to take pics this weekend.....we shall see!!!!!!!! If they aren't totally disgusting, maybe i will post them! But i know they are going to be bad, so they may have to wait.....
1 comment:
I'm sure you'll be brilliant at the comp. The profile pic shows how much you done in the last 18 months, and what a fantastic represenation of a healthy female you have become.
So don't be hard on yourself, as whatever happens, you've done this before, you are an athlete, and you've done so much to be proud of.
Take care and best wishes.
:-) :-).
Matt
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