Well first off, i want to thank everyone for all their replies :) It really means a lot to me! I think it is really cool to have all these different girls from different areas with all the same goals...and it makes me happy to know that im not alone in my feelings and people have the same crazy thoughts as me :)
So today was a little bit better. Well let me go back.....last night i had a really long talk with hubby and it is so wonderful to have someone to back you 100%....so we talked about what i need to do and how i have to get it done and he is going to help me do whatever i need him to do....he is a really great guy...i love him so ;)
He is going to help push me when i need to be pushed and help me do what i need to get done.
He said, if this is what i want to do, then i have to do it, and i have to work hard to get it...there is no easy way around it...and that is so true....if it was so easy, everyone would do it!
Marissa also posted something today that her trainer told her which i thought was great....with your diet, you cant have tastes, and do things that are not 100% and compared it to an alcoholic who is trying to quit drinking....you dont give that person little sips here and there to help them quit...you go cold turkey....it is the same mentality with eating....eat what you have to and that is it....
Which it kind of reminds me of my brother.....not getting too into it personally but my brother has been doing drugs off and on for years now....and he is always saying that he isn't doing anything but yet we all know he did...and that he will stop, and he does ok for a few weeks and then he's not....he makes me sad and also mad that he has to be that way....but in a small way, im the same way....just not in a narcotic way.....i always say im going to be 100% clean(no pun intended) and then i slip and eat something off the diet....and i never see the results i want to see....the only difference between me and him is that he is in denial and im not...LOL! I know that im doing something wrong and he sees nothing wrong with it...but you can also compare that then with a person who gains weight and one day is over 400 pounds and doesn't know how it happened.....yeah you do, you ate crap for a long time and didn't exercise....that is how you got big! No discussion or debate...that is what happend.
The moral of my story(LOL) is that i know why im not seeing the gains that i want to see in myself and it has stopped....there will be no more off plan eating....i will be a good girl for the next 10 (less now) weeks and we shall see what happens.....i know i can do it, and so can everyone else as long as they are willing to put in the effort...that is how it goes right?
Whew...anyway....today was good so far.....i got up at 5:15, did cardio (YAY..>EMC) and then went to the gym and did shoulders! Love doing shoulders :)
At lunch i ran stairs for 15 minutes too! Im on the 23rd floor....so i ran down to 18 and then double stepped with lunges with 5 pulses on each leg back all the way up to the 30th floor and then back down again and then back up to 23...so that was fun! got my heart rate way up!
Tonight will be another 45 min on the treadmill and some abs.
other than that....im doing ok today...i guess competing has its up days and down days......and really down days.....but that is ok, just as long as we all know that we come back up and do what needs to be done, right?
So today was a little bit better. Well let me go back.....last night i had a really long talk with hubby and it is so wonderful to have someone to back you 100%....so we talked about what i need to do and how i have to get it done and he is going to help me do whatever i need him to do....he is a really great guy...i love him so ;)
He is going to help push me when i need to be pushed and help me do what i need to get done.
He said, if this is what i want to do, then i have to do it, and i have to work hard to get it...there is no easy way around it...and that is so true....if it was so easy, everyone would do it!
Marissa also posted something today that her trainer told her which i thought was great....with your diet, you cant have tastes, and do things that are not 100% and compared it to an alcoholic who is trying to quit drinking....you dont give that person little sips here and there to help them quit...you go cold turkey....it is the same mentality with eating....eat what you have to and that is it....
Which it kind of reminds me of my brother.....not getting too into it personally but my brother has been doing drugs off and on for years now....and he is always saying that he isn't doing anything but yet we all know he did...and that he will stop, and he does ok for a few weeks and then he's not....he makes me sad and also mad that he has to be that way....but in a small way, im the same way....just not in a narcotic way.....i always say im going to be 100% clean(no pun intended) and then i slip and eat something off the diet....and i never see the results i want to see....the only difference between me and him is that he is in denial and im not...LOL! I know that im doing something wrong and he sees nothing wrong with it...but you can also compare that then with a person who gains weight and one day is over 400 pounds and doesn't know how it happened.....yeah you do, you ate crap for a long time and didn't exercise....that is how you got big! No discussion or debate...that is what happend.
The moral of my story(LOL) is that i know why im not seeing the gains that i want to see in myself and it has stopped....there will be no more off plan eating....i will be a good girl for the next 10 (less now) weeks and we shall see what happens.....i know i can do it, and so can everyone else as long as they are willing to put in the effort...that is how it goes right?
Whew...anyway....today was good so far.....i got up at 5:15, did cardio (YAY..>EMC) and then went to the gym and did shoulders! Love doing shoulders :)
At lunch i ran stairs for 15 minutes too! Im on the 23rd floor....so i ran down to 18 and then double stepped with lunges with 5 pulses on each leg back all the way up to the 30th floor and then back down again and then back up to 23...so that was fun! got my heart rate way up!
Tonight will be another 45 min on the treadmill and some abs.
other than that....im doing ok today...i guess competing has its up days and down days......and really down days.....but that is ok, just as long as we all know that we come back up and do what needs to be done, right?
8 comments:
I know you'll be fine.
Take care and GOOD LUCK.
:-) :-).
Matt
I think with the diet, the thing that keeps me on track is this: If I can't have 5 cookies, I don't want any... Since I know I cannot eat 5 then I wont eat 1. That keeps me on track because it makes me realize that food is just for fun and it'll only last a couple minutes!
Glad you are feeling better!
The ups and downs are crazy with competing. It's so mental!!
I sent you an email about the suit
I can so relate. As a recovering alcoholic AND someone also on this journey of trying to get my Dreambody, it is EXACTLY the same. That first compulsive bite is exactly like that first drink. One is too many and a thousand is never enough.
Keep up the good fight!
Hey Hon!! ;-) What matters most is that you just keep pressin on. Don't stop and you won't ever fail.
;-)
KO
you have a great attitude. its tough to get thru that mindset but you have good determination and i know you will! it is nice to have someone you love back you!!
hang in there! there are plenty of us here too who love ya and will help you kick ur butt into shape :)
Hey girl...I am new to blogging as well as competing! I will follow you as you continue your journey. Please feel free to become a follower of my blog! The more we help each other the better!
Good luck!
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