Im kinda bummed out today....im trying to stay positive about it but i know its for the best.
I got a chance to talk to Tony yesterday...had a great talk....he wanted to know where my head was..if i was ready to win :) I told him that i really didn't think that i would be ready in 7 weeks...so he told me to get pictures to him tonight and to let him decide....but in the meantime to look and see if there were any other shows that were a little further out. But he also needed to know if i did have to hold off for another show, would it upset me? Would i loose focus? I told him no...i dont think so....he wants me up there to be a winner...not just be up there for the fun of it...which is hard for me to think like that because i really dont feel like i could win?? What I mean to say, that i never really thought of myself as one of those competitve people who just push themselves to death just to win....i like the process and i like the goal....would i want to win---hell yeah, im not going to lie, but for that to drive me to the stage? no! And maybe that is my problem?? Not sure.....
So needless to say, i sent him pics last night.....talked to him this morning and he thinks that i have too much lower body fat right now and to have to push myself that hard for the next 7 weeks and kill myself trying to get lean enough, and then still not getting where i need to be, he thinks i should wait....i know i need to, too...but it still sucks! This is what happened to me last year!
But i need to be strong and to stay strong and focused.....now, my only other issue is the shows....tracey greenwood has another show in DE on August 1st...which is an extra 4 weeks prep....or the Atlantic City Pro/Amateur which i think is a pretty big show...and might be too overwhelming for me to do??? Not sure though! That would be a big goal show for me to do! That is a major goal...a lot of pros do that show....that would be awesome just to see them backstage! LOL!
The only good thing is that since we are going for a later show that my cardio got cut to an hour
.....i am still going to continue to do more cardio though...because i think that is what is going to lean me out the most....my lower body has a lot of fat to get rid of.
So i texted tony and told him i need a game plan.....we shall see what he says ;)
I got a chance to talk to Tony yesterday...had a great talk....he wanted to know where my head was..if i was ready to win :) I told him that i really didn't think that i would be ready in 7 weeks...so he told me to get pictures to him tonight and to let him decide....but in the meantime to look and see if there were any other shows that were a little further out. But he also needed to know if i did have to hold off for another show, would it upset me? Would i loose focus? I told him no...i dont think so....he wants me up there to be a winner...not just be up there for the fun of it...which is hard for me to think like that because i really dont feel like i could win?? What I mean to say, that i never really thought of myself as one of those competitve people who just push themselves to death just to win....i like the process and i like the goal....would i want to win---hell yeah, im not going to lie, but for that to drive me to the stage? no! And maybe that is my problem?? Not sure.....
So needless to say, i sent him pics last night.....talked to him this morning and he thinks that i have too much lower body fat right now and to have to push myself that hard for the next 7 weeks and kill myself trying to get lean enough, and then still not getting where i need to be, he thinks i should wait....i know i need to, too...but it still sucks! This is what happened to me last year!
But i need to be strong and to stay strong and focused.....now, my only other issue is the shows....tracey greenwood has another show in DE on August 1st...which is an extra 4 weeks prep....or the Atlantic City Pro/Amateur which i think is a pretty big show...and might be too overwhelming for me to do??? Not sure though! That would be a big goal show for me to do! That is a major goal...a lot of pros do that show....that would be awesome just to see them backstage! LOL!
The only good thing is that since we are going for a later show that my cardio got cut to an hour
.....i am still going to continue to do more cardio though...because i think that is what is going to lean me out the most....my lower body has a lot of fat to get rid of.So i texted tony and told him i need a game plan.....we shall see what he says ;)
6 comments:
Don't feel bummed. Be happy that you ever time :)
It's not canceled, it's delayed. Mabye giving yourself more time is just what you need to bring yoru best to the table! I'm still rootin' for you and I know you'll be back on stage looking awesome in NO TIME!
Hey Becca,
That Atlantic City show will get some great coverage and the pictures will be all over the place... how fun??!!!
~C.
Sorry I called you Becca,
I was just looking at Becca's post above... I know you aren't Becca! lol
~C.
Only you cna truly, know how much you want something, and what you're prepared ot do.
Nobody can make you feel something strongly enough if you don't, no matter how good something is made to sound, you ultimately must feel 100% comfortable and ready for it.
I've never doubted you as a person, and still don't. I think you could do more and go further, but you must want it as much as it needs to be wanted.
I am sure you CAN be as good as you may have thought you could be.
You just need to be strong and keep focussing, and remember you're not just doing this for the stage success, you're doing this because who wants to become old, weak and painful?
GOOD LUCK.
:-) :-).
Matt
Try not to be too bummed. You seem to know what is best for you and if waiting it out a little longer helps, that go for it.
P.S. Your pics look awesome! You have come so far already.
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