So much to write and so little time ;)
I haven't posted since thursday. I am the worst!
Lets recap....Friday...EMC-30 minutes---gym---triceps and abs...after work---45 minutes cardio, made dinner (protein pancakes) and then watched ANTM with Angelica.
Saturday---60 minutes EMC done...didn't do ab workout....went to a communion party---i was a good girl....only ate chicken and string beans....the string beans were almondine and probably had a little more EVOO in there than i would usually make it but it was all i could eat there so i made the best of it.....i was going good not eating anything until my damn sister breaks me off a piece of her chocolate chip cookie! WTF!!! It looked so good and it was only a tiny peice ;) So i ate it :( But then i put gum in my mouth so i wouldn't eat anything else! Saturday night we were going to go to the movies to see Wolverine but we wound up eating dinner later than usual (chicken and broccoli) and by the time we got done eating it was after 8:00! So that went out the window...so we wound up watching Hancock (which we had bought on blu-ray and never watched). I liked it...the special effects were cool.
Sunday----yesterday-----got up, made breakfast, did cardio, my ab workout, went to dinner for my mom.....again i was a good girl for the most part.....didn't eat the yummy bread basket that was enticing me with the pizza bread in it! OMG! It looked so good! I got ahi tuna with avocado salsa for appetizer that i split with my sister...and then i had sea bass and asparagus for dinner. no dessert...just coffee....oh i did have a piece of cantalope...and 3 grapes.....
and now i wonder why my weight was the same this week! 115.2
Talked to Tony this afternoon....we had a good talk. i told him my weight wasn't moving (but that was because of me) and i feel like im not doing what i should be. It is all my doing....i know that..so i need to stop beating myself up...i need to stick exactly to the meal plan and do exactly what he says and see what happens....he wants pics tonight to decide if i will be ready for the end of June. I said i dont think i will be...he asked if i will be mentally be able to handle it if he tells me i wont be and to pick another show. There are only two other options for me....August 1st...the other Tracey Greenwood show in Delaware.....and the Atlantic City Pro/amateur in September. Its all a matter of how bad i want it i guess???
He asked me to stop weighing myself everyday and to just weigh myself on sunday mornings. I really need to though because i really get myself all bummed out and i hate myself just by the number on that fucking stupid scale! I really have to stop it!
So we are going to stay positive....and eat what i am supposed to eat...nothing else....no more nibbles! (He called me a nibbler...LOL) I am! And it is what is probably most likely killing whatever im doing at the gym...it needs to stop! If i want to be lean and mean, i need to stop picking and i need to start weighing my food more! I think i also may be eating more than i am supposed to.....
Example...breakfast....i was putting a teaspoon of chopped walnuts in there.....had to stop that. Or a teaspoon of almond butter...omg that was so good! I tried that the other day wth my oats! SOOO good! Could that really be hurting me? I guess so!
If this is what i want to do (compete) then i need to do what it takes right?
We shall see!!!!!
I haven't posted since thursday. I am the worst!
Lets recap....Friday...EMC-30 minutes---gym---triceps and abs...after work---45 minutes cardio, made dinner (protein pancakes) and then watched ANTM with Angelica.
Saturday---60 minutes EMC done...didn't do ab workout....went to a communion party---i was a good girl....only ate chicken and string beans....the string beans were almondine and probably had a little more EVOO in there than i would usually make it but it was all i could eat there so i made the best of it.....i was going good not eating anything until my damn sister breaks me off a piece of her chocolate chip cookie! WTF!!! It looked so good and it was only a tiny peice ;) So i ate it :( But then i put gum in my mouth so i wouldn't eat anything else! Saturday night we were going to go to the movies to see Wolverine but we wound up eating dinner later than usual (chicken and broccoli) and by the time we got done eating it was after 8:00! So that went out the window...so we wound up watching Hancock (which we had bought on blu-ray and never watched). I liked it...the special effects were cool.
Sunday----yesterday-----got up, made breakfast, did cardio, my ab workout, went to dinner for my mom.....again i was a good girl for the most part.....didn't eat the yummy bread basket that was enticing me with the pizza bread in it! OMG! It looked so good! I got ahi tuna with avocado salsa for appetizer that i split with my sister...and then i had sea bass and asparagus for dinner. no dessert...just coffee....oh i did have a piece of cantalope...and 3 grapes.....
and now i wonder why my weight was the same this week! 115.2
Talked to Tony this afternoon....we had a good talk. i told him my weight wasn't moving (but that was because of me) and i feel like im not doing what i should be. It is all my doing....i know that..so i need to stop beating myself up...i need to stick exactly to the meal plan and do exactly what he says and see what happens....he wants pics tonight to decide if i will be ready for the end of June. I said i dont think i will be...he asked if i will be mentally be able to handle it if he tells me i wont be and to pick another show. There are only two other options for me....August 1st...the other Tracey Greenwood show in Delaware.....and the Atlantic City Pro/amateur in September. Its all a matter of how bad i want it i guess???
He asked me to stop weighing myself everyday and to just weigh myself on sunday mornings. I really need to though because i really get myself all bummed out and i hate myself just by the number on that fucking stupid scale! I really have to stop it!
So we are going to stay positive....and eat what i am supposed to eat...nothing else....no more nibbles! (He called me a nibbler...LOL) I am! And it is what is probably most likely killing whatever im doing at the gym...it needs to stop! If i want to be lean and mean, i need to stop picking and i need to start weighing my food more! I think i also may be eating more than i am supposed to.....
Example...breakfast....i was putting a teaspoon of chopped walnuts in there.....had to stop that. Or a teaspoon of almond butter...omg that was so good! I tried that the other day wth my oats! SOOO good! Could that really be hurting me? I guess so!
If this is what i want to do (compete) then i need to do what it takes right?
We shall see!!!!!
4 comments:
Good post girlie. I know what yo're talking about and I was the same way. A walnut there, a tsp almond butter here...maybe some sugar free syrup...(even just a spoonful). Not sure that it hurt me then but everyone talks about being 100% clean so that is my goal for next time. YOU CAN DO IT. I'm rooting for you for end of June. Either way, you're gonna do one but I think you can get it together for the first one.
EYE ON THE PRIZE. YOU got it.
aww dam I was contemplating putting a T. of pb in my oats... guess I better not lol. Go for it!! You can so so it! But yourself something nice for sticking to the plan! like a car! LOL!
I'm rooting for you girlie. I know I've said it before but it's true; what counts is that you keep pressin on and don't give up. We are all so unique and for some of us, it takes longer to figure out what is exactly right for us to excel.
Keep it up.
;-)
KO
Yes, adding the Fats could be hindering your cutting process.
Just keep doing your best and try not to be too hard on yourself okay.
:-) :-).
Matt
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