My body hurts. Well my upper body does anyway ;) I really pushed myself yesterday at the gym and i was kinda proud of myself. But now my arms, shoulders and back are killing me. In a good way of course :) I need to get rid of this pooch belly though....its making me crazy!
On another note, why do i feel guilty for not going over my parents for dinner during the week?? I told my mom this morning that I wasnt going over tomorrow (the day my sister and her husband are coming over) for dinner because my two friends are coming over to visit and im making dinner. My mom says "you never come over anymore." I was trying to explain to her that it is hard for me to come during the week because if i go to the gym, i dont get home until 7:00 and dinner is over for them already. and it's more of a pain in the ass rushing through my workout and then getting home at 9:30-10:00 at night. Plus Adam doesn't like going there during the week for the same reason. But I feel bad. I know she wants all of us over together to eat. Plus my other problem with going over there is the way that they eat. I am trying to be strict and their idea of eating good is only having 1 measuring cup of pasta (weight watchers) for dinner and coffee and fat free cookies for dessert. I am trying to eat clean. No pasta, potatoes, etc., and especially no cookies!
On Sunday, I realized how my eating habits are heriditary: me and my mom and my sister, her husband and a few members of his family went to the diner for breakfast. I ordered egg whites with onion and a little bit of cheese, no potatos and dry wheat toast. Fine, i thought. Well my order came and they gave me regular eggs instead of whites. So at first i was going to just eat them, then decided to send them back. well in the meantime, everyone else is eating and im sitting there waiting. My mom offers me some of her waffles. I say no, thank you. Then she said "its only a few bites, it won't kill you." THERE YA GO! RIGHT THERE! that has been my philosophy my adult life. All of my weight gain is attributed to "just bites" So, politely I said "no, the whole purpose of me getting egg whites and wheat toast is to be healthy, and that would totally defeat the purpose of me ordering that." So, i hope she didn't get offended but im trying to better myself. It is so hard to be good and so easy to be bad.
My whole family is pretty much overweight. My mom was a lot heavier. She lost a lot on weight watchers a few years ago. So did my sister. When she got married, she got so thin....since then, she has put some back on. I think that everyone in my family just has that predisposition to be heavy and i have to put a stop to it. That is why i need to stay in my house and control every move that i make. My family is going to be upset with me i think but I HAVE to do this for myself, ya know????
On another note, why do i feel guilty for not going over my parents for dinner during the week?? I told my mom this morning that I wasnt going over tomorrow (the day my sister and her husband are coming over) for dinner because my two friends are coming over to visit and im making dinner. My mom says "you never come over anymore." I was trying to explain to her that it is hard for me to come during the week because if i go to the gym, i dont get home until 7:00 and dinner is over for them already. and it's more of a pain in the ass rushing through my workout and then getting home at 9:30-10:00 at night. Plus Adam doesn't like going there during the week for the same reason. But I feel bad. I know she wants all of us over together to eat. Plus my other problem with going over there is the way that they eat. I am trying to be strict and their idea of eating good is only having 1 measuring cup of pasta (weight watchers) for dinner and coffee and fat free cookies for dessert. I am trying to eat clean. No pasta, potatoes, etc., and especially no cookies!
On Sunday, I realized how my eating habits are heriditary: me and my mom and my sister, her husband and a few members of his family went to the diner for breakfast. I ordered egg whites with onion and a little bit of cheese, no potatos and dry wheat toast. Fine, i thought. Well my order came and they gave me regular eggs instead of whites. So at first i was going to just eat them, then decided to send them back. well in the meantime, everyone else is eating and im sitting there waiting. My mom offers me some of her waffles. I say no, thank you. Then she said "its only a few bites, it won't kill you." THERE YA GO! RIGHT THERE! that has been my philosophy my adult life. All of my weight gain is attributed to "just bites" So, politely I said "no, the whole purpose of me getting egg whites and wheat toast is to be healthy, and that would totally defeat the purpose of me ordering that." So, i hope she didn't get offended but im trying to better myself. It is so hard to be good and so easy to be bad.
My whole family is pretty much overweight. My mom was a lot heavier. She lost a lot on weight watchers a few years ago. So did my sister. When she got married, she got so thin....since then, she has put some back on. I think that everyone in my family just has that predisposition to be heavy and i have to put a stop to it. That is why i need to stay in my house and control every move that i make. My family is going to be upset with me i think but I HAVE to do this for myself, ya know????
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