I so dont know what to do here. Im really new at this. Hopefully i will be able to keep up with this and it can be my outlet to my thoughts and frustrations! Well my life is pretty boring but i will try and make it as exciting as possible. Tonight i am getting my haircut at this new salon. I haven't had my hair cut in quite a while (June, I think) and something seriously needs to be done with this head. Hopefully i will like it. I need a new style.
This is my second week of serious dieting and exercise. I was doing Body for Life last year and I was really doing well with it...then easter came and i ate at my sisters house which is totally a food fest, and i went off...and since then i have gained a lot of weight. I was actually down to 119 pounds when i was on it (which is still really high for me to begin with since im only 5" tall). I hate myself so much. I got on the scale on January 2 and i was an atrocious 132 pounds! I almost died! i have NEVER in my life been that big. Not that its obese or anything, but when you are wearing a size 8 and they are tight (when before the biggest i have ever been was a 6 and i thought that was big) there was no going back. I have made up my mind and there is no turning back. I am going to lose 25 pounds. I need to get down to under 110 pounds. I think back to when i was in high school...i was 97 pounds! i was a size 0-2. I would DIE to be even close to that! I know, im 34 years old and my metabolism has changed and yada yada yada...but there is no way in hell that i should weigh as much as i do. So now my mission is simple.....exercise everyday, dont get discouraged and eat clean. it shouldnt be too hard now should it????
I have so many issues with regard to my weight, but maybe i will get into it at a different time. I loathe myself sometimes. Especially when i just sit there and grab the roll that is hanging over my pants as im sitting here typing this. I need to get a better self image and try and be positive.
This is my second week of serious dieting and exercise. I was doing Body for Life last year and I was really doing well with it...then easter came and i ate at my sisters house which is totally a food fest, and i went off...and since then i have gained a lot of weight. I was actually down to 119 pounds when i was on it (which is still really high for me to begin with since im only 5" tall). I hate myself so much. I got on the scale on January 2 and i was an atrocious 132 pounds! I almost died! i have NEVER in my life been that big. Not that its obese or anything, but when you are wearing a size 8 and they are tight (when before the biggest i have ever been was a 6 and i thought that was big) there was no going back. I have made up my mind and there is no turning back. I am going to lose 25 pounds. I need to get down to under 110 pounds. I think back to when i was in high school...i was 97 pounds! i was a size 0-2. I would DIE to be even close to that! I know, im 34 years old and my metabolism has changed and yada yada yada...but there is no way in hell that i should weigh as much as i do. So now my mission is simple.....exercise everyday, dont get discouraged and eat clean. it shouldnt be too hard now should it????
I have so many issues with regard to my weight, but maybe i will get into it at a different time. I loathe myself sometimes. Especially when i just sit there and grab the roll that is hanging over my pants as im sitting here typing this. I need to get a better self image and try and be positive.
This feels kinda good. I may enjoy this venting thing :)
Exercise for today:
Upper body & Abs
Food intake:
M1:protien pancakes, coffee, light syrup, water;
M2: protien shake
M3: lettuce with FF ginger soy dressing, 2 oz salmon, string beans;
M4: Myoplex light bar
M5: (will be) tuna on pita with tomato, salad
M6: coffee, protien pudding
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